K A L I

Become Your Dream

2012-01-05T16:02:00.000+04:00

A Colorful & Prosperous 2012 to you!

Let me start this by sharing an excerpt from our CEO's New Year message to us...

Mahatma Gandhi said: "Be the change you want to see in the world."

And a year like 2011 in our region has certainly demonstrated the validity of this message. Across the Middle East and North Africa, people have made their voices heard, and I urge you to do 2 things:

First, Listen. Filter the truth and understand the new world we live in....

Equally important to listening is having a point of view and taking action. Have your voice and let it be heard. Stand for what you believe and do what you love. We have the power, the talent and the ambition to be as powerful as far reaching as our dreams can take us... Realize and become your dream...

Since Sunday, I have been thinking of topic for the year-end or new year article. I have been praying for wisdom on what to share to everyone.

Shall I make a recap of what happened in 2011? A year - end repost perhaps? Or shall I make a list of my new year's resolution and to-do-and-not-to-do list for the year?

Hence, you probably have read all the recap of 2011 - good and not so good things that happened in the past. And surely, you had prepared your new year's resolution as well (if you are that type) or at least had enumerated in mind things that you want to improve for the new year (that's my type).

So it took me a week to finally open this page and started to write... thanks to our CEO for the inspiring words.

Be the change you want to see in the world.

This word from Mahatma Gandhi is everywhere; most of us, if not everybody has read this for sure. But have we ever try (at least) put that into practice? To actually be that change?

Our world is in chaos. Our country has been devastated with several calamities. Our government is not far from a TV drama. People kills people; some took their own life. There are homeless families around. Many are jobless. What can we do for change?

Our boss said there are 2 things: Listen and Take Action.

In our work place; it is easier to apply these things. These words somehow made an impact and inspired everyone in this company to take a little step of change. Simply because we know how; we have our own task and we set the goals.

But outside this hub is the real world.

Being a Christian, how can we become our dream?

Or shall I ask - Do we know our dream?

Do we really know what changes we want to see in the world?

How can we take part?

We, as Christian, who has been called to spread the Gospel of Salvation shall never stop dreaming, that one day, every people in this planet will hear the Word and worship our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.

How can we be the change?

* We should live the life according to His Words; according to His purpose. Our life is a living testimony of God's faithfulness. His greatness should not just be heard from our mouth through sharing and preaching, but they should see it according to the lifestyle that we have.

One step at a time. Do you want to live healthy? Today, you try to stop smoking. If you fail, you can try again tomorrow. Are you over weight? Do you want to lose few pounds for you to be physically healthy? It is not for yourself alone, but for Him Who will be glorified if you take the lead to have a healthier life.

Do you nag to your husband? Or do you often argue with your wife? Try to talk peacefully. Listen from your heart... do not choose the words that you want to hear and ignore the rest. Reach out to your kid. Talk to them instead of yelling in case he got F's on report card. This is not just for your family but for Him Who is in the center of your family.

Do you feel neglected in your company? Are you not compensated well? Do not complain to your colleague and spread gossip around the office. Voice out your concern to the right person, may it be your boss, to HR or to the company manager. Do your job well; do not be lazy just because there is something that you do not want from the company policy. Remember, your Boss is watching you. We do not work for anybody else but for Him alone. And all our works will not go in vain because we do it for Christ alone.

* We can also spread love... It is the "most difficult" commandment (I guess) but let's take one step at a time. We can start one person a day that you want to "consider" loving... may she be the worst person that you met or the most horrible team mate; someone whom you barely speak with, person who you hate most, your boss, your HS classmate, your enemy during grade school, whoever he/she is, just try to put them in your heart and give some love. It is not easy, but loving one person a day means we can love 365 person a year!

* And last but never the least is to pray. To surrender to Him all the desires of our heart. All the plans, all these dreams, all the hopes, all the frustrations, everything that we ever thought of, let's all lift it up to Him.

Through that, we can be whoever we want to be. Because whatever we ask in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours. (Mark 11:24)

We have the power, the talent and the ambition to be as powerful as far reaching as our dreams can take us... Realize and become your dream...

We have God who will richly bless us with talent and wisdom, that will take us to the best place and that we can ever imagine. Just believe and we can become that dream...

God is a Great Fixer

2011-11-13T16:53:00.001+04:00

FOR YOU WHO WONDERS IF YOU'VE PLAYED TOO LONG TO CHANGE, TAKE COURAGE FROM JACOB'S LEGACY. NO MAN IS TOO BAD FOR GOD. TO TRANSFORM A RIVERBOAT GAMBLER INTO A MAN OF FAITH WOULD BE NO EASY TASK. BUT FOR GOD, IT WAS ALL IN A NIGHT'S WORK. - Max Lucado

I am a sinner... and we all are.
I have God... and we all have.
I accepted Him as a Lord of Savior of my life... have you?

People who knew me atleast 5 years ago can testify how much I've changed.
Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually... this isn't me few years back.

My life is a mess, and I have made several decisions that made it worst... wrong moves, wrong choices, wrong motives, wrong beliefs... until I quit.

And I never knew that I am going to turn my back on everything that seems to be 'my world' before. I had 'the best' plan for my life. I dreamt to be somebody and I am determined to do everything to be 'that somebody...'

I hurt my family. I ruined frienship. I neglect the people that matters to me. I burned bridges. I depended on myself and distrust other people. I believe in no one but me. I have vices. I engaged myself in wrong doings.

I was totally lost.

Until God showed me who I am and who I become.

I was broken... but my FIXER came to rescue me.
He picked me up, every little pieces that He created.

He didn't stop there...

He healed my heart, cleared my mind and gave me that peace and happiness that I long to have.
God does more than forgive us. He also cleanses us.
He restored my life. He rescued my soul.
He made me new, fresh, pure and holy again...

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." - 1 John 1:9

I am not worthy, but with His grace, he cleansed me.
There is nothing that you can do that God can't forgive.

Are you wrecked?
HE CAN FIX YOU TOO...

Another Summer Passed...

2011-10-31T14:22:00.000+04:00

It's a lovely day out there! Bright sunny day with cool breeze of winter wind.
Summer is finally over... just as quick as October.
Time runs fast; I have counted several summers here in UAE and have waited with enthusiasm for winters. This transition is significant for me. If you have noticed, I have written few blogs about this, annually -- when its almost winter.

What makes this time remarkable for me?
I guess, being in the Middle East, knowing that you are in the desert, having experience the heat of summer and have survived it, makes this time an extra special above the other phases.

During this time, it feels good to look back few months back... while you are covering yourself from the sun and the hot wind that blows on your face. The feeling of survival and victory that you have overcome the scorching heat of summer.

This year, blazing wind blew several times... I know its not only me, but many of us had a searing summer.

Personally, our family went over with many difficulties. We were not exempted to pain and trials. Like most Filipino families do, we faced it, dealt with it, and until today we are managing it, together. Death, sickness, wrong decisions, misunderstanding, lack of communication, distance... many factors, but with God's grace, we are embracing winter with faith, hope and love.

Company in particular and global economy in general had been roasted on summer... I have seen the decrease of our profit, clients picked the cheaper options, some division closed, others retrenched workers in order to survive. Yet, despite all those baking in finances on summer of 2011, I still had an increment and all the benefits that I am entitled of. God has provided for me.

Before the summer finally ended, there were several tragedies that happened in our country, Philippines... earthquake, flood, landslide, war... name it and we have stories to tell. Calamities warmth the summer of our country. Families were left homeless by the water of Pedring. People buried alive on landslides. Drought had destroy many farmland. War killed innocent men. These put our country in fire. But Filipinos are positive people. The flame that ignite in their heart is the strength that comes from God. There might be burning coal still, but they are now using it to give heat on the cool winter breeze.

