Since I am in Arab region, where Muslim cultures were strictly implemented, I am blessed that somehow, there is this Christmas spirit that's standing in the midst of our department...
Last Thursday, we had a Merry-Pot-Luck Day in the office; a merienda cena in our department followed by exchange gift from the Secret Santa!
A traditional Christmas celebration that we, Christians were used to. We had it in school, church, offices, with friends and family.
Hearing Sleigh Bells
Have you heard that ting-a-ling-ling these days?
The season of happy songs from the happy heart and happy souls is finally here.
We'll I haven't heard any Christmas carols on this side of the planet but the ting-a-ling-ling-ting-ting-a-ling-dong is buzzing on my ears... in my mind and in my heart.
The season of happy songs from the happy heart and happy souls is finally here.
We'll I haven't heard any Christmas carols on this side of the planet but the ting-a-ling-ling-ting-ting-a-ling-dong is buzzing on my ears... in my mind and in my heart.
Vision Board
3 years ago, I started to create and believe in the vision board - as mentioned in Rhonda Byrne's The Secret - Understanding the law of attraction - and the power of positive thinking.
My first vision board was not a board at all, I just posted a DVD cover of the movie - Dubai on my cabinet. It was 2007. Few months after that, I found myself in UAE.
My first vision board was not a board at all, I just posted a DVD cover of the movie - Dubai on my cabinet. It was 2007. Few months after that, I found myself in UAE.
My Cup and The Bread
One dose a day... at least?!?
Since I chose to stay healthy... I tried to have (as much as possible) only one cup a day. Though there are times that I took two -- one at night with friends. Compared to almost 7 + cups before... maximum of 2 cups is a breakthrough in my healthy lifestyle :)
For Them
Chocolates on October
October was another roller coaster month for me!
It was fast and had many loops... high and low days... straight and curved...
As I was browsing over my desk planner, I noticed many red marks and sad faces on it... many things happened... and those are NOT just ordinary incidents...
Now, I realized that its not just another roller coaster ride with thrill and excitement.
But October is indeed a month of surprises.
A box of chocolate...
It was fast and had many loops... high and low days... straight and curved...
As I was browsing over my desk planner, I noticed many red marks and sad faces on it... many things happened... and those are NOT just ordinary incidents...
Now, I realized that its not just another roller coaster ride with thrill and excitement.
But October is indeed a month of surprises.
A box of chocolate...
hOUR Glass
In this world, we were moved by our ambitions of who we want to become, what we wanted to have and how we can achieve it. We also planned where it should happen and when the time is.
We spent our lives trying so hard to accomplish things on our own ways... our mind never stops thinking on how well we can be and how beautiful life can become...
But more often, we missed THAT MOMENT without realizing that it already passed -- when we already lived with our dreams... because we are so busy looking forward to something better.
The Life that is Truly Life
It's my 200th post.
After saying Bye Bye Love on the 2nd year of Kali...
It's about time to let go of the life I planned to accept the life that is waiting for me.
As I randomly checked some of my previous posts, memories flashed back... actually, I cannot believe that I was able publish it and let people enter into my life.
From the story of The Good Samaritan... and how I was EMBARRASSED by my nephew's faith and the many Happy Thoughts that we shared...
Different issues, personal stories, you got to know my family and friends, I was able to share my point of views, my dreams and frustrations, heartaches and pains, inspirations and goals...
After saying Bye Bye Love on the 2nd year of Kali...
It's about time to let go of the life I planned to accept the life that is waiting for me.
As I randomly checked some of my previous posts, memories flashed back... actually, I cannot believe that I was able publish it and let people enter into my life.
From the story of The Good Samaritan... and how I was EMBARRASSED by my nephew's faith and the many Happy Thoughts that we shared...
Different issues, personal stories, you got to know my family and friends, I was able to share my point of views, my dreams and frustrations, heartaches and pains, inspirations and goals...
Bye Bye Love
I believed when u said that we'll see each other in the right time...
And that someday our path will cross again.
Summer ended and cool wind is here
Embracing me on this cold and lonely evening
Somehow I am wishing that you're here beside me
And we are praying together that God will bless us endlessly.
And that someday our path will cross again.
Summer ended and cool wind is here
Embracing me on this cold and lonely evening
Somehow I am wishing that you're here beside me
And we are praying together that God will bless us endlessly.
Star Light, Star Bright
The cool breeze is here again...
Summer of 2010 will soon be over; an unforgettable one for me, the best summer I had here in M.E.
Being excited for winter, I decided to take a walk along Buhaira corniche tonight.
And yes, its almost winter!
Summer of 2010 will soon be over; an unforgettable one for me, the best summer I had here in M.E.
Being excited for winter, I decided to take a walk along Buhaira corniche tonight.
And yes, its almost winter!
A for Effort
Few days back, I wasn't sure if I was just experiencing another 'holiday hang-over' -- but that was not the first time that I felt bored at work... it's all over my head and I felt that I do not want to create another job nor talk to anyone regarding work again.
I missed the thrill... the excitement in coming to the office everyday.
Everything seems monotonous... numbers and computation irritates me... not to mention some people who I felt were insatiable and so insensitive. I know it was alarming -- because I started to hate my job :(
I somehow felt depressed... but I have to drag myself to go to work. There are days when I will just sit and stumble at the net, replying only to urgent matters... the rest of the jobs... I just ignore them. My self-esteem was so low... thinking that this is not the job for me...
Everything changed after one phone conversation that I had with my Ninang.
I missed the thrill... the excitement in coming to the office everyday.
Everything seems monotonous... numbers and computation irritates me... not to mention some people who I felt were insatiable and so insensitive. I know it was alarming -- because I started to hate my job :(
I somehow felt depressed... but I have to drag myself to go to work. There are days when I will just sit and stumble at the net, replying only to urgent matters... the rest of the jobs... I just ignore them. My self-esteem was so low... thinking that this is not the job for me...
Everything changed after one phone conversation that I had with my Ninang.
I Saw The Signs...
...but I rejected it.
How many times do we need to ask for it?
And how many confirmations do we need for us to believe?
As human beings, we always want to be 101% sure in every step that we'll take.
We need a guarantee that this will turn out the way we wanted it to be.
An assurance that we are on the right track...
Hence, because of that, we tend to limit our capacity.
By playing safe, we are not able to maximize our potentials... and not giving our best in things that we do often results to frustrations.
How many times do we need to ask for it?
And how many confirmations do we need for us to believe?
As human beings, we always want to be 101% sure in every step that we'll take.
We need a guarantee that this will turn out the way we wanted it to be.
An assurance that we are on the right track...
Hence, because of that, we tend to limit our capacity.
By playing safe, we are not able to maximize our potentials... and not giving our best in things that we do often results to frustrations.
Wrap Up
Have you noticed how quick August passed?
Today is the last for this month, while the rest were history.
Personally, this month was somehow memorable to me.
Being with my Nanay and Tatay until the10th day made it extra special. Happiness Overload! Every second was so valuable; as my tita said, it's priceless...
The 11th was the start of Ramadan, and since I am in a Muslim country and most of people are fasting, it is a general rule that the working hours were shortened from 8 to 6 :-) Aside from the 2 hours extra, work load was near to nothing... there were only few jobs to be done on this season...
Today is the last for this month, while the rest were history.
Personally, this month was somehow memorable to me.
Being with my Nanay and Tatay until the10th day made it extra special. Happiness Overload! Every second was so valuable; as my tita said, it's priceless...
The 11th was the start of Ramadan, and since I am in a Muslim country and most of people are fasting, it is a general rule that the working hours were shortened from 8 to 6 :-) Aside from the 2 hours extra, work load was near to nothing... there were only few jobs to be done on this season...
Unbonded
I'm intact... or just 'I thought' I was?
It's the 12th day of Ramadan...
the silence and boredom here in the office is killing me!
it should be fun... less work load and less working hours.
plus the benefit of still eating during break (hidden of course) just makes it greater...
and what could be the best than not having a boss at all :)
but then, again... I miss the stress.
I miss cramming.
I miss the last minute and 'wait for a minute' call to the service driver informing him that 'Hey, I'm coming!'
I miss the 'OK, well take the 2nd trip... I still have to finish something...'
and I miss the "wattaday' scene here in the office...
It's the 12th day of Ramadan...
the silence and boredom here in the office is killing me!
it should be fun... less work load and less working hours.
plus the benefit of still eating during break (hidden of course) just makes it greater...
and what could be the best than not having a boss at all :)
but then, again... I miss the stress.
I miss cramming.
I miss the last minute and 'wait for a minute' call to the service driver informing him that 'Hey, I'm coming!'
I miss the 'OK, well take the 2nd trip... I still have to finish something...'
and I miss the "wattaday' scene here in the office...
Ramadan Kareem!
Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان ) is the ninth month of the Islamic calendar.
The word Ramadan comes originally from the word ramd "to burn". The month is spent by Muslims fasting during the daylight hours from dawn to sunset. The name came from before the Islamic calendar creation, when the month of Ramadan started in the summer. Fasting during this month is often thought to symbolically burn away all sins.
What are you wearing today?
When was the last time you visited the mall?
Have you seen the lastest collection from your favorite boutique, or you already had one?
Red tags and signages are all around the malls here in Dubai as the end of the Dubai Shopping Festival... finishing all the stocks before the launching of the new collection...
In the fancy world where I move, with the walking manequins that I can see everyday with the most expensive bags and shoes that they wear... it makes me think whether these people get satisfied ever, with what they have?
Here in the office, while walking along corridor, some people will look at you as if they are security officer checking whether you have bombs under your shirt... or as if they are computing your 'value' for what you have, from head to foot.
Have you seen the lastest collection from your favorite boutique, or you already had one?
Red tags and signages are all around the malls here in Dubai as the end of the Dubai Shopping Festival... finishing all the stocks before the launching of the new collection...
In the fancy world where I move, with the walking manequins that I can see everyday with the most expensive bags and shoes that they wear... it makes me think whether these people get satisfied ever, with what they have?
Here in the office, while walking along corridor, some people will look at you as if they are security officer checking whether you have bombs under your shirt... or as if they are computing your 'value' for what you have, from head to foot.
Flydragon Flies
In our journey, there are these strangers that will somehow leave an impact in our lives...
People whom we do not know personally, yet touched our hearts even in very simple way.
Flydragon is one of my first few followers here in my blog.
She has inspired me with A little of this... A little of that
Reading her daily adventure makes blogging more fun and exciting with her witty stories... I looked forward to her posts, the birds and the flowers... her comments and once in a while hi and hello!
