sad tuesday

another day ends.

sometimes, it feels like we just have to let it go...

everyday seems the same.

nothing new. no excitement for tomorrow.

it will just be the same as yesterday...

is this what life is all about?

i know it wasnt... before.

things changed. i dont know what went wrong.

maybe, this phase, which i call homesickness, will pass...

i would want to think it will...

because if it wont...

i cant recall living... i couldnt recognize life.

sometimes, i ask myself...

why am i here? it made me feel like a robot.

am i still alive?

i wonder if i am the only one suffering.

i know this is something that i shouldnt feel.

but this is real...

something is wrong...

am i lost? i dont know.

i am feeling numb...

confused? bothered? stressed?

i am not.

but for now, i just want to entertain this feeling.

bear with me.

i am definitely sad...

i asked myself the whole time, what is the reason...

and i found the answer.

i miss home.