Did the cold air embrace you today?

Look back at your summer once again... recall how hot the temperature was, so you can go out and enjoy the breeze after that...

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

James 1:2-3

Following Jesus is never easy

2011-10-17T16:50:00.000+04:00

God didn't promise a day without pain,
laughter without sorrow, sun without rain...

But He did promise strength for the day,
comfort for tears and light for the way.

How many times have you read that phrase?
It might be in your email inbox, FB friend's wall, twitter status...
I have seen it several times already... and every time I read these lines, it still gives me a great impact.

Following Jesus is never easy.
It's an struggle between yourself and your inner being...between knowledge and wisdom... between knowing and understanding... between life and living. A tug of war between past and future...

Travelling along this road is the bumpiest ride that you can experience. It's not always straight, smooth road to drive. There are stop lights that will show green to go, yellow to slow down and red to stop. There are radar for over speeding drivers. Others might have GPS for quick guide, while some hold maps for guidance. You might think that you know the way, but you missed the route.

You'll have stop overs. You'll see old and new faces; you'll be friends with strangers while you'll lose some of your so called friends.You'll have a family out of many families, and you'll have an obligation and responsibility to each of them... .

On the crossroads, you'll meet the person that you hate, the person that you love... someone that you thought you knew all along, but was a total stranger after all -- yourself. You'll learn to let go of who you were and start to become who you really are...

You'll realize that those days that you called 'happy times' were not really happy at all... and the ' moment of agony' is indeed the moment of victory.

On my walk with Him, I realized that Christian living is being 'in a relationship' - with Christ.

Being in love with the One and Only... your First and Last.
The Master of your life. The Captain of your ship. The center of your being.

Following Jesus is not having a list of do's and dont's...

In reality, there are no rules, yet you will abide. No conditions yet you will follow.

As your relationship grows deeper, you will obey... you will do what He did. Live The Life that is Truly Life.

"Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" -- 2 Cor. 5:17

No one is exempted in pain... but being in Christ, we do not carry the burden alone.

We undergo trials and temptations, we fall on our weaknesses, but He helps us to stand strong.

"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." -- Psalm 46:1

Knowing Him is a lifetime journey... an everyday adventure.

Each morning is a new opportunity to make a choice; to live a life with its purpose...

Following Jesus is never easy...
But He made it possible...

"But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find Him if you look for Him with all your heart & with all your soul." -- Deu. 4:29

It's A Beautiful Day

2011-09-27T15:00:00.003+04:00

I initially started my post with these lines - I missed blogging because...

And I came up with 6 excuses.

As I continue on my 7th, I realized that I was just fooling myself with all those reasons...

and the bottom line is that I failed to manage my time and I was not focus at all.

To be fair with me :), I was also pre-occupied with many things... both on work, personal and extra curricular. At office, I was given additional accounts to manage; on personal note, my parents and auntie just left after a month of vacation here in UAE, and my extra curricular - are the most important things among the three, for those are my commitment to WIN Sharjah church ministries.

Now, are my reasons valid? :-)

Maybe, but still I found myself guilty.

Guilty for not fulfilling my promise to you and my commitment to share how marvellous God is.

I know I have said I MISS YOU several times already. I have expressed my innermost desire to be with you on the pages of KALI. But I have failed you many times...

Now, I'll try again; let me start by saying: KALI's back! TODAY ---

Today, I do not have a huge story to tell.

But I have a huge God Who do mighty things that I can share...

This morning might seem to be the same as the past mornings... I had my routines before going and upon reaching the office. My water therapy, morning coffee and email and FB - KALI blogs update.

I remember the response of my colleague as I asked him, how are you today?

He replied, "Same S#1T, different day!" Poor guy, Isn't he?

I praise God that I am not on his shoes. I didn't wake up blinded with the greatness of our God. His light passed through the window of my heart and I see the beauty of my life.

Many of our countrymen today are suffering because of the typhoon that hits our country. I am dry and warm. I praise God for the protection that He gives to my family and loved ones. I thank God that I have the opportunity to pray for those who were affected by this calamity. May His protection and mercy be with them, in Jesus name.

There are people who are in the hospital. There are some who are grieving at the moment. But God protected my family from sickness. We are not mourning... I am not happy for those who are in pain, but I thank God that I am not in that situation and I am capable to pray for them. May He give them the strength to carry their trials and understand His purpose in their lives.

Lunch time just finished. I skipped it on purpose. I have a choice. There are people who haven't eat for 3 days... Some had water for lunch. I thank God for the cookies on my drawer, for the coffee on my tumbler... and I share these to all who are hungry; may God's blessings reach those who are in need... may they find the bountiful blessing of Our Father.

I am at work... I have my job... and I am relaxed. Not because there were no work at all, but because it's manageable. God gave me the wisdom to handle my job well. Its a beautiful day because I am not on queue for the next interview. He put me in a good company and surrounded me with good people. I know some who desperately needs job. Some are working with delayed salary. I thank God that I can see how much He has blessed me with all these... May He bless others with the right job at the right company, and may His will be done on their lives.

The sun shines on this side of the planet... wind blows... there are bird flying in the air... I can see the clear sky... I can type on my keyboard on both hands... I can hear people laugh... I can write a blog...

There are more... so much more to be grateful for! It's only half of the day, and if I will continue with all the beautiful reasons why today is a wonderful day... we might finish on the following day.

I believe you too are blessed... start counting and you'll be surprised knowing that today is indeed a very beautiful day!

I read a post from a friend in FB:

The key to experiencing supernatural joy every day is to choose your response to life—no matter what challenges you are facing, no matter what circumstances are weighing you down, no matter what negative news you may have received. Your level of joy is not dependent on the obstacles in front of you or what day of the week it is. It's dependent on you choosing to put your faith and trust in Almighty God.

Psalm 118:24 says, "This is the day the LORD has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it."

Do You Have The Key?

2011-07-20T00:18:00.001+04:00

This is one lesson that I learned from the forty five days gap, I MISS YOU, remember... and as I promised, I will share stories that happened in between :-)

As the clock ticks at 5PM, my adrenalin goes up... I will cross-check all my to do list for the day and will immediately follow up all the pending jobs that were needed. I usually put pressure on my colleagues esp from finance by pointing finger on my watch...
Some walking along the hallway, few phone calls, and before I knew it, its already 6pm... finally!!!

That is me, normally.

Today, admittedly, not all jobs on my list were checked, and not all the mails were marked completed... I left my desk with some pending jobs... I was rushing to go home because there are some things that I wanted to do. That's why even if there were some jobs that needs to be sorted, I shut down the computer and ran...

Actually, I was 5 mins late in the service van...
They should've left, but I called one colleague and asked them to wait for me.
During the travel, I even plan the things that I will do when I reach home. I slept for about 40 mins...
Then, we arrived in Sharjah...

They drop me right in front of our building... and as soon as I stepped out of the van and closed the door... BANG#!$%^&* I suddenly remember that..................... left my house key!!!

It was hanging on our key holder!!! I even saw it that morning before we leave, I clearly remember that I had second thought of getting it from there, but I didnt bother, not only because we were late that morning, but I depended on Erika, because she always has it.

Since it's very seldom that we do not go at the same time, I didn't realize it's importance... not until that night.
At the time when I thought I was ready, my mind was set and my actions were planned...
I ended up sitting in the bench along corniche, waiting for time to pass.