People whom we do not know personally, yet touched our hearts even in very simple way.
Flydragon is one of my first few followers here in my blog.
She has inspired me with A little of this... A little of that
Reading her daily adventure makes blogging more fun and exciting with her witty stories... I looked forward to her posts, the birds and the flowers... her comments and once in a while hi and hello!
Happiness Overload!!!
I am so awake.
And sooo happy.
It's been 9 days since my parents arrived for vacation here in the UAE...
Cloud 9 for me and my brother. Every minute was so precious, so memorable...
I just can't shout loud enough to tell you how happy I am now.
This is their first travel out of the country.
A dream come true...
The happiness was really overloaded.
Our hearts were shouting for joy.
Giving thanks and praise to our Lord God who made this possible.
Indeed, He is an awesome God.
He fulfilled His promises to those who believe...
Meeting My Momay
FYI: Momay is Philippine TV's version of Casper.
Every night when I reach home, she hugs me tight...
Yes! and that keeps all my hair up until midnight!
When I kiss our babies, Macs, Tiqueng, Riqqa and Dyoni, I am aware of her sweet kisses too...
I can feel her presence somewhere in our little home that is "only for two".
Admittedly... I am afraid of ghost! For the reason that they are GHOSTS!!! and who is not, by the way?
I don't know if they really exist...
But I had few encounters with them. I am aware that 'its them' or 'they're it'...
Recently, I shared with you my drama of being HOME alone but not lonely...
I can actually give an excellent grade for myself because I know that I have achieved my goal... Until now, this experience is teaching me a lot and I am enjoying it, everyday... I am growing... :)
Back to Momay...
Born Free
Have you ever doubted His might and power?
Have you ever felt that He is deaf, and not hearing your prayers?
Do you feel tired waiting for miracles to happen?
Or did you gave up that faith and let go of His promises?
Not all the time, life is easy
Each of us has our own misery...
Today the sun smiles and you may feel lucky
Yet tomorrow is cloudy and you might not be happy.
We cried out in prayers, asking for help
Or we jumped for happiness, for the blessings that we have
Everyone has his own burden, a trial to resolve
And the gifts also differ, depending on what our life needs to hold.
Have you ever felt that He is deaf, and not hearing your prayers?
Do you feel tired waiting for miracles to happen?
Or did you gave up that faith and let go of His promises?
Not all the time, life is easy
Each of us has our own misery...
Today the sun smiles and you may feel lucky
Yet tomorrow is cloudy and you might not be happy.
We cried out in prayers, asking for help
Or we jumped for happiness, for the blessings that we have
Everyone has his own burden, a trial to resolve
And the gifts also differ, depending on what our life needs to hold.
Christ-ian
In the word Christian, what will happen if we remove CHRIST?
I-A-N was left...
I
Am
Nothing
Again, this is stock knowledge, something that I learned during grade school...
Yet from then on, it was glued on my mind... a post-it reminder that keeps echoing in my memory.
Without Christ, I Am Nothing.
To be a Christian... all we need is Christ.
This very simple fact has always been the missing link to connect other 'Christians' to reality... we tend to make things complicated... tried hard to do what 'we think' will save us and will make us worthy of His grace.
We may have done the greatest act of charity... donated millions... save people's lives... send many kids to school... serve country with all honesty... sacrificed your personal happiness for others... even gave your life to someone else...
Yet, its nothing, unless we accept Christ.
I-A-N was left...
I
Am
Nothing
Again, this is stock knowledge, something that I learned during grade school...
Yet from then on, it was glued on my mind... a post-it reminder that keeps echoing in my memory.
Without Christ, I Am Nothing.
To be a Christian... all we need is Christ.
This very simple fact has always been the missing link to connect other 'Christians' to reality... we tend to make things complicated... tried hard to do what 'we think' will save us and will make us worthy of His grace.
We may have done the greatest act of charity... donated millions... save people's lives... send many kids to school... serve country with all honesty... sacrificed your personal happiness for others... even gave your life to someone else...
Yet, its nothing, unless we accept Christ.
Yellow Light Is On...
"Today marks the end of a regime indifferent to the appeals of the people. It is not Noynoy who found a way. You are the reason why the silent suffering of the nation is about to end. This is the beginning of my burden, but if many of us will bear the cross, we will lift it, no matter how heavy it is." -excerpt from Noy's Inaugural Address
Once again, it is the voice of the people that was heard all over the country; and this time, it didn't happen in Edsa...
As the first ever automated election happened in the Philippines, all ballots were canvassed... there might be some lapses, but the votes were counted.
And today's inauguration marks the beginning of a better Philippines.
As P'Noy said, "You are the reason why the silent suffering of the nation is about to end."
People unites again...
One in prayer... One in hope that the country will recover.
Indeed, Noynoy's time was the hardest transition in the history, as he inherited the worst situation in the country. And all eyes will be on him...
Hopefully, people won't just watch him but will join him in rebuilding our nation.
There is still hope... we just have to stand again...
And the change that we all wanted does not only rely on the hands of P'Noy... because it is us that will make this country move forward... it is in every Filipino people.
We have to start within us... within the family... within the community...
It should start within ourselves...
"I will not be able to face my parents and you who have brought me here if do not fulfill the promises I made.
My parents sought nothing less, died for nothing less, than democracy and peace. I am blessed by this legacy. I shall carry the torch forward." - P'Noy
May we adapt the same value that our leader has for his family... for his parents...
For if we all want our parents to be proud of us... can you imagine how peaceful our country will be? How successful each of us may be?
If we are parents who wanted to leave a good legacy to our kids... will there ever a domestic violence again?
The success of a country relies on its people.
"...if many of us will bear the cross, we will lift it, no matter how heavy it is." -P'Noy
Now, the Yellow light is on...
It doesn't mean Go or Stop...
but simply a warning; a signal to mellow down; to be ready...
Because change is coming and we all have to prepare...
Once again, it is the voice of the people that was heard all over the country; and this time, it didn't happen in Edsa...
As the first ever automated election happened in the Philippines, all ballots were canvassed... there might be some lapses, but the votes were counted.
And today's inauguration marks the beginning of a better Philippines.
As P'Noy said, "You are the reason why the silent suffering of the nation is about to end."
People unites again...
One in prayer... One in hope that the country will recover.
Indeed, Noynoy's time was the hardest transition in the history, as he inherited the worst situation in the country. And all eyes will be on him...
Hopefully, people won't just watch him but will join him in rebuilding our nation.
There is still hope... we just have to stand again...
And the change that we all wanted does not only rely on the hands of P'Noy... because it is us that will make this country move forward... it is in every Filipino people.
We have to start within us... within the family... within the community...
It should start within ourselves...
"I will not be able to face my parents and you who have brought me here if do not fulfill the promises I made.
My parents sought nothing less, died for nothing less, than democracy and peace. I am blessed by this legacy. I shall carry the torch forward." - P'Noy
May we adapt the same value that our leader has for his family... for his parents...
For if we all want our parents to be proud of us... can you imagine how peaceful our country will be? How successful each of us may be?
If we are parents who wanted to leave a good legacy to our kids... will there ever a domestic violence again?
The success of a country relies on its people.
"...if many of us will bear the cross, we will lift it, no matter how heavy it is." -P'Noy
Now, the Yellow light is on...
It doesn't mean Go or Stop...
but simply a warning; a signal to mellow down; to be ready...
Because change is coming and we all have to prepare...
HOME ALONE but not lonely...
Let me borrow that famous line...
One of my many fears that I am trying to overcome is to be home alone.
Yes. At 30, I still can't sleep alone...
I have strong imagination... Tik-Tak of clock is like a musical scoring in a horror movie... Darkness is like thick clouds where ghosts hide, and in a snap, they will run (or maybe float) towards me. My feet should be covered; otherwise, something or someone will pull me through my feet and bring me under the bed!!!
I am sooo afraid of ghost!
Aside from sleeping, another dilemma is that I don't know how to cook.
I can fry. I can saute...but then what's next? :-)
One of my many fears that I am trying to overcome is to be home alone.
Yes. At 30, I still can't sleep alone...
I have strong imagination... Tik-Tak of clock is like a musical scoring in a horror movie... Darkness is like thick clouds where ghosts hide, and in a snap, they will run (or maybe float) towards me. My feet should be covered; otherwise, something or someone will pull me through my feet and bring me under the bed!!!
I am sooo afraid of ghost!
Aside from sleeping, another dilemma is that I don't know how to cook.
I can fry. I can saute...but then what's next? :-)
Tatay's Girl
I am my Tatay's favorite...
Being the youngest and the only girl, I am the only Tatay's girl!
I am my father's daughter... more than my mother's. My traits are from him.
Aside from the birthmark, there are a lot of my tatay's personalities that I can see in me.
As time passed by, I realized and recognized our similarities...
During first meeting, you will find us snob or quiet or shy :) (really!)
We do not usually join the crowd and chose to stay on small groups.
Our friends are few... yet they are all true. I've seen his peers since I was a kid, and I can see the same set of friends until now. And I hope mine too will last a lifetime like his.
Next is our wit.
He always smiles and makes us laugh. He's a joker. And as I was growing up, I became his side kick... we exchange punch lines! And now that I'm a grown up and he is older, I took the lead, and he is my back up. We love to irritate my nanay with our jokes... We both love to laugh.
We have the same tongue and stomach.
We love eating same types of food, yet he always asks me to eat first and took only what's left from me...
Our patience is long... and our pride is deep.
We seldom get angry and we just keep quiet when we're offended.
I never saw my parents fighting... not that I remember. I know that there are misunderstandings and petty quarrels, but I never heard any arguments. I know my tatay so well. If he is mad, he won't speak to you, until he is ok.
We live by the day...
At first, I took it negatively that he seems to be contented in what we have then... thought that he doesn't dreamt more and just satisfied with what was there... until such time that I was on the same shoes.
Then I understand that it's not that he didn't dream big at all but his dreams for us are bigger that he sacrificed his own. Our lives are his dreams... and he made every single day of it happy as happy as it could.
Making this post is like revealing a part of my personality...
I should stop now to keep some mystery :)
But I want to shout to the whole world that...
I am grateful, I am so proud, I am happy and I am blessed being my Tatay's daughter...
Being the youngest and the only girl, I am the only Tatay's girl!
I am my father's daughter... more than my mother's. My traits are from him.
Aside from the birthmark, there are a lot of my tatay's personalities that I can see in me.
As time passed by, I realized and recognized our similarities...
During first meeting, you will find us snob or quiet or shy :) (really!)
We do not usually join the crowd and chose to stay on small groups.
