Whatever is Inside Me

I still don't know...

It's my 10th day of medication.
And I really can't say that I am well or even I am better.

I am OK. Well, everything is the same...
Aside from taking some medicines, I am still fine.

It's just that I am more conscious with every strange (and normal - that I thought was strange) things that I feel from within... behind these bellies :)

Well, I must admit that I am a bit troubled with the thought of 'endoscopy' which was scheduled 5 days from now... I prayed for it, that if it is really needed, He will let the insurance approve it, and if not necessary, then it will be declined. I want to think that it was granted to give me peace of mind... to confirm that everything is normal.

I am bothered with this sedation and anesthesia and hospital bed and medicine tablets.... grrrrrrrrrr! I am not used to it. That hospital smell makes me sick!!! but I have to undergo such test... and I am looking forward on the day that I won't feel anything abnormal on my tummy again.

Somehow, I have this 2% excitement to know and understand why I am having this pain. My curiosity keeps me thrilled and gives me courage to do it.

I know I'll be fine in there. I am safe because God is in charge...
There might be some dilemma but I know that He is there for me.

When the sun was setting, the people brought to Jesus all who had various kinds of sickness, and laying his hands on each one, he healed them.

Luke 4:40