This is not the first time that I was caught off guard... and I know that you too had some experiences wherein you have set and planned your day ahead, but ended up looking at your planner, wondering what if...

At that time while I was there, sitting at the bench, watching people pass in front of me... I wonder if how many of them really set that time to exercise or walk... and how many were like me, waiting for their keys.

The key -- that small thing that shut me out of our house because I ignore its importance.

In our daily tasks, may it be as simple as frying an egg, or may it be as big as a client pitch, we plan, we prepare ourselves to the the work. We exert our efforts and put our best foot forward in every thing that we do.

But that night, I left an important key -- as I arrange the things that I was supposed to do, set my mind and finalize the plan, I forgot to say a little prayer. Once again, I relay on my own knowledge. I planned alone. The most important key that we often forget... the key to all the things...

I was prepared, but I was not ready... because that day I chose to ignore the key.

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.

Proverbs 16:9

Who needs a break?

2011-07-03T17:54:00.001+04:00

Few minutes ago, I felt so tired and restless...
I needed a break.

I first thought of making a chai but I didn't find my mug in the pantry, so I erased the tea break on my mind.
I walk along the corridor and went to toilet to freshen up.
Ate was there... the Filipina cleaner.

As I was washing my hands, I took a deep breath and sigh - "Hay kapagod!"
Suddenly, Ate said in a very calm voice, "Sinong mas pagod sa atin?"

Boom!!!

It took me a while before I finally find the right words to say..."Oo nga po, kayo maghapon ng naglilinis. Masakit na po kasi mata ko sa harap ng computer."
Ate said, "Nakakapagod din ung mag isip ano? Pero malaki naman ang bayad sa inyo, sulit naman."

In few seconds, all the weariness that I felt seems to escape from me... crawling away from my complaining body, not wanting to hear another word from Ate's sad and frustrating story.

The headache and fatigue left my now fully recharged and energetic body in front of Ate. I stayed for few more minutes. She talked about her retirement and the benefits that she can get from the company and the SSS which she needs to pay for 2 more years before she can be entitled to a pension.

Finally, another person entered the toilet. I have an excuse to leave. I thanked for her time... then I stepped out..
But her voice was chasing me... "Sinong mas pagod sa atin?"

Shame on me to complain in front of a 52 year old, cleaning lady who works 10 hours a day with only 30 mins break... cleaning the toilets from ground floor to 4th floor of a building.

How tired am I?

Sitting all day on this fancy chair... checking FB once in a while... replying to queries... chatting in ym when someone says hi... doing some quotes... having a short walk to finance... computing some cost... talking to colleagues... preparing some reports... and writing some blogs!

Not to mention the full hour of lunch break and unlimited tea / coffee breaks.

How tiring can this job be?

Most of the time, we feel tired not because we are physically exhausted or mentally drained... but only because we think that we are... we often think that we have more workloads than any of our colleagues...

Yes, we may be busier than the other... our desk might be covered with papers and documents, there may be a lot of editing works to be done or an event to coordinate... day might not be as easy as yesterday... but its all right, because it's part of your job and no one is expected to do it but you.

It doesn't matter if we do not have the best job that every body wishes to have... what's important is that we do our best in the job that was given to us...

We do not have everything that we want... but God gave everything that we need.

You want a break?

Look around and see what you've got.. enjoy and relax!

I Miss You

2011-06-20T17:57:00.002+04:00

It's been one and a half month since you read something from me.
I am sorry for the gap... for the silence.

The past 45 days was not dull nor empty that there was nothing to write...
Instead, it was a very hectic 45 days for me that might equal to 90 days to others.
Most of the time, my 24 hours was never enough for one day and it usually ends with another day.

I may be as busy as a bee... but I was never been this happy.

I had several experiences that I should share...
I have compiled them in my mind and in my heart. The lessons that I learned, the people that I met, the moments and the experiences... you can read them all in the coming days.

For now, I want to tell you that I really do miss you.
Its been a week that I have this passionate desire to say something again here in my blog... To open my dashboard and write.
In the past week, I felt guilty for not fulfilling my commitment of sharing something to you.

I know I am not oblige.

You may not notice at all that I was gone for quite some time and never even waited for my next blog...
But for me, this is something that I am dedicated to do... not just to you and to myself but to my Big Boss up there...

This site is not just a simple outlet of what I feel, neither a hobby, but along with these pages is my vow, my commitment to testify the amazing work of God in my life and the marvelous things that He does everyday...

It's not easy. Many times, I see myself stumbling from this commitment.

But the conviction of fulfilling this work gives me strength to go on... to write more... to share my experiences and learning...
not for my own satisfaction but to give back the honor to the Source of this wisdom and the real Author of the story of my life, Christ Jesus.

⁷ But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. ⁸ We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. ¹⁰ We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.

2 Corinthians 4:7-10

Lolo Ciano: An Inspiration

2011-05-04T10:02:00.002+04:00

The righteous lead blameless lives; blessed are their children after them.

- Psalm 20:7

Our dear Lolo Ciano celebrated his 90th birthday last April 17, surrounded with the whole family and friends. It was a grand reunion. A joyful day of thanksgiving. Indeed, a beautiful day blessed by the Lord.

At 90, Lolo is still physically healthy, with sharp memory, good hearing and eyesight.Still capable of walking, can dance freely, and he can eat whatever food he wants. A strong man with a happy and healthy heart.

There was a full day program, and I, being the host, was priviledged to listen attentively to all the people who greeted him on his special day... lives that were touched by his life... souls that were saved as he share God's Words... people from all walks of life that was inspired by his dedication and commitment. He is a true servant of God.

I have heard their stories... of how Lolo lived his life, not for this world but for the life Above. How he managed to transform from being a worldly man with vices while he was young - to a responsible husband and father who wanted to set a good example to his children - to becoming an obedient child of God. He walked a straight path.

Being with God doesn't mean living an easy life. Having 13 children, Lolo and Lola worked hard to provide the needs of the family. They struggled to survive. Lolo lost a child - his youngest son during their early family stage, his first born son and his wife, our dear Lola Marcosa, during his old age. They were stormed with several trials and he passed the test.

Our God is faithful. He fulfill His promises to those who obey His will. Lolo's life is a living testimony of how great our God is...

He has guided us, his family, to the right direction. Though we are not perfect, but God's love made us live a perfect life - living with Jesus as the center of our lives... And we are forever grateful to our Lord God for his life.

And now, as we walk along the path where he leads us, I keep on praying that we will not fail him and someday make him proud...

One Sunny Day

2011-03-29T10:31:00.001+04:00

We seldom see the beauty of our own backyard...
In the busy life that we have, we neglect to see what's instore for us in the surrounding environment.
And often, we plan to go far from our own place to relax and unwind.
But have we ever tried to look around you?
In your neighborhood? On the street next to yours?

On my previous post, you joined me on My Route and you've seen the Sharjah-Dubai road on my way to work. The high rise buildings, vast dessert and the on-going constructions which symbolizes the continuous development and evolution of Dubai.

Now, let me show you one of Sharjah's beautiful spots.. the newly constructed buildings with ancient Arabic look... their old dhows and the new yachts...

I've seen the past and the future during this one sunny day - and a bright and shinny realization of what life was... is... and would become.

This is the the Government road in the Corniche / Khalid Port Area...

where some of the Sharjah Government buildings are located.

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A clean and well maintained street that is best for walking or biking...

Facing these buildings is the Khalid Port.

Here, I've seen the evolution of Sharjah...

How they were before and what have they become.

The Old Dhow

This peaceful area gave glimpse of the past...
resting in the shadow of present...

looking forward to the bright future.