Our friends are few... yet they are all true. I've seen his peers since I was a kid, and I can see the same set of friends until now. And I hope mine too will last a lifetime like his.
Next is our wit.
He always smiles and makes us laugh. He's a joker. And as I was growing up, I became his side kick... we exchange punch lines! And now that I'm a grown up and he is older, I took the lead, and he is my back up. We love to irritate my nanay with our jokes... We both love to laugh.
We have the same tongue and stomach.
We love eating same types of food, yet he always asks me to eat first and took only what's left from me...
Our patience is long... and our pride is deep.
We seldom get angry and we just keep quiet when we're offended.
I never saw my parents fighting... not that I remember. I know that there are misunderstandings and petty quarrels, but I never heard any arguments. I know my tatay so well. If he is mad, he won't speak to you, until he is ok.
We live by the day...
At first, I took it negatively that he seems to be contented in what we have then... thought that he doesn't dreamt more and just satisfied with what was there... until such time that I was on the same shoes.
Then I understand that it's not that he didn't dream big at all but his dreams for us are bigger that he sacrificed his own. Our lives are his dreams... and he made every single day of it happy as happy as it could.
Making this post is like revealing a part of my personality...
I should stop now to keep some mystery :)
But I want to shout to the whole world that...
I am grateful, I am so proud, I am happy and I am blessed being my Tatay's daughter...
The Value of Sharing
Life is not about having and getting...
but being and becoming.
Familiar? Because it's in my profile :)
That is one of my favorite quotations...
It applies to me and my vision of what life really is.
Aside from being passionate in writing and photography, I am here to share God's faithfulness in my life, on the people around me and in the world where I belong...
I am not a perfect example of what a Christian should be...
But my God is perfect. That is what I want to share.
And that is what we all need to attest...
One friend told me her feelings towards giving testimonies at the time when she still attended a Christian fellowship... that is the portion of the program/activity that she wants to avoid, she felt uncomfortable in sharing her life story...
And she said that maybe, its because of she's still young then and lacking self confidence...
Or I can say that maybe, during 'her' time, the importance of testimonies wasn't explained enough that she didn't understand why it is necessary.
In our church (Phils.), giving testimonies is part of our Sunday service. And weekly, I heard people sharing how great our God is...
I remember being so naive before, not understanding what was happening around...
I found it so odd, that people are crying in front of the church... thanking God but crying at the same time.
There are some who I thought were so proud with their new businesses or new investments or careers...
Others have sick relatives and family members that were in trouble... but still, they were shouting Hallelujah!
Honestly, I thought they were OA then!
Yup... I did :-)
It took me some time before I understand why 'they' do that...
or rather...
I needed to have deeper relationship with Him, wider knowledge about Him, and strong faith in Him before I fully understand why people have to stand there in front, crying while saying their pieces and thanking the Lord...
And maybe, many finds me OA these days, too :-)
We always say, 'count your blessings...'
But after counting, what are we supposed to do?
In our weaknesses, others' may find their strength...
And where we failed, others may succeed.
For me, Christian living is like living in a fantasy world... each day is another miracle... never ending blessings... unlimited happiness and overwhelming joy...
Trials are there, but it won't bring me down... instead, it will draw me closer to Him.
And that wonderful Christian life experience shouldn't be a secret...
We should say it and share it and be proud of it.
In your hearts, set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.
1 Peter 3:15
Let your stories be heard...
Let others be inspired, not of what you have but who you've become through the grace of God.
but being and becoming.
Familiar? Because it's in my profile :)
That is one of my favorite quotations...
It applies to me and my vision of what life really is.
Aside from being passionate in writing and photography, I am here to share God's faithfulness in my life, on the people around me and in the world where I belong...
I am not a perfect example of what a Christian should be...
But my God is perfect. That is what I want to share.
And that is what we all need to attest...
One friend told me her feelings towards giving testimonies at the time when she still attended a Christian fellowship... that is the portion of the program/activity that she wants to avoid, she felt uncomfortable in sharing her life story...
And she said that maybe, its because of she's still young then and lacking self confidence...
Or I can say that maybe, during 'her' time, the importance of testimonies wasn't explained enough that she didn't understand why it is necessary.
In our church (Phils.), giving testimonies is part of our Sunday service. And weekly, I heard people sharing how great our God is...
I remember being so naive before, not understanding what was happening around...
I found it so odd, that people are crying in front of the church... thanking God but crying at the same time.
There are some who I thought were so proud with their new businesses or new investments or careers...
Others have sick relatives and family members that were in trouble... but still, they were shouting Hallelujah!
Honestly, I thought they were OA then!
Yup... I did :-)
It took me some time before I understand why 'they' do that...
or rather...
I needed to have deeper relationship with Him, wider knowledge about Him, and strong faith in Him before I fully understand why people have to stand there in front, crying while saying their pieces and thanking the Lord...
And maybe, many finds me OA these days, too :-)
We always say, 'count your blessings...'
But after counting, what are we supposed to do?
In our weaknesses, others' may find their strength...
And where we failed, others may succeed.
For me, Christian living is like living in a fantasy world... each day is another miracle... never ending blessings... unlimited happiness and overwhelming joy...
Trials are there, but it won't bring me down... instead, it will draw me closer to Him.
And that wonderful Christian life experience shouldn't be a secret...
We should say it and share it and be proud of it.
In your hearts, set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.
1 Peter 3:15
Let your stories be heard...
Let others be inspired, not of what you have but who you've become through the grace of God.
Now On Lane 3
I just hit the big 30!
Yup... just recently :)
And I had the best party ever!!!
I had 3 cakes... 3 candles... 3 wishes...
It was celebrated with 3 different set of friends (early morning, lunch and dinner)...
It was also my 3rd birthday here in Dubai, and my 3rd birthday celebration away from home...
And I had 3 first time on that day...
Let me share with you those 3s... (briefly)
First is the 'alcohol free' yet very fun party!
I am trying to recall when was my last party without alcohol... maybe when I was in highschool?
Maybe...
And for the past years or hmmmm... decade of celebrations, I thought that it is impossible to enjoy a party without a beer!!!
On that day, I knew what it takes to be really happy... I learned that laughter comes from the heart and not from the mind corrupted by alcohol... and party is enjoyed most with special people whom you love...
Second on that three is the experience of the so called 'tribute' to the celebrator.
The feeling was overwhelming, as my new found family shared their thoughts about me... and offered verses that will be my guide towards the next chapter of my journey.
Through that, I was able to reflect... I am thankful to all the kind words they said about me... (thank God for the food, they were not hungry and angry ;-)
During that time, memories flashed back... Good and not so good memories that molded me to become who I am today. Years of struggles... Moments of success... Failures and achievements...
Trials that tested my faith and proved God's love and faithfulness... my ride was never easy, but it has always been safe and happy, having Him beside me.
Third but never the least is the total happiness that I felt on that day...
It was so so different... I felt the love not just by the people but most of all by God.
It is the first time that I didn't cry on a special occasion...
Of course, I missed my family who are not beside me physically... but the distance was never a hindrance for me to feel their love...
I longed to be with my relatives who always supported me and my friends who sailed with me all the way...
I missed them... but it won't be reason not to be happy.
We may not be together but I was embraced by their love...
God works mightily... He filled up those empty spaces...
He completes me...
On that day, a new chapter of my life started...
I'm done with rough slow lane 1... moved to curve fast lane 2...
Now, I am on straight lane 3 :)
Focused on every step together with our Almighty.
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Let me share 3 of the many verses that I received on that day...
Ephesians 3:17-19
I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
2 Peter 3:18
But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Goodbye, May
As the sun goes down, the day ends, the month closes...
Today marks the last day of May.
What seems to be the busiest month (so far) for me.
There are many shocking incidents and important events that happened in the past 31 days.
In Philippines, a new set of government officials were elected. We are now waiting for the proclamation for the President and Vice... God bless the Philippines!
Two planes crashed... one in Philippines, one in India where 158 people died ... and week after was a train accident in India as well.
And as I mentioned, it has been the busiest month (so far) for me...
My weekends were fully booked with different activities... birthdays, church events, shopping and other 'extra curricular activities'... to the extent that schedules were overlapping!
Also, I had tons of work recently... our the campaign for the coming World Cup.
Numbers are all around me... payables, quotations... hayyys!
I was stressed with a lot of things at work... felt disappointed and sometimes, bored in doing the same stuff...
Others, may have enjoyed... maybe? But I cannot relate... :)
We may have different experiences on this month...
Yet, today is the last day... and do you realize how fast this month passed?
And after all the difficulties that each day brought... all the pain that was left by the accidents... and our own personal frustrations...
With all these things that weren’t happy at all, we are saying goodbye.
It's about time to turn the page of the calendar and move forward to June with hope that things will get better...
In Manila, summer is over... the heat of El Niño is about to end. Hello rain, Hello water... hopefully, lesser floods on the streets.
Here in Dubai and in other countries, school classes are about to end …Hello vacation, Hello holiday! Yet, it is the start of summer! The 'heat' is on!!!
Now, we are giving June a warm welcome... let's start this month with a positive spirit that there will be greater, happier and brighter days ahead :)
Home, Forever...
In the plane crash in India that killed 158 people, one of them is our former colleague, Jayaram Kotian.
Supposedly, Jayaram and his family are on their way home... to start another chapter of their life. He flew to India together with his wife and his 4 year old son... going home for good. He just resigned here in the agency and accepted a new job in his homeland.
After that flight should be the beginning of the fulfillment of his dreams... just like any other overseas workers, who wished to go back home for good.
But their beginning was the end... and so with the rest of 158 passengers, who have their own stories on that flight...
As the agency talks and remember Jayaram, questions were raised: What if he didn't receive another offer at home, will it still happen? If he choose to stay, will his kid still be playing at home with his mother?
On my many blog posts about tomorrow... chapter endings and closing doors, we have put a Period on wondering about the future... we have understood that some good things never lasts... and that we all have to move Forward, March!
But such incident makes us wonder why such a happy situation ends with tragedy?
Prior to this post was crashed - another air accident that happened in Manila wherein I also knew one of the passengers...
These stories of death of two different people who both have planned their lives and future well yet ended in a tragedy has left us with lessons about life and living.
-The fact the LIFE is SHORT remained constant and that no matter how much we complain about this long and sometimes, difficult journey of life... time will never be enough.
-We'll never know what will happen tomorrow, in as much as we have concreate plans and clear visions for the next day; we can never tell until we wake up the next day and smell the morning breeze.