From old to new...

Holding on to the lessons from yesterday...
to be ready for the storm today.

Despite the creation of new yachts and big vessels,
they still give importance to their dhows by restoring the old ones...

Combining the present and the past...

They value their country and their culture...

that bridges them to the future.

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Everyday, thousands of people passed along this bridge where you can see these beautiful architectures.
Yet due to the busy and rush hour traffic... not many of them notice what this area really symbolizes.

I admire the decision of the Sharjah government not to embrace the evolution of the new architectures and modern Skyscrapers... but to keep their identity and culture the way they are.

Same with us... in this fast changing life, we tend to go with the flow, be updated with what's in on this generation. With all the gadgets and all the 'right stuff' that keeps on upgrading every three months.

These items are good... it helps us somehow and make our living easier. The technology of mobiles and internet keeps us connected to our families and to the world.

But they can also become a source of false security... and even pride. Like money, some becomes obsessed with these material things. Finding happiness on this earthly possessions and wants to have more.

It changes us...we tend to forget who we really are and what we really want to be. Where we are and where we want to go...

Life is journey. We never know what's around each curve, through each forest, across each river... and Jesus taught us to travel light, taking only what we really need for this journey -- God's divine love that provides richness unmatched by any worldly possession.

Whoever loves money never has enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with their income.

This too is meaningless.

Ecclesiastes 5:10

KALI's back

2011-03-01T17:42:00.000+04:00

Parked and ready to rock!!!

See you really soon...

Celebrate Love

2011-02-14T16:14:00.000+04:00

Music and Me

2011-01-31T17:45:00.002+04:00

I love to sing.

I can sing all day with the magic sing. I know a lot of videoke songs.
I love music.
I can survive all day without TV, but please, I need music.

I am a frustrated singer...
It's not that I'm out of tune; because I know the tones so well...
But I do not have the voice -- of a singer.
My voice is flat... that's the big problem!

Many years ago... as in 16 years ago, when I had my very first guitar.
Yes. I am a musician too...
OK! Frustrated musician...
I bought a guitar hoping that I can learn how to play; and luckily, I did.
One song and the only song that I learned back then!
The Green Green Grass of Home = D-A-G-A
Oh and by the way... I wasn't able to play the whole song :)) ever!

Until the day that my guitar was broken by our neighbor...
I never learn how to play.

Time passed...

Whenever I see a guitar, there's this spark... as if seeing my first love over and over again.
Yes. That's exactly how I feel... and when I play it (and I literally mean play with it, since I can't play a single song), the sound coming from those chords and piece of wood gives me a bliss.

Recently, me and my first love had another chance to be together again...

Our dearest Pastor gave it to me. With hope and prayers that one day I will learn how to strum and play a song. This is one of the best gifts I have received... And coming from the person who means so much to me, I was inspired to learn again.

I am taking one step -- or rather, one chord and a time...

Little by little, I was able to play... one stanza, one chorus, one song.

In His Time...

My first song played... after a decade and a half...

And the first complete song played... ever!

Indeed, He makes all things beautiful, in His time...

Now, its been 3 weeks that I am playing guitar for our Praise and Worship in our Bible Study.

I am so grateful that He gave me chance to play music for Him. I have never learned any songs then,

but as I play Christian songs, coming from the heart... my spirit is filled with joy.

Thank God, my BS family are so understanding and supportive :) I am learning with them...

I am not good yet.

I can say, I am on my nursery level when it comes to playing. Most of the time, I am still out of tune.

But I am determined to learn. I do not dream being a pro... All I want is to do good, by giving my best, to sing a song of praise...

Me and my first love, playing for the Greatest Love...

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:13

My Route

2011-01-26T18:01:00.006+04:00

This is my daily route.

From my place to office.

1 hour and 30 mins travel - one way.

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This is my pick up point.

It's along Al Khan.

This is where my journey begins, every morning...

This is the last pick up point...

After that, continuous 1 hour and 20 mins.

This is Sharjah.

It is composed of buildings (mostly residential) and cars (all types).

That is why it is known to have the worst traffic condition in the UAE.

Because most of the people working in Dubai lives here...

This is street is going to Emirates road, along the Industrial Area.

Along this road is where I'm starting to pray.

Its because by that time, most of the people in the van are already sleeping. And I join them after I pray :)

Approximately 1 hour to go...

That exit leads us to Al Qusais -- and its already Dubai.

Everyday, I listen to praise and worship through the entire travel.

My Ipod is playing the whole time, while I pray in between... that is when I am awake.

After Al Qusais, is Rashidiya.

This is the Dubai Metro Depot.

From here is about 40 mins more...

When I'm awake, my heart is singing by this time. Giving thanks for another beautiful day.

Though its still a long way through... I never get bored.

I really love traveling; and though it was my daily route, I still enjoy the view.

From Rashidiya to Business bay...

Approx: 40 mins more before office.

This is my favorite spot.

As if we are going up to the castle...

This is Garhoud Bridge.

One of the best spots for me.

As you go down from the bridge, the Dubai Sheik Zayed Road Skyline will welcome you...

Everyday, I am still mesmerized by this site.

Constructions are still on going everywhere...

From this area, its about 15 mins more before we reach the office.

And if I am awake, by this time, I was able to pray for the people in our office... for the friends whom I haven't seen for quite some time... for the people who are sick... and for the people who are in need...

and whoever and whatever that comes to my mind, I pray for them.

Yes. The travel time might be that long... but the time should not be wasted.

If we are stucked in traffic... look around you. Look at the people who need prayers. Think about other's situation, and pray for them.

This is the Business Bay road.

From here, you can see how tall is the tallest building in the world.

The back of the famous Sheik Zayed Road.

Behind those buildings are still desert.

View of Burj Khalifa, from Business Bay

Approx. 10 mins before the office

This is one of the new roads -- Dubai Interchange 4 (skyway)

Photo above is the view from left and below is the right view.

This is behind the buildings along Shk. Zayed road and Dubai International Financial Center.

The original Dubai structures... not the high rise buildings but VILLAS.

Another beautiful structure: The Al Mooroj Rotana

View from Interchange 4 (skyway)

After Al Mooroj Rotana is the Dusit Thani.

This area is the most special part of Dubai for me.

The place where I first stepped. Our first home away from home.

This is my friend's place... and that's where we all started.

On the photos, they are those (small) buildings after Dusit.

Sheik Zayed Road

Approx. 5 mins before the office.

View of Burj Khalifa from the other side of the road.

Getting closer to my workplace...

This is the other (back) side of Sheik Zayed road.

The Mazaya Center.

This is another memorable area for me since we used to walk here from home.

During the time when we are still staying in the nearby area - Jumeirah.

And finally...

Welcome to Emarat Atrium Building.

This is our window view from the office...

Not far from those villas is our former place where we stayed for 2 years...

4 blocks away from our office... only walking distance.

And most of our colleagues, especially in the van asked us many times why we chose to move from there...and what's worst is to go to Sharjah and travel 1 1/2 hours a day to work.

There are many reasons. Yes there are pros and cons.

Maybe, I woke up 1 1/2 hrs earlier because of the travel time.. but its not wasted at all...

I also have invested most of the 1 1/2 hours a day in praying or listening to praise and worship.

I have seen how Dubai changes, day by day.

And along the way, I was able to enjoy the beautiful things around me.

The vast desert. The tall buildings. The wide roads and bridges. The beautiful sunlight and the lovely skies.

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Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassion never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23

Am I Late?

2011-01-16T12:55:00.013+04:00

Let me start my first blog of 2011 by a late greeting of
A Blessed New Year to you and your family!!!
I hope and pray that my blog reached you, just on time...

Why am I late?
How come I missed posting blogs for Christmas day and New Year on this page?

2010 for me is one of the best year of my life.
I was able to enjoy life.
I still have my family, my relatives and my friends... all in good condition.
And most of all, I have God and He keeps me.

What else can I ask for?

Many...

It's been a year now since I started joining a Bible study group. Every Thursday, as we meet up, there are new questions that arises on my mind and my heart seeks the answers... feelings that I never felt before.

Slowly, as we seek the WORD, we discover how great our God is...
I love Him. Jesus is the One and Only love of my life.
I trust Him. I have said many times that my faith can move mountains.
I longed to be with Him. To worship and praise Him with all my heart.

Yet, there is still something inside of me that desires for more...

For the past weeks -- during the season of reflection. My silence brought me to another dimension.
Everyday, I opened this account... started to write... but ended up deleting the page. Something is bothering me, but I didn't understand it first. It's from within...

I prayed.
He replied.

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What else can I ask for?

I need a clean heart. A guilt-free mind.
I need forgiveness... from myself, from the people that I hurt, and those who caused me pain.
As I fold and throw away the calendar of the past, I attached all the excess baggage that was on my back for quite some time.

I asked for a heart that forgives.
Now, I can say that I am totally free. It may be 6, 10, or 4 years of misunderstanding... All those that I've carried for years -- locked in the 'hatred box' inside my heart, was finally released.
Yes. It took me that long... Am I late?
As I surrendered them all to Him... He threw it all away.
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What else can I ask for?

In my prayers, I have always asked Him to use me on His Kingdom. May the works of my hands give Him glory and my gifts and talents be used for Him alone.
And I waited for His answer. Its been years of trying to devote 'some' of my time to church.
I tried hard... because I want to. But I failed, many times.

Why is it too difficult to please Him? For the past years of my life, I have wanted to serve Him. But there is something that stops me from doing it. Am I late? Is my time over?

My longing to work for Him is not the same as responding to His call.
Doing things my way will never be called serving Him. Rather, it is self-serving... for I do things that I want to... and not what I was asked to do.

A heart that obeys.
Finally, I was able to understand the real meaning of serving and obedience.
Following His will... Obeying His commands.
The pleasure of being His servant is the greatest honor that a person can receive.
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What else can I ask for?

Many...

I know there are more to come!!!

It might take another decade for me to learn and understand... but it's fine.
Am I late for that?
... I guess not.

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¹² I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live.

¹³ That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God.

Ecclesiastes 3:12-13

Exhange Gift

2010-12-20T16:05:00.002+04:00

Since I am in Arab region, where Muslim cultures were strictly implemented, I am blessed that somehow, there is this Christmas spirit that's standing in the midst of our department...

Last Thursday, we had a Merry-Pot-Luck Day in the office; a merienda cena in our department followed by exchange gift from the Secret Santa!

A traditional Christmas celebration that we, Christians were used to. We had it in school, church, offices, with friends and family.

Our CEO, who is a Muslim then said during his opening speech that though not everyone in our department knows, understand and believe what Christmas is, we were still gathered for the simple reason of being together, exchanging gifts to make someone happy and sharing the blessings that we received throughout the year.

Indeed, he has captured the point of the celebration. Being an outsider in the Christian world and maybe, he doesn't even know the Story of Christmas in Bethlehem... yet he knew that being together in this season of giving is a major factor of the celebration.

Being together as family, bounded by the love of God.
He has given His Only Son to be with us, to give us salvation so that we can all be like Him and glorify God as One Family.

Exchange of gifts... He gave His Only Son in exchange of our life; for us to live with Him.
The Gift of life. The Gift of deliverance from our sins.

Last but never the least is the sharing of blessings... from the rising of the sun, the beautiful day, the happy family and the salvation that we received... its not just for us, but for everyone.

Share to everyone you know how great our Lord is... this is the most wonderful gift that you can give not just to your friends or to your family, but more importantly, to our Lord Jesus Christ.

He is faithful.
He deserved to be praised.
Do your part.
Share His Words and make this a better world :-)

Happy Christmas!

Hearing Sleigh Bells

2010-12-08T15:31:00.003+04:00

Have you heard that ting-a-ling-ling these days?
The season of happy songs from the happy heart and happy souls is finally here.
We'll I haven't heard any Christmas carols on this side of the planet but the ting-a-ling-ling-ting-ting-a-ling-dong is buzzing on my ears... in my mind and in my heart.

Just as the cool breeze embraced me every morning as I walk, are the many Christmas memories that hugs me all the way and makes my day happier.
As if I can hear the beat of the little drums made out of milk cans with plastic on top... and the sleigh bells made of bottle crowns... kids singing the same Christmas carols every night, with those improvised instruments and looking forward to the gift or the money that people will give (which they usually save for the Big day).
The smile on their faces, the thank you song that they sang for the gift that you have given to them are priceless... and that experience, from being a caroler to becoming the giver is a lifetime happy memory that will forever put a smile in our hearts.

That simple act from the kids, going in front of your doorsteps, singing songs and making your Christmas experience happier just reminded me of how Our Savior has knocked on the doors of our hearts and offered an eternal happiness in our life.

The joy of hearing the Christmas carols is nothing compared to the joy of listening to His Words.
Not like the kids that somehow expects gifts from us; He is the One who has brought something for us - the gift of faith, hope and love.

Can you imagine the face of the angels while singing 'thank you' not for the gift that we gave but for accepting the Gift that God has given to us?

In these busy season of giving, it is more important that we learn the real reason for the season....
at the time when we thought that we have given all the best that we can and did everything that we can do to make this occasion wonderful...

But what's important specially on this season is for us to receive...

There is A Special Gift that we should open; the greatest gift that we often overlooked during the festivity...
The Gift that many refused to take...

The Child that was born...
So that we can have the life -- and have it to the full.

She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus,because he will save his people from their sins.”

Matthew 1:21

Vision Board

2010-11-21T16:53:00.004+04:00

3 years ago, I started to create and believe in the vision board - as mentioned in Rhonda Byrne's The Secret - Understanding the law of attraction - and the power of positive thinking.

My first vision board was not a board at all, I just posted a DVD cover of the movie - Dubai on my cabinet. It was 2007. Few months after that, I found myself in UAE.

Since then, I (like many others) have started to believe that focused positive thinking can have life changing results, such as increased in wealth and happiness.

No, I did not put a check worth 1M on my wallet... but I do consider every now and then The Secret.

2008 - 2009, for almost two years, I did not revise my vision board. Not until November of 2009.
But there is something worth remembering from that collage...a picture of a car that I wanted to have...
and a month after I changed the board; I had the same car on the picture I posted on it...

This is my 2010 vision board:

BIGGER and BETTER!

You can see some long term and short term goals... a beach house, travels, HDV cam, BB, Mac Book Pro, LED TV and lots of money...

It was a year when I hanged that on our wall...

As I drill the wall and placed my board... my hopes were high that some of those photos will be real.

After a year, as I looked up and checked on my board...

I still do not have all those material things. No Blackberry, not even a new phone for 3 years. I never upgraded on Mac... no camera, no LED TV, not even plasma. No travel aside from Philippines.

But I have received BIGGER and BETTER gifts that money cannot buy...

It's also a year of being in church again...

And more than all those material things, I have received the contentment and happiness that only Our Lord God can give.

I have learned that The Secret is not from the law of attraction or the power of positive thinking, but from Him alone -- our faith and not the vision board lead us through it.