-In as much as we want to secure the future, we will never be secured that we can still have this future. Retirement plans and life insurance wont give us the security. Will our beneficiary receive the pension that we invested over our lifetime with?
- Life is not about saving money and bank account but being accountable to every minutes we spent in our lifetime. It is not how many money you have counted in your hands, but how many lives your hand has touched.
- In all our ways, we have to acknowledge that we will never be enough and we need God to guide us in this travel. We have our ways, but without His blessings, it will never succeed. We have planned well enough, but God's plan will prevail...
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. - Proverbs 16:9
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. - Proverbs 19:21
As human being, we all have our goals in life. We all have build our dreams and we are all determined to achieve it. What differs is how we manage our time, how we value that dream and what do we do to fulfill it.
Just do not forget that we still have today... before we can come to see tomorrow.
Remember that time is running very fast and we can never bring back even a second that passed.
And lastly,
Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and thieves break in and steal them. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not corrupt and thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. - Matthew 6:19-20
In His time, we will all cross the border... leave what we thought was valuable and realize that there is so much more than all these material things that we need to prepare.
Jayaram and his family, were now at home... in the final destination of their journey. Our prayers are with them... May they enjoy their retirement plans prepared up there, with our Creator...finally, he is home, for good, forever.
(photo from Gulfnews)
Supposedly, Jayaram and his family are on their way home... to start another chapter of their life. He flew to India together with his wife and his 4 year old son... going home for good. He just resigned here in the agency and accepted a new job in his homeland.
After that flight should be the beginning of the fulfillment of his dreams... just like any other overseas workers, who wished to go back home for good.
But their beginning was the end... and so with the rest of 158 passengers, who have their own stories on that flight...
As the agency talks and remember Jayaram, questions were raised: What if he didn't receive another offer at home, will it still happen? If he choose to stay, will his kid still be playing at home with his mother?
On my many blog posts about tomorrow... chapter endings and closing doors, we have put a Period on wondering about the future... we have understood that some good things never lasts... and that we all have to move Forward, March!
But such incident makes us wonder why such a happy situation ends with tragedy?
Prior to this post was crashed - another air accident that happened in Manila wherein I also knew one of the passengers...
These stories of death of two different people who both have planned their lives and future well yet ended in a tragedy has left us with lessons about life and living.
-The fact the LIFE is SHORT remained constant and that no matter how much we complain about this long and sometimes, difficult journey of life... time will never be enough.
-We'll never know what will happen tomorrow, in as much as we have concreate plans and clear visions for the next day; we can never tell until we wake up the next day and smell the morning breeze.
-In as much as we want to secure the future, we will never be secured that we can still have this future. Retirement plans and life insurance wont give us the security. Will our beneficiary receive the pension that we invested over our lifetime with?
- Life is not about saving money and bank account but being accountable to every minutes we spent in our lifetime. It is not how many money you have counted in your hands, but how many lives your hand has touched.
- In all our ways, we have to acknowledge that we will never be enough and we need God to guide us in this travel. We have our ways, but without His blessings, it will never succeed. We have planned well enough, but God's plan will prevail...
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. - Proverbs 16:9
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. - Proverbs 19:21
As human being, we all have our goals in life. We all have build our dreams and we are all determined to achieve it. What differs is how we manage our time, how we value that dream and what do we do to fulfill it.
Just do not forget that we still have today... before we can come to see tomorrow.
Remember that time is running very fast and we can never bring back even a second that passed.
And lastly,
Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and thieves break in and steal them. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not corrupt and thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. - Matthew 6:19-20
In His time, we will all cross the border... leave what we thought was valuable and realize that there is so much more than all these material things that we need to prepare.
Jayaram and his family, were now at home... in the final destination of their journey. Our prayers are with them... May they enjoy their retirement plans prepared up there, with our Creator...finally, he is home, for good, forever.
Crashed
A friend forwarded the news about the death of Gov. Raffy Nantes of Quezon Province - Philippines in a helicopter crash just few hours ago... I don't know him personally but I did one of his campaign material / AVP last 2007, when he first ran as Governor. We did his profile, and through that, I was able to have a look of his world...
I cannot remember the transcript anymore, but it is a story of "anak mahirap"; from rugs to riches, he shared his failures and success... the struggles of a shoe shine boy to a multi-million businessman and politician.
What is clear are his visions... his huge plans not just for his life but for the Quezonians...
Today was exactly a week after the election, where in the news, he did not make it in the gubernatorial race.
His political career crashed and so was his life...
Despite his money, career and power... Gov. Nantes is now a part of history.
This is a reality that we all share. Our time will also come...
And our riches won't save us from that.
1 Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. / 1 Thessalonians 5:1-2
Whether rich or poor, we may be up in the air, under the water or walking in a vast land... we can never tell. No one can choose when, where or how. Death will come to all of us and we all end up in this world as an ash.
We may have the best plans for our lives... we might have planned well for our retirement, but no one knows what tomorrow may bring. We may have worked hard for our future, but no man can really secure his own future, for it is not the basis of our existence.
20 "But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?' / Luke 12:20
A secured future doesn't vary not what you have, but on who you are to your fellowmen and to God.
I cannot remember the transcript anymore, but it is a story of "anak mahirap"; from rugs to riches, he shared his failures and success... the struggles of a shoe shine boy to a multi-million businessman and politician.
What is clear are his visions... his huge plans not just for his life but for the Quezonians...
Today was exactly a week after the election, where in the news, he did not make it in the gubernatorial race.
His political career crashed and so was his life...
Despite his money, career and power... Gov. Nantes is now a part of history.
This is a reality that we all share. Our time will also come...
And our riches won't save us from that.
1 Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. / 1 Thessalonians 5:1-2
Whether rich or poor, we may be up in the air, under the water or walking in a vast land... we can never tell. No one can choose when, where or how. Death will come to all of us and we all end up in this world as an ash.
We may have the best plans for our lives... we might have planned well for our retirement, but no one knows what tomorrow may bring. We may have worked hard for our future, but no man can really secure his own future, for it is not the basis of our existence.
20 "But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?' / Luke 12:20
A secured future doesn't vary not what you have, but on who you are to your fellowmen and to God.
From Child's Play to Mastery
Everyone is invited to witness the
First Solo Piano Recital and Exhibition of Artworks of Radjan Z. Arellano
on May 26, 2010 6pm Wednesday UP Abelardo Hall Auditorium , College of Music
Guest Artists are Prof. Mary Therese Pitogo, Jimuel Pitogo, violinist , Wes Lipana, flutist and
MAKISIG MORALES
to sing the first original composition of the recitalist entitled
"THE SUN"
Admission is FREE..
So bring your family members and friends too...
but reservation is required by texting or calling 0918-9063547 / 4736559
Donations are welcome for Faith Hope and Love Assembly Music Ministry and
Kamuning Bible Christian Fellowship Building Fund
(optional /may be given on the day of the event)
Simple cocktails prepared by Tomato Bomb HQ will be served
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God Bless the Philippines
Voting is over...
The new automated election in the country pushed through despite all the negative speculations.
It wasn't 100% successful, but knowing that it it happened somehow it made a history to our country.
The people have decided and the counting begins.
Finally, the dirty campaign is over...
After all the issues and black propaganda that filled the whole country for 90 days (or more...), we are now facing the real challenge...
The canvassing of votes.
I know that it's an automatic counting, but from the past experiences, this is the stage of the actual battle... we have to be assured that every single vote is counted... and accounted to the right candidate.
Many areas are still doing manual counts... as expected. And this is where the fear of the people arises.
As the machine fails, we are all hoping that the people wont...
At this time, while we are all waiting for the final result, let's keep on praying that our Father will continuously heal our land and bless us as a nation of God.
Again and again,
God please... Bless the Philippines.
The new automated election in the country pushed through despite all the negative speculations.
It wasn't 100% successful, but knowing that it it happened somehow it made a history to our country.
The people have decided and the counting begins.
Finally, the dirty campaign is over...
After all the issues and black propaganda that filled the whole country for 90 days (or more...), we are now facing the real challenge...
The canvassing of votes.
I know that it's an automatic counting, but from the past experiences, this is the stage of the actual battle... we have to be assured that every single vote is counted... and accounted to the right candidate.
Many areas are still doing manual counts... as expected. And this is where the fear of the people arises.
As the machine fails, we are all hoping that the people wont...
At this time, while we are all waiting for the final result, let's keep on praying that our Father will continuously heal our land and bless us as a nation of God.
Again and again,
God please... Bless the Philippines.
Nanay's Day Masterpiece
It's almost 2 hours since I started composing this blog...
Had about 5 drafts of poems, and almost finished 1, but I was never satisfied.
I kept on praying... asking for His guidance as I write...
Several attempts of creating the best piece for Nanay... but I just cant.
Then I stood up, took my cup and made coffee...
I kept squeezing my brain as I walk along the hallway, hoping that some great idea will pop out;
While waiting for the water to boil, I embraced the silence, took a deep breath and listen to what my heart says...
Then I realized that in as much as I wanted to compose a masterpiece for Nanay's day,
It will never happen.
The greatest gift that my heart desires is far beyond these words...
Not a thousand stanzas of poem or a novel about mother will fulfill my longing...
Because more than anything, I want to hug her today.
No words can express how much I love her...
And how much I am missing her...
I love you so much Nay...
and so with my other Nanays:
Ditse, Sanse, Ninang, Tita Neng, Tita Elsa, Tita Alice, Tita Ine and Mama Ric
Praise God for your lives... I love you.
Had about 5 drafts of poems, and almost finished 1, but I was never satisfied.
I kept on praying... asking for His guidance as I write...
Several attempts of creating the best piece for Nanay... but I just cant.
Then I stood up, took my cup and made coffee...
I kept squeezing my brain as I walk along the hallway, hoping that some great idea will pop out;
While waiting for the water to boil, I embraced the silence, took a deep breath and listen to what my heart says...
Then I realized that in as much as I wanted to compose a masterpiece for Nanay's day,
It will never happen.
The greatest gift that my heart desires is far beyond these words...
Not a thousand stanzas of poem or a novel about mother will fulfill my longing...
Because more than anything, I want to hug her today.
No words can express how much I love her...
And how much I am missing her...
I love you so much Nay...
and so with my other Nanays:
Ditse, Sanse, Ninang, Tita Neng, Tita Elsa, Tita Alice, Tita Ine and Mama Ric
Praise God for your lives... I love you.
Labor Pains
I've seen the movie.
But this is not about giving birth...
I don't think I can write something about it nor will attempt to do one; I am not Thea and firing a pregnant woman is legal here in UAE.