Being in the UAE is not a reality of the DVD cover that was posted on my cabinet, but a perfect plan of the Lord for me to become His servant wholeheartedly.

I received a car not because it was on that collage but because I prayed that God will bless me so I can be a blessing to others as well...

And now, I am the riches person in the world. Not because of all those material things on my board, but because I have Him.

"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness,

and all these things will be given to you as well."

- Matthew 6:33

Sheikh Zayed Mosque

2010-11-08T17:31:00.001+04:00

The largest mosque in the United Arab Emirates -- Eight largest in the world.

Named after Sheikh Zayed bin Sultan Al Nahyan

founder and the first President of UAE.

His wake was also buried on this place.

The main dome is the largest in the world and is 87 metres high with a diameter of 32.8 metres.

There are 82 domes of 7 different sizes covering the outside yard and the main building.

4 minarets on the four corners of the mosque which rise about 115m in height.

The mosque is large enough to accommodate 40,000 worshippers.

The main prayer hall can accommodate up to 9,000 worshippers.

Two rooms next to the main prayer hall, with a 1,500-capacity each, are for the exclusive use of women.

Its archways are quintessentially Moorish.

The mosque has Ablution area for men and women situated on the North East and South East corners of the Sahan (open prayer) areas.

REAL GOLD cubes were designed on the tiles.

The crescents featured on the top of the domes used 24 carat gold.

The mosque stands as a symbol of the warm hospitality and traditions of Abu Dhabi.

Travellers will be amazed by the magnificent beauty and grandeur of this architectural masterpiece.

Construction cost: 2 billion dirhams ($545 million)

My Cup and The Bread

2010-11-04T17:09:00.002+04:00

One dose a day... at least?!?

Since I chose to stay healthy... I tried to have (as much as possible) only one cup a day. Though there are times that I took two -- one at night with friends. Compared to almost 7 + cups before... maximum of 2 cups is a breakthrough in my healthy lifestyle :)

My cup is part of my morning routine. I couldn't start and work properly without this 'ritual' of preparing and enjoying this energy booster. A drink that awakens my body and sets my mood to work... its like a battery fluid that runs through my veins, going up to my brain. When all the pathways were filled with this fluid... then, I'm all set for the day.

That is me -- physically.

But there is something more powerful than my cup.

The Bread of Life.

I may drink one gallon of coffee in the morning... but missed having 'A BITE' of the Bread of Life -- and I'll be dead.

See how powerful it is???

We do not even need one loaf... a bite will do, at least... to fortify us with all the power that we'll need. Few words that serves as the vitamins of our soul... sentences that strengthen us and to keep moving throughout the day, in every day of our lives.

Blessed is the one who reads the words of this prophecy, and blessed are those who hear it and take heart what is written in it, because the time is near.
Revelation 1:3

I was once like the boy from the Forwarded Messages -- Basket of Water, who wonder what good Bible reading gives to people... but as years passed, while reading and studying.... (though I seldom memorize, even my favorite verses...) I felt that deep within my heart, the Words that were planted are growing , day after day.

I know there are changes in me... inside and out. It's not intentional... It didn't happened overnight. But as time passes, I just suddenly felt that I became (and I claimed I am) a better person, for I have stronger faith and a deeper relationship with Him.

The process is effortless... the reward is priceless...

Now, we can see Daily Verse all over, from Facebook, Twitter, Stumble... anywhere on any sites.

The Bread can be found in different packages, but the content will always be the same...

It's not for sale... because It's free!

There's no expiration... because the life span is until eternity...

One bite and live right :)

For Them

2010-11-01T17:44:00.003+04:00

I lit this candle today for them...

Them, who was once with us in this journey

People who shared a portion of their life with us

They, who extended their love unconditionally

and touched our hearts wholeheartedly.

Our grand parents who watched us grow

Who spent their lives for our own

Who shared everything and gave it all

To us whom they loved and they cared most.

Friends who knew us, from the very start

Since the day that we met and started to laugh

They are those people who dreamt with us

Our friends that will forever be in our hearts.

Acquaintances and other people, we barely knew

But gave an impact in our journey too

We had met along the way, one stop over of our lives

And that moment stayed and gave us a brand new light.

Them, who crossed the line and left us all behind

Our loved ones whom we missed every single day of our lives.

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And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."

Revelation 21:4

Chocolates on October

2010-10-31T23:25:00.004+04:00

October was another roller coaster month for me!
It was fast and had many loops... high and low days... straight and curved...

As I was browsing over my desk planner, I noticed many red marks and sad faces on it... many things happened... and those are NOT just ordinary incidents...
Now, I realized that its not just another roller coaster ride with thrill and excitement.

But October is indeed a month of surprises.
A box of chocolate...

This month, the suspense was not on the loops but on the shapes and the flavors that I got from the past weeks.

For the first week, I had chocolate with almonds.
The sweet and salty 7 days in Phils. with my family... though the almond on the center of it was quite hard and difficult to chew, since Nanay was hospitalized. But being with them and knowing that Jesus is our Greatest Healer, the difficult times were covered with creamy chocolate that makes every bite of life more scrumptious

Week after that, was cookies and cream.
Coping up in the office with one week backlog plus home sickness... my passion for work are the milk chocolates that are poured out to the bits of cookies which are bitter - loneliness. And together, they make life yummy and delightful.

Then I had a taste of dark chocolate.
When I witnessed the painful experience of someone who was pulled out from his comfort zone. A bitter realization that everything is temporary and no one except Him knows what tomorrow really meant.
Just like pure cocoa on these dark chocolates, so are the lessons that were stated directly on my face. Hard to chew, bitter in taste but knowing that everything happens for His reasons and His glory alone, chocolates, no matter how dark it seems, will always be chocolates.

Finally on the 4th week, I had Eclairs.
A mouthwatering experience of God's love and care. Aside from the busy month end in the office, our small business just had a huge challenge... being overloaded with work for the week, yummy eclairs are prepared, bite size, ready anytime for chewing. Just like Him who are always there, no matter how busy life may be, Eclairs it will always give that lip smacking chocolate loaded candy.

And since October 2010 had 5 Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays that happens only once in 823 years...

There's another one left on the box...

The fifth weekdend, a memorable weekend of feast and fellowship as we celebrated the Feast of Tabernacle on the final week of the month. A morning of worship, giving back all the glory to Him alone. An opportunity to give thanks, to sing praise and glorify His name.

Indeed, life is a box of chocolates... with different sizes, different flavors, different shapes. It always gives surprises, no matter what color it is... and the taste vary, depending on the person who is taking it...
Some love it sweet, others want it pure and dark, while some prefered the white bar...
No matter what it is... we all know that in every bite, there's a chocolate in it.

So as in our life... no matter how sweet, how salty, how hard the cover or the center... we know that for everything, there is a reason... and that in every bite, God is with us, helping us to understand why some are bitter and some are not.

You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Psalm 16:11

We may not understand why things are not on the right shape all the time...

Yet we are assured that His right hand is the One molding our chocolates and putting it on lovely packages...

hOUR Glass

2010-10-20T17:15:00.013+04:00

In this world, we were moved by our ambitions of who we want to become, what we wanted to have and how we can achieve it. We also planned where it should happen and when the time is.

We spent our lives trying so hard to accomplish things on our own ways... our mind never stops thinking on how well we can be and how beautiful life can become...

But more often, we missed THAT MOMENT without realizing that it already passed -- when we already lived with our dreams... because we are so busy looking forward to something better.

We live with the desire to have more... not even recognizing what we obtained. We planned and act aggressively without even pausing for a while... we never stops until everything that we wanted is within our hands.

In this world where money matters, where career is top priority and living life with luxury... when will we stop to listen and analyze what God really wants for us?

We are all guilty with the fact that we tend to do things our way... then asked for SOS when trouble comes. Many times we ignore His warnings and push through with our own dealings... and just ask for help when things messed up.

We tend to push ourselves hard over things that we want. We tend to ignore the limits and always try to go beyond. No rules can stop our desire to have MORE.

But we have to realize that all of us and all of these will come to an end.
In the time that no one but only God can tell.
In a blink of an eye... in just a snap...
Everything that we have and everything that we love will vanish...

If one day, we just woke up and learned that everything was over...
That even our dreams were taken away...

At this time when nothing is there but emptiness...

When no more sand was left...

God's hands are there...
Ready to turn hOUR Glass upside down, so we can start all over again.

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

James 1:12

The Life that is Truly Life

2010-10-13T15:20:00.034+04:00

It's my 200th post.
After saying Bye Bye Love on the 2nd year of Kali...
It's about time to let go of the life I planned to accept the life that is waiting for me.

As I randomly checked some of my previous posts, memories flashed back... actually, I cannot believe that I was able publish it and let people enter into my life.
From the story of The Good Samaritan... and how I was EMBARRASSED by my nephew's faith and the many Happy Thoughts that we shared...
Different issues, personal stories, you got to know my family and friends, I was able to share my point of views, my dreams and frustrations, heartaches and pains, inspirations and goals...

You have seen how I evolved from being a curious blogger who Keep Discovering this blogosphere -- until I totally revived my passion in writing -- up to this moment that this page was now being used not to my self-fulfillment but to give glory to Him who gave me all the knowledge and wisdom.

After 2 years and 199 articles...
This site has helped me grow not just as a blogger but as a servant of God. Despite the Temptation. Decision. Revelation. He has revealed to me many things as I tried to fill in the spaces of this page.

From knowing the difference of joy and happiness... to realizing that pains are also blessings...He is Faithful.

The Prayer Power... I Understand that worry is nothing because He is everything...

There are discoveries about myself ... Do I Know Me? who I really am? It feels really great knowing that He knows me more than anybody else...

As time passed by, He continuously reveals to us what life really means --We are Born Free...

Being a Christ-ian... is not how rich or how powerful we are; its not a measure of success and achievements; neither the number of friends and people who loves us... its not about what we are in this world, but who we are in His eyes...

And though we are not perfect and we constantly commit mistakes, we are given chances in every turn...
Sun sets, then moon appears... and as the night ends, the sun will rise again.

More stories to share... more lives to touch...
All for the glory of our Almighty God.

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¹⁶I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, ¹⁷so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, ¹⁸may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, ¹⁹and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

-Ephesians 3:16-19

Bye Bye Love

2010-09-26T15:38:00.003+04:00

I believed when u said that we'll see each other in the right time...
And that someday our path will cross again.

Summer ended and cool wind is here
Embracing me on this cold and lonely evening
Somehow I am wishing that you're here beside me
And we are praying together that God will bless us endlessly.

Will it be real or is it just me --
Who prays that us will forever be happy?
Will I hold on or forget you totally?
I'm losing hope though I know I shouldn't be.

Few more months, and that's all I have...
Through the years that I was prisoner by your love.
Maybe or maybe not, but I guess I'm giving up
I cannot hold on forever to this thing that I call love.

Star Light, Star Bright

2010-09-23T00:35:00.001+04:00

The cool breeze is here again...
Summer of 2010 will soon be over; an unforgettable one for me, the best summer I had here in M.E.

Being excited for winter, I decided to take a walk along Buhaira corniche tonight.
And yes, its almost winter!

While walking, happy times with nanay and tatay flashed back.
Our conversations... the never ending stories... corny and some funny jokes... their laughter... everything...

I sat on this same bench where we rested before...

Those precious times that will forever give joy in my heart.

I miss them sooo much, but their love is enough for me not to feel alone.

As I am writing this, sitting on this bench, I looked up the bright sky -- I just noticed that its full moon!!!
And as the moon gives light to the dark night, there's this one star that twinkles near to it.

The only star visible in the sky tonight...
Together with the moon, it shines so bright -- just like the happy days that makes me smile on such gloomy night.

We may be in the darkest hours of life, but God will never allow us to stumble...
He gave us the Light so we can move out of darkness and have the fullness of life.

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said,

"I am the Light ofthe world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."

John 8:12

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A for Effort

2010-09-16T15:31:00.001+04:00

Few days back, I wasn't sure if I was just experiencing another 'holiday hang-over' -- but that was not the first time that I felt bored at work... it's all over my head and I felt that I do not want to create another job nor talk to anyone regarding work again.

I missed the thrill... the excitement in coming to the office everyday.
Everything seems monotonous... numbers and computation irritates me... not to mention some people who I felt were insatiable and so insensitive. I know it was alarming -- because I started to hate my job :(

I somehow felt depressed... but I have to drag myself to go to work. There are days when I will just sit and stumble at the net, replying only to urgent matters... the rest of the jobs... I just ignore them. My self-esteem was so low... thinking that this is not the job for me...

Everything changed after one phone conversation that I had with my Ninang.

Actually it felt weird that time because she asked me several times about my work... I think until the 3rd time, I said that everything was OK. Then in the middle of another topic, she again asked how my work is... then I opened up.

I requested for her to pray for me because I want to look for another job. I told her what I feel and the boredom started to kill me here... she understood me, she knew that I am not an office person who can just sit and do computations... I came from media working with 3-4 TV shows... and I really missed the action.

Then she asked me where it was coming from; do I want an increase or a promotion? I quickly replied NO. Because its not what I really wanted... and what is it, I still am not aware.
Am I on the crossroad again? I really do not know...

I told her how lazy I am in doing my duties... well, not that I do not work at all, but I really did not put even an inch of effort to make things better. One job request - one result. You can get what you want, no more, no less.

Ninang reminded me that I should give my best in all that I do... then I told her that I don't want to waste my time and energy since I am 'hoping' to move somewhere...

She told me that I should remember that it is God who placed me here... and I should return the favor to Him by doing good in the position that He entrusted on me. In everything that I do, it is Him that should be glorified. Even on the smallest job to be done, I must remember that it is for Him.

Another thing is the legacy... in case that God will send me to another company, it would be better that they will remember me and my performance on an excellent mark.

Every person will leave a legacy... and its up to us whether we want it good or bad -- but it is in our hands. We have a choice and we must work on whatever legacy we will leave.

In TV, we usually say - 'You are as good as your last show.' Because that last show will be the one people will always remember... that final performance before we sign off...

Ninang also shared some of her experiences before the phone line was cut...

While I was listening to her, something inside me was awakened. My love for work and the day that I first stepped in this office flashed back. I remember how grateful I was to be part of the largest advertising company in the region - handling one of the biggest brands in the world. What else can I ask for? :(

After our conversation, I took a cup of coffee... and once again, started to walk along the corridors, absorbing Ninang's words. As I reached my desk, I whispered a prayer of gratitude...

Today, I know I am still not at my best... but I have improved -- and I deserve an A for the effort... :)

I do not drag myself to work every morning... and as the sun sets, I know it was a better day...

It is God to whom and with whom we travel, and while He is at the end of our journey,

He is also at every stopping place.

-Elisabeth Elliot

I Saw The Signs...

2010-09-05T21:31:00.001+04:00

...but I rejected it.

How many times do we need to ask for it?
And how many confirmations do we need for us to believe?