Anyways, back to labor pains...
In Phils. May 1 is Labor day (I know this is 4 days overdue)...
Labor day is not being celebrated on a positive side, instead you can see big protests on streets; laborers begging for a wage increase... I haven't heard or seen any program or events that give recognition for the best employees or some inspiring activities to look forward on this National Day for Laborers.
I have 6 years experience working in Manila, before I became an OFW. I have felt these 'labor pains' too, working day and night (since I am in TV network), on call 24/7, just to received a decent pay LESS TAX and all other deductions which really kills the work force.
15-20% of what you've worked for will be counted as tax which means, about 2-4 days (sometimes overnight) was allotted to - road construction, medical services, government leaders' salary (just to name some) etc etc.
Aside from these citizen's responsibility, there are also SSS, Health Insurance and Pag-Ibig deductions, which accumulate another approx. 10% of salary.
What's left with the workers are 70-75% of their income... which again, the 20% of that was paid to VAT...
Isn't that worst than actual labor pains???
While some average employees are 'just' satisfied with what they receive, majority are underpaid.
Underpaid in the sense that the salary wont really fit to have a decent living in Manila. Everything are costly... rents, gasoline, food, commodities. That is for single like me... I wonder how parents managed to survived and bring their kids to school...
Being an OFW, I enjoyed the privilege of being 'tax-free' in UAE. I received my salary exactly the same as what is written in my contract... no more, no less! And I am 100% insured (without paying extra for HealthCare). Shopping is more exciting without VAT!!!
All the benefits were given fairly. Government funds were distributed to improve the country, from construction, transportation and services...
If only Phil. government is not corrupt and rules were implemented... We can do better than the other countries. We have the best workers in the world.
OFWs are the key employees of big companies and institutions... From receptionists to accountants, from construction workers to engineers, nursing aides to specialized doctors... We are the nannies who devote ourselves to other's child... The caregivers who give love and time to elders... The silent partners of working parents, who manage other's home and families...
I belong to these workers... we are enjoying financial stability - - - away from home. People who chose to fly outside the country to give better lives to families back home...
It is just a matter of choice. Being home, pay tax and work forever or leave for sometime, earn more, come back and start business... or leave and migrate to other country.
Embarrasing but true... many Filipinos chose the 3rd option because they can no longer see a good future in Philippines...
The upcoming May 10 Election is the make or break in Philippine government... hence, the result is not only in the hands of the people...
May our Lord God guide every Filipino in choosing the new leader and may it be a clean and honest election. God bless the Philippines!
But this is not about giving birth...
I don't think I can write something about it nor will attempt to do one; I am not Thea and firing a pregnant woman is legal here in UAE.
Anyways, back to labor pains...
In Phils. May 1 is Labor day (I know this is 4 days overdue)...
Labor day is not being celebrated on a positive side, instead you can see big protests on streets; laborers begging for a wage increase... I haven't heard or seen any program or events that give recognition for the best employees or some inspiring activities to look forward on this National Day for Laborers.
I have 6 years experience working in Manila, before I became an OFW. I have felt these 'labor pains' too, working day and night (since I am in TV network), on call 24/7, just to received a decent pay LESS TAX and all other deductions which really kills the work force.
15-20% of what you've worked for will be counted as tax which means, about 2-4 days (sometimes overnight) was allotted to - road construction, medical services, government leaders' salary (just to name some) etc etc.
Aside from these citizen's responsibility, there are also SSS, Health Insurance and Pag-Ibig deductions, which accumulate another approx. 10% of salary.
What's left with the workers are 70-75% of their income... which again, the 20% of that was paid to VAT...
Isn't that worst than actual labor pains???
While some average employees are 'just' satisfied with what they receive, majority are underpaid.
Underpaid in the sense that the salary wont really fit to have a decent living in Manila. Everything are costly... rents, gasoline, food, commodities. That is for single like me... I wonder how parents managed to survived and bring their kids to school...
Being an OFW, I enjoyed the privilege of being 'tax-free' in UAE. I received my salary exactly the same as what is written in my contract... no more, no less! And I am 100% insured (without paying extra for HealthCare). Shopping is more exciting without VAT!!!
All the benefits were given fairly. Government funds were distributed to improve the country, from construction, transportation and services...
If only Phil. government is not corrupt and rules were implemented... We can do better than the other countries. We have the best workers in the world.
OFWs are the key employees of big companies and institutions... From receptionists to accountants, from construction workers to engineers, nursing aides to specialized doctors... We are the nannies who devote ourselves to other's child... The caregivers who give love and time to elders... The silent partners of working parents, who manage other's home and families...
I belong to these workers... we are enjoying financial stability - - - away from home. People who chose to fly outside the country to give better lives to families back home...
It is just a matter of choice. Being home, pay tax and work forever or leave for sometime, earn more, come back and start business... or leave and migrate to other country.
Embarrasing but true... many Filipinos chose the 3rd option because they can no longer see a good future in Philippines...
The upcoming May 10 Election is the make or break in Philippine government... hence, the result is not only in the hands of the people...
May our Lord God guide every Filipino in choosing the new leader and may it be a clean and honest election. God bless the Philippines!
BrATTLEFIELD
In circumstances where my temper is being tested, I really feel that our God listens to my prayers...
Yesterday was a long day for me... and not so favorable on my side, unlike the recent days. Admittedly, I was affected with certain confrontation with my colleague and some people who seems to be less professional than the rest. And until now, it can't get over with it! whew!!!
From yesterday, until this very moment... I am praying for patience and understanding. I am so cautious about my temper, not because I don't want to go down to her level (-that is how I used to think) but because I want to be obedient to Him and that people will see that I am different because Christ is living in my heart. I want Him to be glorified...
"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life." -Philippians 2:14-16
And this is what I always pray for... that He will continuously mold me to be righteous - to be called His child. I want to learn how to 'love thy neighbors' and to be patient... I really hope I can be somebody that He will be proud of...
This is my struggle, my constant prayer.
Currently, here in our workplace, I can really feel that He moves to grant my request. As I eagerly asked for Him to teach me how to be serene, He put me on situations that tests my faith and practice my patience.
I read this in heartlight - 'I tell you, if you are serious about wanting to be like Christ, He is going to put you in circumstances where your only choice is to become like Him.' - Francis Frangipane
And I certainly agree.
I am now in the battlefield, struggling to fight with my own personality. Dealing with bratts, including me...
Patience is better than pride...
I envy people who are patient. Those who easily forgive and forget.
I am not like them, but I am trying, and I am praying...
Yesterday was a long day for me... and not so favorable on my side, unlike the recent days. Admittedly, I was affected with certain confrontation with my colleague and some people who seems to be less professional than the rest. And until now, it can't get over with it! whew!!!
From yesterday, until this very moment... I am praying for patience and understanding. I am so cautious about my temper, not because I don't want to go down to her level (-that is how I used to think) but because I want to be obedient to Him and that people will see that I am different because Christ is living in my heart. I want Him to be glorified...
"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life." -Philippians 2:14-16
And this is what I always pray for... that He will continuously mold me to be righteous - to be called His child. I want to learn how to 'love thy neighbors' and to be patient... I really hope I can be somebody that He will be proud of...
This is my struggle, my constant prayer.
Currently, here in our workplace, I can really feel that He moves to grant my request. As I eagerly asked for Him to teach me how to be serene, He put me on situations that tests my faith and practice my patience.
I read this in heartlight - 'I tell you, if you are serious about wanting to be like Christ, He is going to put you in circumstances where your only choice is to become like Him.' - Francis Frangipane
And I certainly agree.
I am now in the battlefield, struggling to fight with my own personality. Dealing with bratts, including me...
Patience is better than pride...
I envy people who are patient. Those who easily forgive and forget.
I am not like them, but I am trying, and I am praying...
Period
A close friend of mine wants to end her relationship... not because there is a problem with her partner nor they fall out of love... there is no third party nor any career or business crisis... no family issues either.
The simple reason is because of the thought that "relationship don't lasts"... that FOREVER won't be achieved... worries that time will come that the relationship will end.
Indeed, there are basis... knowing that some people and relationships come and go.
That there is no permanent 'thing' nor secured future that we can grasp.
It applies to all. Whether you are in relationship or wanting to be in relationship, no one is secured. We cannot guarantee tomorrow... and as I have said, Forward March! What we only have is today.
My friend is so afraid for the coming days... guarding her heart to be broken on a thought that didn't happen yet... wants to end the beautiful relationship that she have because of her fears... Breaking her heart because she is frightened to be wrecked...
In our own situations, at some point, we all have felt the same...
We have made decisions not because we want to achieve something, but because we are avoiding somethings...
We assume. We expect and we tend to forget what we have TODAY.
Like life, everything ends... death comes like a thief in the night... we don't know when, but we know it will happen.
In the right time, periods will be punctuated in our own stories... but in the bottom... we still have the whole page, the whole chapters to fill up. We should not be threatened.
What readers read is not that small dot in the end, but the words written, the phrases, the paragraphs.
So while we can choose the letters to make a sentence on our own pages... let's enjoy this blessing, our freedom to live each day, making the best stories of our lives, day by day.
Let us not rush towards the end because there is present that we still need to make...
The simple reason is because of the thought that "relationship don't lasts"... that FOREVER won't be achieved... worries that time will come that the relationship will end.
Indeed, there are basis... knowing that some people and relationships come and go.
That there is no permanent 'thing' nor secured future that we can grasp.
It applies to all. Whether you are in relationship or wanting to be in relationship, no one is secured. We cannot guarantee tomorrow... and as I have said, Forward March! What we only have is today.
My friend is so afraid for the coming days... guarding her heart to be broken on a thought that didn't happen yet... wants to end the beautiful relationship that she have because of her fears... Breaking her heart because she is frightened to be wrecked...
In our own situations, at some point, we all have felt the same...
We have made decisions not because we want to achieve something, but because we are avoiding somethings...
We assume. We expect and we tend to forget what we have TODAY.
Like life, everything ends... death comes like a thief in the night... we don't know when, but we know it will happen.
In the right time, periods will be punctuated in our own stories... but in the bottom... we still have the whole page, the whole chapters to fill up. We should not be threatened.
What readers read is not that small dot in the end, but the words written, the phrases, the paragraphs.
So while we can choose the letters to make a sentence on our own pages... let's enjoy this blessing, our freedom to live each day, making the best stories of our lives, day by day.
Let us not rush towards the end because there is present that we still need to make...
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There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
Ecclesiastes 3:1
A Proud Apo of Lolo Marciano
I am.
Even before Remembering Lola Marcosa, I first thought of writing about our Lolo Marciano...
He just celebrated his birthday last 11 April, and though we are on the opposite side of the world (he is in L.A.), and I missed calling him on that day, he's always on my heart and prayers...
A righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him. - Prov. 20:7
Yes. We are blessed having a righteous Lolo. Someone who lead us into the right path... who set a good example of being a good father to his children, a good husband to his wife and a child of God.
Unlike my Lola M, I did not have much 'bonding moments' with Lolo. He is No! No! to Bingo and Comics... Yet, those few moments with him were precious... as he speaks nothing but words of wisdom from the Bible.
He is a Lord's servant. At home, aside from eating and watching TV Patrol, he reads. I don’t know how many times he finished reading the Bible, but I am sure he did... that is the only book that he reads...
From the first fruit of his lips a man is filled with good things as surely as the work if his hands rewards him. - Prov. 12:14
All the words that come out from his mouth are word of knowledge... He has guided his children well, raised them as God fearing individual... though it took time before the family accepted Christ to be the Lord and Savior... he never fails to pray for his children and their family... he never lose hope... his faith moved miraculously within every member of the family...
We are living a happy and peaceful life because he showed us the way and patiently guided us to know our Lord God. And his legacy lives on...
Even before Remembering Lola Marcosa, I first thought of writing about our Lolo Marciano...
He just celebrated his birthday last 11 April, and though we are on the opposite side of the world (he is in L.A.), and I missed calling him on that day, he's always on my heart and prayers...
A righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him. - Prov. 20:7
Yes. We are blessed having a righteous Lolo. Someone who lead us into the right path... who set a good example of being a good father to his children, a good husband to his wife and a child of God.
Unlike my Lola M, I did not have much 'bonding moments' with Lolo. He is No! No! to Bingo and Comics... Yet, those few moments with him were precious... as he speaks nothing but words of wisdom from the Bible.
He is a Lord's servant. At home, aside from eating and watching TV Patrol, he reads. I don’t know how many times he finished reading the Bible, but I am sure he did... that is the only book that he reads...
From the first fruit of his lips a man is filled with good things as surely as the work if his hands rewards him. - Prov. 12:14
All the words that come out from his mouth are word of knowledge... He has guided his children well, raised them as God fearing individual... though it took time before the family accepted Christ to be the Lord and Savior... he never fails to pray for his children and their family... he never lose hope... his faith moved miraculously within every member of the family...
We are living a happy and peaceful life because he showed us the way and patiently guided us to know our Lord God. And his legacy lives on...
The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of the dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day. - Proverbs. 4:18
Remembering Lola Marcosa
It’s almost 12 years ago when she went home…
Yet until this moment, I still feel that longing…
Her teasing smile… how she played around with her grand children.
Her way of kissing on our forehead…
She is a giver…a very generous Lola...
Like any other grandmother; she gave her all to her grandkids.
We had a happy childhood; there was never a dull moment with her…
She makes a simple nap time more exciting by giving prizes to the first kid to fall asleep :-)
Or a consequence to those who won’t lie-down, like removing her gray hair or a head massage…
I knew Agua Bendita (a comic story, now into TV) from Liwayway Komiks when I was a grader…
Yes, not a fairy tale book or any other children’s books… but we read comics together during siesta time…
Bingo was not a gambling for us, but a fun bonding game for the family. Yes, we also play it with money, from her ofcourse…
She will give us money and we will all play. No one will lose, because at the end of the game, she will give us the same amount as what the winner will get.
As I grew older, I’ve come to know that Lola is a very strong person.
She will stick to what she believed was right… No one can influence her.
Her fair treatment to every member of the family is something that I really admire from her.
We have a very big family… she had 13 kids… 30+ grandkids… 100+ great grandkids…
Each has their own story… while she was still with us; she knows what’s going on with each family.
Even though sometimes they hide it from her… she is the mother, and I believe that she felt it deep within.
I admire her strength and bravery. She inspired me in a lot of ways.
Her love for the family, the good example that she showed to us was instill in my heart.
In the last years of her life, she finally accepted our Lord God.
After decades of not talking to our Lolo because of different beliefs, I witnessed her rebirth…
How she received Christ as her Savior; how her life changed…
I’ve seen her transformed from a happy to a more joyful Lola…
That peace that comes from her heart was glowing and made the rest of her life more meaningful…
I am missing her, every single day...
Yet I know that she is just there… happy in heaven, watching over us.
Yet until this moment, I still feel that longing…
Her teasing smile… how she played around with her grand children.
Her way of kissing on our forehead…
She is a giver…a very generous Lola...
Like any other grandmother; she gave her all to her grandkids.
We had a happy childhood; there was never a dull moment with her…
She makes a simple nap time more exciting by giving prizes to the first kid to fall asleep :-)
Or a consequence to those who won’t lie-down, like removing her gray hair or a head massage…
I knew Agua Bendita (a comic story, now into TV) from Liwayway Komiks when I was a grader…
Yes, not a fairy tale book or any other children’s books… but we read comics together during siesta time…
Bingo was not a gambling for us, but a fun bonding game for the family. Yes, we also play it with money, from her ofcourse…
She will give us money and we will all play. No one will lose, because at the end of the game, she will give us the same amount as what the winner will get.
As I grew older, I’ve come to know that Lola is a very strong person.
She will stick to what she believed was right… No one can influence her.
Her fair treatment to every member of the family is something that I really admire from her.
We have a very big family… she had 13 kids… 30+ grandkids… 100+ great grandkids…
Each has their own story… while she was still with us; she knows what’s going on with each family.
Even though sometimes they hide it from her… she is the mother, and I believe that she felt it deep within.
I admire her strength and bravery. She inspired me in a lot of ways.
Her love for the family, the good example that she showed to us was instill in my heart.
In the last years of her life, she finally accepted our Lord God.
After decades of not talking to our Lolo because of different beliefs, I witnessed her rebirth…
How she received Christ as her Savior; how her life changed…
I’ve seen her transformed from a happy to a more joyful Lola…
That peace that comes from her heart was glowing and made the rest of her life more meaningful…
29 "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Proverbs 31:29-31
I am missing her, every single day...
Yet I know that she is just there… happy in heaven, watching over us.
Violet is Red
He is one of the Big Bosses, known to be the toughest and worst boss within the agency...
Let's call him Violet. The terror VP of the company.
Even the coffee delivery guy knew who and what he was.
If you happen to be a first timer within the vicinity, someone will surely warn you about Violet.
Or maybe, you'll find it yourself once you pass the hall near his office.
To newly hired employees, his name should be mentioned and he should be described, otherwise, the first day will also be their last...
He screamed to death...
With his power, even if he whispers... his voice will be heard...
Like a king... people should follow his orders...
The company is his kingdom.
To almost everyone... he is Miranda - from 'The devil wears Prada', or rather, Miranda is only half of him...
Violet is far worst... he was described to be Hitler by others who worked with him...
Can you imagine the life of his P.A?
No one within the network would like to be in her shoes...
And most were amazed how she deals with him.
Even Violet himself asked her several times, on how she looked at him.
With all sincerity, she said, 'I believe you are kind.'
Yes. To her, Violet is Red...
A man with soft heart and kindness deep within.
Not everyone might understand and believe but yes, he is Red to her...
Why?
This small but terrible PA is like David dealing with Goliath...
Her secret weapon is not a stone, but the powerful prayer that she whisper to our Lord God every single day of her office life.
Praying that He will touch Violet's heart, make it as Red as it can be...
And God continuously fulfill her prayers...
Knowing how Violet treated his previous PAs, everyday is a miracle to her.
Many can't believe, but indeed, Violet is Red...
Let's call him Violet. The terror VP of the company.
Even the coffee delivery guy knew who and what he was.
If you happen to be a first timer within the vicinity, someone will surely warn you about Violet.
Or maybe, you'll find it yourself once you pass the hall near his office.
To newly hired employees, his name should be mentioned and he should be described, otherwise, the first day will also be their last...
He screamed to death...
With his power, even if he whispers... his voice will be heard...
Like a king... people should follow his orders...
The company is his kingdom.
To almost everyone... he is Miranda - from 'The devil wears Prada', or rather, Miranda is only half of him...
Violet is far worst... he was described to be Hitler by others who worked with him...
Can you imagine the life of his P.A?
No one within the network would like to be in her shoes...
And most were amazed how she deals with him.
Even Violet himself asked her several times, on how she looked at him.
With all sincerity, she said, 'I believe you are kind.'
Yes. To her, Violet is Red...
A man with soft heart and kindness deep within.
Not everyone might understand and believe but yes, he is Red to her...
Why?
This small but terrible PA is like David dealing with Goliath...
Her secret weapon is not a stone, but the powerful prayer that she whisper to our Lord God every single day of her office life.
Praying that He will touch Violet's heart, make it as Red as it can be...
And God continuously fulfill her prayers...
Knowing how Violet treated his previous PAs, everyday is a miracle to her.
Many can't believe, but indeed, Violet is Red...
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts, and your minds in Christ Jesus.
- Philippians 4:6-7
Such miracle can happen to every corners of offices with 'Violet' bosses...
Instead of cursing your managers... lift them up to Him. and you will witness how God touch one's heart...
Forward, March!!!
We have had our own farewells.
Bid goodbyes on different notes...
Chapters that ends...
Doors that close.
As to some, goodbyes were always painful...
Holding on to the past that was over for so long.
Stucked up with old memories and living with those,
Trapped in the days of fantasies that makes it worst.
The pain of acceptance and letting go...
We should not be caught by fear of facing tomorrow...
Yesterday was a past, yes, it passed;
Things that happened, we can never bring back.
The only truth is that, what we only have...
and that is today, where our focus should be attached.
Regrets from the past, until when will you be locked?
The guilt, the pain, that anger and fear...
Release it for once, and give yourself a chance...
Be free and live a life, love today and let go of the past.
Bid goodbyes on different notes...
Chapters that ends...
Doors that close.
As to some, goodbyes were always painful...
Holding on to the past that was over for so long.
Stucked up with old memories and living with those,
Trapped in the days of fantasies that makes it worst.
The pain of acceptance and letting go...
We should not be caught by fear of facing tomorrow...
Yesterday was a past, yes, it passed;
Things that happened, we can never bring back.
The only truth is that, what we only have...
and that is today, where our focus should be attached.
Regrets from the past, until when will you be locked?
The guilt, the pain, that anger and fear...
Release it for once, and give yourself a chance...
Be free and live a life, love today and let go of the past.
One Black Saturday
Black Saturday was indeed black for the entire family as my cousin passed away...
A father of 2 girls, 9 y/o and 8 m/o, his life ended at 33. Not with any incurable disease nor a vehicular accident...
He took his own life, not for suicide but only for a bad joke...
The incident happened past midnight, he and 2 of our cousins were just hanging out just outside their house, until he showed his gun, removed the magazine and tease the two guys. Knowing that its not a good joke, the 2 decided to leave... wanting to prove that there is no bullet inside, he then pointed the gun into his head...
by this time, the 2 cousins were like few meters away... until they heard the shot.
Looking back, they saw him, slowly falling, with blood all around.
At that very moment, 2 lovely girls lost their father. A wife lost a husband. A parent lost their son. Siblings lost their youngest. A family will never be complete again...
All because of one mistake... a bad joke!
Our entire family are still shocked.
Each of us gathers strength from one another and from the One above;
The Only One who gives us courage to let go and move forward...
Our Lord God who can answer all the why's...
A father of 2 girls, 9 y/o and 8 m/o, his life ended at 33. Not with any incurable disease nor a vehicular accident...
He took his own life, not for suicide but only for a bad joke...
The incident happened past midnight, he and 2 of our cousins were just hanging out just outside their house, until he showed his gun, removed the magazine and tease the two guys. Knowing that its not a good joke, the 2 decided to leave... wanting to prove that there is no bullet inside, he then pointed the gun into his head...
by this time, the 2 cousins were like few meters away... until they heard the shot.
Looking back, they saw him, slowly falling, with blood all around.
At that very moment, 2 lovely girls lost their father. A wife lost a husband. A parent lost their son. Siblings lost their youngest. A family will never be complete again...
All because of one mistake... a bad joke!
Our entire family are still shocked.
Each of us gathers strength from one another and from the One above;
The Only One who gives us courage to let go and move forward...
Our Lord God who can answer all the why's...
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you now that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:2-3
James 1:2-3
Lent
The season of prayer and penitence...
Time of commemorating the death and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ.
As the whole Christian world observes the Holy Week, many tends to forget the real meaning of the season... Most family were already booked for the much awaited week long vacation. Friends have their parties set... Although the traditional practices were still observed (esp. in Phils.), it was more of gimik and happenings instead of remembering what Jesus had been through and understand why He suffered on the cross.
Living in a Muslim country is becoming more difficult in times like this, when Christians should be in churches for service and activities or doing some penitence, we are inside our offices, just as another ordinary day...
I missed the days of watching 'The Ten Commandments', times when we are just at home and Nanay reads the Bible, or attending Bible study lead by our Lolo Marciano.
More than the usual vacation, as Christians, we are longing for the Spirit of the Holy Week... Moments when we can reflect and repent and give service to others. Observing the good examples that Jesus demonstrated to us.
Though being on this part of the world, surrounded by non-believers, it won't be a hindrance for us take part and rekindle our faith... deep in our hearts, we continuously give thanks for all His sacrifices...
"This is how God showed His love among us; He sent His One and Only Son into the world that we might live through Him." -1 John 4:9
Time of commemorating the death and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ.
As the whole Christian world observes the Holy Week, many tends to forget the real meaning of the season... Most family were already booked for the much awaited week long vacation. Friends have their parties set... Although the traditional practices were still observed (esp. in Phils.), it was more of gimik and happenings instead of remembering what Jesus had been through and understand why He suffered on the cross.
Living in a Muslim country is becoming more difficult in times like this, when Christians should be in churches for service and activities or doing some penitence, we are inside our offices, just as another ordinary day...
I missed the days of watching 'The Ten Commandments', times when we are just at home and Nanay reads the Bible, or attending Bible study lead by our Lolo Marciano.
More than the usual vacation, as Christians, we are longing for the Spirit of the Holy Week... Moments when we can reflect and repent and give service to others. Observing the good examples that Jesus demonstrated to us.
Though being on this part of the world, surrounded by non-believers, it won't be a hindrance for us take part and rekindle our faith... deep in our hearts, we continuously give thanks for all His sacrifices...
"This is how God showed His love among us; He sent His One and Only Son into the world that we might live through Him." -1 John 4:9
They Stick On Me
I am back to work.
And still under medications...
My recent check up with Urologist regarding my 'rubies' has good results. As expected, my right kidney is now clear and no more 'gems' :) the one on the left are 'about to leave'... :) or up to date, it should've passed out already.
The endoscopy took place after my Uro check up. I can remember how nervous I was... my heart was pounding fast. Everything was clear to me, from wearing the gown and cap, lying down on the bed, checking BP, nurse explaining the procedure, dextrose, entering the Endoscopy room, all the apparatus inside, the oxygen tube, the mouth piece, throat spray, injection of anesthesia... then I fall asleep.
I woke up inside the SSU (Short Stay Unit) with my bestfriend (Erika) beside me... taking some pictues of me. When I was fully conscious, 2 of our friends (Eric and Maoo) went inside too and awaken me with their witty stories.
After some time, the nurse gave the results - the findings... I don't remember the actual medical terms but as what I understood it has something to do with my Ulcer. Hmmmmm... Bile Reflux Gastritis! and the other one, I really cannot recall ... anyways, what is important and very clear is that there is nothing serious... I just have to continue with the medications.
I've researched about my condition, and it says:
Bile reflux
Bile is a greenish-yellow fluid that's essential for digesting fats and for eliminating worn-out red blood cells and certain toxins from your body. It's produced in your liver and stored in your gallbladder in a highly concentrated form.
Eating a meal that contains even a modest amount of fat signals your gallbladder to release bile, which flows through two small tubes (cystic duct and common bile duct) into the upper part of your small intestine (duodenum).
Bile reflux into the stomach
At the same time that bile is entering the duodenum, food enters your small intestine through the pyloric valve, a heavy ring of muscle located at the outlet of your stomach. Ordinarily, the pyloric valve opens just slightly — enough to release about an eighth of an ounce (about 3.5 milliliters) of liquefied food at a time, but not enough to allow digestive juices to backup (reflux) into the stomach. In many cases of bile reflux, the valve doesn't close properly, and bile backwashes into the stomach, where it causes irritation and inflammation (gastritis).
What leads to bile reflux?
Peptic ulcers. Sometimes a peptic ulcer can block the pyloric valve. Rather than not closing tightly, the valve doesn't open enough to allow the stomach to empty as quickly as it should. The stagnant food and liquid in the stomach can lead to increased gastric pressure that causes refluxed bile and stomach acid to back up into the esophagus.
Source: mayoclinic
Actually, these 2 health problems was already with me for a long time. I was first diagnosed with Peptic Ulcer when I was still in high school and kidney stones during college. Through grace of God, I was healed then and now.
'Rubies' recur maybe because I really like salty foods... my meal always comes with fish sauce or soy sauce. I guess I have to say goodbye to that :( my eating habit wont be the same without 'patis', but I woudn't trade my kidneys for that!
My ulcer, never left me since then. I have been very cautious with this but it really does stick on me! I understand that my bad habits before usually triggered its attack... and maybe, I am now reaping all the negative effects. I have been living a healthier life (no smoke, no alcohol, 1 coffee a day) for almost 6 months now, but I noticed that my ulcer attack are getting worst.
Maybe because it is adjusting? Maybe my stomach is not used to being clean :) :) :)
or whatever it may be, I know that it will soon be over, and I will be well.
Despite the pain, I am glad that I quit.
I am now adjusting to a 'clean and green' life and I know that this pain is nothing compared to more serious diseases that I might get from those vices.
God saved me.
He picked me up at the right time, before the bad habits ruined me totally.
I believe that my body is just in the 'cleansing' process, and soon, all the ''leftovers' will be gone. Fears have no room inside me. I have dealt with this sickness before, it means nothing, especially now, knowing that God is embracing me...
And still under medications...
My recent check up with Urologist regarding my 'rubies' has good results. As expected, my right kidney is now clear and no more 'gems' :) the one on the left are 'about to leave'... :) or up to date, it should've passed out already.
The endoscopy took place after my Uro check up. I can remember how nervous I was... my heart was pounding fast. Everything was clear to me, from wearing the gown and cap, lying down on the bed, checking BP, nurse explaining the procedure, dextrose, entering the Endoscopy room, all the apparatus inside, the oxygen tube, the mouth piece, throat spray, injection of anesthesia... then I fall asleep.
I woke up inside the SSU (Short Stay Unit) with my bestfriend (Erika) beside me... taking some pictues of me. When I was fully conscious, 2 of our friends (Eric and Maoo) went inside too and awaken me with their witty stories.
After some time, the nurse gave the results - the findings... I don't remember the actual medical terms but as what I understood it has something to do with my Ulcer. Hmmmmm... Bile Reflux Gastritis! and the other one, I really cannot recall ... anyways, what is important and very clear is that there is nothing serious... I just have to continue with the medications.
I've researched about my condition, and it says:
Bile reflux
Bile is a greenish-yellow fluid that's essential for digesting fats and for eliminating worn-out red blood cells and certain toxins from your body. It's produced in your liver and stored in your gallbladder in a highly concentrated form.
Eating a meal that contains even a modest amount of fat signals your gallbladder to release bile, which flows through two small tubes (cystic duct and common bile duct) into the upper part of your small intestine (duodenum).
Bile reflux into the stomach
At the same time that bile is entering the duodenum, food enters your small intestine through the pyloric valve, a heavy ring of muscle located at the outlet of your stomach. Ordinarily, the pyloric valve opens just slightly — enough to release about an eighth of an ounce (about 3.5 milliliters) of liquefied food at a time, but not enough to allow digestive juices to backup (reflux) into the stomach. In many cases of bile reflux, the valve doesn't close properly, and bile backwashes into the stomach, where it causes irritation and inflammation (gastritis).
What leads to bile reflux?
Peptic ulcers. Sometimes a peptic ulcer can block the pyloric valve. Rather than not closing tightly, the valve doesn't open enough to allow the stomach to empty as quickly as it should. The stagnant food and liquid in the stomach can lead to increased gastric pressure that causes refluxed bile and stomach acid to back up into the esophagus.
Source: mayoclinic
Actually, these 2 health problems was already with me for a long time. I was first diagnosed with Peptic Ulcer when I was still in high school and kidney stones during college. Through grace of God, I was healed then and now.
'Rubies' recur maybe because I really like salty foods... my meal always comes with fish sauce or soy sauce. I guess I have to say goodbye to that :( my eating habit wont be the same without 'patis', but I woudn't trade my kidneys for that!
My ulcer, never left me since then. I have been very cautious with this but it really does stick on me! I understand that my bad habits before usually triggered its attack... and maybe, I am now reaping all the negative effects. I have been living a healthier life (no smoke, no alcohol, 1 coffee a day) for almost 6 months now, but I noticed that my ulcer attack are getting worst.
Maybe because it is adjusting? Maybe my stomach is not used to being clean :) :) :)
or whatever it may be, I know that it will soon be over, and I will be well.
Despite the pain, I am glad that I quit.
I am now adjusting to a 'clean and green' life and I know that this pain is nothing compared to more serious diseases that I might get from those vices.
God saved me.
He picked me up at the right time, before the bad habits ruined me totally.
I believe that my body is just in the 'cleansing' process, and soon, all the ''leftovers' will be gone. Fears have no room inside me. I have dealt with this sickness before, it means nothing, especially now, knowing that God is embracing me...
"Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security."
Jeremiah 33:6
Whatever is Inside Me
I still don't know...
It's my 10th day of medication.
And I really can't say that I am well or even I am better.
I am OK. Well, everything is the same...
Aside from taking some medicines, I am still fine.
It's just that I am more conscious with every strange (and normal - that I thought was strange) things that I feel from within... behind these bellies :)
Well, I must admit that I am a bit troubled with the thought of 'endoscopy' which was scheduled 5 days from now... I prayed for it, that if it is really needed, He will let the insurance approve it, and if not necessary, then it will be declined. I want to think that it was granted to give me peace of mind... to confirm that everything is normal.
I am bothered with this sedation and anesthesia and hospital bed and medicine tablets.... grrrrrrrrrr! I am not used to it. That hospital smell makes me sick!!! but I have to undergo such test... and I am looking forward on the day that I won't feel anything abnormal on my tummy again.
Somehow, I have this 2% excitement to know and understand why I am having this pain. My curiosity keeps me thrilled and gives me courage to do it.
I know I'll be fine in there. I am safe because God is in charge...
There might be some dilemma but I know that He is there for me.
It's my 10th day of medication.
And I really can't say that I am well or even I am better.
I am OK. Well, everything is the same...
Aside from taking some medicines, I am still fine.
It's just that I am more conscious with every strange (and normal - that I thought was strange) things that I feel from within... behind these bellies :)
Well, I must admit that I am a bit troubled with the thought of 'endoscopy' which was scheduled 5 days from now... I prayed for it, that if it is really needed, He will let the insurance approve it, and if not necessary, then it will be declined. I want to think that it was granted to give me peace of mind... to confirm that everything is normal.
I am bothered with this sedation and anesthesia and hospital bed and medicine tablets.... grrrrrrrrrr! I am not used to it. That hospital smell makes me sick!!! but I have to undergo such test... and I am looking forward on the day that I won't feel anything abnormal on my tummy again.
Somehow, I have this 2% excitement to know and understand why I am having this pain. My curiosity keeps me thrilled and gives me courage to do it.
I know I'll be fine in there. I am safe because God is in charge...
There might be some dilemma but I know that He is there for me.
When the sun was setting, the people brought to Jesus all who had various kinds of sickness, and laying his hands on each one, he healed them.
Luke 4:40
Forever Grateful
For quite sometime now, there's a pain in my abdomen...
Last weekend, I underwent an abdominal ultrasound, and discovered that I have 'gems' on my kidneys... 5mm on the left and tiny 'gravels' on the right.
Nothing to worry. Everything is fine.
I am now under medications and in 2 weeks time, there will be another ultrasound to check... and in Jesus' name, I know that it will be gone...
Though as per my Urologist, the pain is not coming from those 'rubies' (as I call it), but maybe from my Colon... and so I haveto see another doctor, a Gastroenterologist - which I already called for an appointment, that is 2 days from now. I will let you know... :)
I am smiling... because I know that I will be well, soon.
and I am grateful because I believe that this is just another test of my faith in Him... and I will not be shaken.
For the past months... life seems to be perfect for me and my family. Our hearts are filled with joy... there are a lot of reasons to celebrate. And we are thankful that we are so blessed.
I don't say that this is the payment for that (as we sometime thinks that in every happiness, there is sadness afterwards)... because I believe that this is another blessing for me, as God will use me to show His healing power as He removes these diseases away from my body.
God gives me trial so that I will continually cling onto His hands, and forever keep in touch with Him. Day by day, I know that He moves into my life... and through these circumstances, behind all these pain, I am molded and hardened to become a better individual - to be called His child.
Last weekend, I underwent an abdominal ultrasound, and discovered that I have 'gems' on my kidneys... 5mm on the left and tiny 'gravels' on the right.
Nothing to worry. Everything is fine.
I am now under medications and in 2 weeks time, there will be another ultrasound to check... and in Jesus' name, I know that it will be gone...
Though as per my Urologist, the pain is not coming from those 'rubies' (as I call it), but maybe from my Colon... and so I haveto see another doctor, a Gastroenterologist - which I already called for an appointment, that is 2 days from now. I will let you know... :)
I am smiling... because I know that I will be well, soon.
and I am grateful because I believe that this is just another test of my faith in Him... and I will not be shaken.
For the past months... life seems to be perfect for me and my family. Our hearts are filled with joy... there are a lot of reasons to celebrate. And we are thankful that we are so blessed.
I don't say that this is the payment for that (as we sometime thinks that in every happiness, there is sadness afterwards)... because I believe that this is another blessing for me, as God will use me to show His healing power as He removes these diseases away from my body.
God gives me trial so that I will continually cling onto His hands, and forever keep in touch with Him. Day by day, I know that He moves into my life... and through these circumstances, behind all these pain, I am molded and hardened to become a better individual - to be called His child.
"He knows the way I take;
when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold.
My feet have closely followed His steps;
I have kept to His way without turning aside."
Job 23:10-11
I AM SOOO IN LOVE
Wondered why I was not posting much for the past weeks?
First is because we are business as usual. Thank God that our client approved huge projects that were proposed for 2010. It feels great to be productive again here in the office.
And after some renovations, firing and hiring of management bosses, and few cake slicing for birthday celebrators... we are back to business. Though more changes are expected to take place in the coming weeks, I am ready :)
But aside from the work... I got engaged on other more important things.
Its been a month of Thursday meetings... and I got hooked to it.
What's the meeting all about???
After being Christian for almost 20 years (since I was born again and baptized), I finally said I do.
I do... to the commitment of learning - Bible study, which I ignored for the longest time (esp. in our church in Phils.) Though I had my own 'selfish' reasons before, I know that it's not acceptable.
Being a proud believer; I always and always say that my faith can move mountains... yet, there is still an empty space... I am still thirsty to learn more...
Part of the big blessing from finding a church in our new place (which made me - simply happy), is being part of the young adults group who also wants to know Him more... we quenched our thirst by organizing a weekly meeting to study.
After few weeks, I realized that there are still a lot of things that I need to learn... and I found myself falling in love to this reality. I am inspired to know more and share those knowledge with you.
I am hungry, and He continously feed me. I am in love and He hugs me sooo tight and loved me more. I am happy and thankful for this happiness, knowing that He is the source of this peace.
I am free and I couldn't ask for more.
First is because we are business as usual. Thank God that our client approved huge projects that were proposed for 2010. It feels great to be productive again here in the office.
And after some renovations, firing and hiring of management bosses, and few cake slicing for birthday celebrators... we are back to business. Though more changes are expected to take place in the coming weeks, I am ready :)
But aside from the work... I got engaged on other more important things.
Its been a month of Thursday meetings... and I got hooked to it.
What's the meeting all about???
After being Christian for almost 20 years (since I was born again and baptized), I finally said I do.
I do... to the commitment of learning - Bible study, which I ignored for the longest time (esp. in our church in Phils.) Though I had my own 'selfish' reasons before, I know that it's not acceptable.
Being a proud believer; I always and always say that my faith can move mountains... yet, there is still an empty space... I am still thirsty to learn more...
Part of the big blessing from finding a church in our new place (which made me - simply happy), is being part of the young adults group who also wants to know Him more... we quenched our thirst by organizing a weekly meeting to study.
After few weeks, I realized that there are still a lot of things that I need to learn... and I found myself falling in love to this reality. I am inspired to know more and share those knowledge with you.
I am hungry, and He continously feed me. I am in love and He hugs me sooo tight and loved me more. I am happy and thankful for this happiness, knowing that He is the source of this peace.
I am free and I couldn't ask for more.
"Jesus said, 'If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples.
Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free."
John 8:31:32
JAL Hotel, Fujairah
Located just 90 minutes from the dynamic city of Dubai and 40 minutes from Fujairah City, the hotel is situated between the Hajjar Mountains and the ocean and is set on more than 500 meters of private beach.
JAL offers not only the best facilities and but the best customer service you can get.
(hotel lobby)
Fun and relaxation are all over JAL.
With its long private beach and separated buildings, guests have their privacy.
Have it your way...
Warm water @ Infinity pool
Or Cold Fresh water pool
and of course, your kids' covered pool...
I know swimming pools are just great, but we all want mooore!!!
JAL's beach is too hard to resist!
From sunrise
To sunset
As the sun bids goodbye...
Prepare yourself for an ideal evening...
@ Marco Polo
Restaurant features the traditional culinary fare from Asia and Japan.
Traditional food preparation from the Wok for the Thai selection, Tandoori for the Indian, Sushi for the Japanese.
They also have other restaurants:
Breeze (Location: First Floor – Sea View) which offers a wide selection of Mediterranean a”-la-carte dishes including Pizza for lunch and dinner. Dishes are prepared in the open show kitchen giving the opportunity to interact with our Chefs.
Icho (Location: Top of dive center) is the only traditional teppanyaki restaurant available on the East Coast. Japanese style restaurant serving traditional teppanyaki cuisine.
Al Nokhada (Location: Second Floor) is the Arabic restaurant serving hot & cold mezzeh with mix grills in a Traditional Arabic Atmosphere. Perfect place to relax in the evening in a traditional Arabic environment.
Grand Bleu (Location: Beach Side / Ground Floor) overlooking the ocean, it offers mouth watering salads, sanwiches, steaks, seafood, light snacks and refreshing cocktails.
Moon Beach Lounge (Location: Second Floor) Let yourself pamper at our Roof Top Bar, while enjoying shisha, tisbits and cocktails in the romantic evening settings.
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Our stay was not enough to show you all enjoyment that JAL can offer...
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Our stay was not enough to show you all enjoyment that JAL can offer...
There are a lot mooooore!
Hopefully, I'll be back there, verrrrrrrrry soooooon :)
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