As human beings, we always want to be 101% sure in every step that we'll take.
We need a guarantee that this will turn out the way we wanted it to be.
An assurance that we are on the right track...

Hence, because of that, we tend to limit our capacity.
By playing safe, we are not able to maximize our potentials... and not giving our best in things that we do often results to frustrations.

People usually asks for signs... as we pray for His will to happen, we also have some of do-it-our-way requests. Though we always say, Thy will be done... but on the contrary, there are these "our will be done" -- and please give us this sign if You agree.

'Lord, whoever will be the first to sit on the 3rd row will be 'the one' for me...' or ' Father, the company which will offer this amount is the company where You want me to be...'

We all have whispered such 'wishes'... hoping that it will be granted...

But what if the first person who sits on the 3rd row is married? Or what if you got the offer but then, the company/management is not that good at all, will you take the job?
What if the first person who sits is your friends' enemy? Or the company you desires offered less?

I guess, 97% of us will ask for another sign...
Agree?

More signs until our "prayers will be answered."
and until when? -- No one can tell.

In reality, do we really have to ask for signs?

Do we need to be reassured that God is giving us the correct answer to our prayers?
Do we really have to direct Him on how He shall respond to us?

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask, anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us - whatever we ask - we know that we have what we asked of Him. -1 John 5:14-15

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. - Hebrews 11:1

Isn't it comforting to know that the God who guides us sees tomorrow more clearly and gives directions more accurately that we can ever imagine?

Wrap Up

2010-08-31T15:26:00.010+04:00

Have you noticed how quick August passed?
Today is the last for this month, while the rest were history.

Personally, this month was somehow memorable to me.
Being with my Nanay and Tatay until the10th day made it extra special. Happiness Overload! Every second was so valuable; as my tita said, it's priceless...

The 11th was the start of Ramadan, and since I am in a Muslim country and most of people are fasting, it is a general rule that the working hours were shortened from 8 to 6 :-) Aside from the 2 hours extra, work load was near to nothing... there were only few jobs to be done on this season...

But in contrast to this, our clients are staying in our office since the 15th... and that is a lot harder than having a normal work load!!! And the hardest part is to pretend in front of them, that we're busy ;-)

Have you read my write up about the tragic hostage taking drama or the major major accomplishment of Ms. Venus Raj? A week had passed. I have some opinions to share of course, regarding the 2 issues but I personally chose to keep for (supposedly) a short time only. I planned to delay my posting for at least 3 days. Just so I can have a better point of view.

Now, its been a week. The issue will soon be gone. We already read many posts about those... would you still bother to read if I say my piece regarding that today?

That was a 'major major' record in history and I missed writing about it.

In reality, I had a lot of extra hours for myself...
which, I think were wasted... :-(
Now, I just realized that this post is only my 5th for the month, compared to other 'busy months.'

This happens when we rely on tomorrow. Admittedly, I was "over relaxed" and I enjoyed the "petics mode" so much, that I tend to miss many important things that I should have done.

Admittedly, there are regrets... that is the saddest :(
I regret the stumbling moments on the net... hours of farming in Farm Town... power naps that turned to long hours of sleep... watching movies that I've seen 100x already... those times that should be spent in more fruitful means.

Rule Nine from Og Mandino: Seventeen Rules to Live By
Live this day as if it will be your last. Remember that you will only find tomorrow on the calendars of fools. Forget yesterday's defeats and ignore the problems of tomorrow. This is it. Doomsday. All you have. Make it the best day of your year. The saddest words you can ever utter are, "If I had my life to live over again... " Take the baton, now. Run with it! This is your day!

It may be embarrassing to say but, yes, I feel that "If only I can bring back even just the last week of this month..." It would be better. I should have accomplished more... If only...

But I was too late... remember, What if no what ifs?

Days passed and I only have today and the lessons of yesterday.
It's my mistake... and don't follow me... :(
Make your moment worthy.
Today is the day.

---
PS. Special thanks to my proof reader, Non :-)

Unbonded

2010-08-23T15:47:00.004+04:00

I'm intact... or just 'I thought' I was?

It's the 12th day of Ramadan...
the silence and boredom here in the office is killing me!
it should be fun... less work load and less working hours.
plus the benefit of still eating during break (hidden of course) just makes it greater...
and what could be the best than not having a boss at all :)

but then, again... I miss the stress.
I miss cramming.
I miss the last minute and 'wait for a minute' call to the service driver informing him that 'Hey, I'm coming!'
I miss the 'OK, well take the 2nd trip... I still have to finish something...'
and I miss the "wattaday' scene here in the office...

its OK to miss those, right? just for sometime.
but I don't say that I want them back... :-)

though i just realized that my workaholic attitude is still with me.
I observed it... I am trying to analyze myself... am I a 'just hyper' or an 'OC' or a really 'workaholic'?

I prefer the 3rd one... I am, self admittedly, indeed... a workaddict!

Honestly, I just cant stop.
I prefer making myself busy with something... anything... just to do a thing!

Few days back, I have started creating a new post here in KALI...
but just as relax as the office mood... my mind was enjoying the petics mode.
can't think of anything to write.... I have started few, but it just dont fit in.

I know there is something wrong... something is missing.
There is lot more than just work and rest. And I miss those in betweens...
I saw myself in a limbo... struggling in the dark...
I suddenly felt weak and incomplete.

More than the stress, there are some greater things that are missing...

Unfortunately, I have skipped attending our Friday service several times. Due to some "unavoidable circumstances :-) " and I also missed out some of our Thursday BS....

It was sad and frustrating... those unavoidable circumstances should've been avoided...
Just as I thought that I was bonded... I then realized that I was not.

I remember our previous discussion in Bible study...
HE is the bread of life; and we are fed by this through His words; through the fellowship.
Then I realized, I was sick, not physically, but Spiritually.
I lack vitamins... in just few days of not reading, I became too weak and sick...

Then, last night, I started to knock at the door of my heart... seek whether He is still there...
In silence, I found Him, waiting for me.

I know He missed me more than I missed Him.

Now, as in Now... things seems to be filing in order again.
Unconsciously, I just finished this post...
And with total truth, I can say that I am feeling a lot better than few hours back.
I am fine... I feel well... no more boredom :-)
I am finally back!!!

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so you can stand up under it." -1 Corinthians 10:13

Ramadan Kareem!

2010-08-11T15:55:00.002+04:00

Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان ) is the ninth month of the Islamic calendar.

The word Ramadan comes originally from the word ramd "to burn". The month is spent by Muslims fasting during the daylight hours from dawn to sunset. The name came from before the Islamic calendar creation, when the month of Ramadan started in the summer. Fasting during this month is often thought to symbolically burn away all sins.

Note: The symbol of Ramadan is the new moon which is sighted before Muslims start fasting, astrologically this year, Ramadan should be starting on Wednesday, however, Tuesday astrologers will look for the new moon incase it appears earlier.

Ramadan is the month of charity and generosity; it is about giving the poor and the needy, by offering one's time, efforts and donations.

HAPPY RAMADAN!!!

What are you wearing today?

2010-08-08T17:20:00.003+04:00

When was the last time you visited the mall?
Have you seen the lastest collection from your favorite boutique, or you already had one?

Red tags and signages are all around the malls here in Dubai as the end of the Dubai Shopping Festival... finishing all the stocks before the launching of the new collection...

In the fancy world where I move, with the walking manequins that I can see everyday with the most expensive bags and shoes that they wear... it makes me think whether these people get satisfied ever, with what they have?

Here in the office, while walking along corridor, some people will look at you as if they are security officer checking whether you have bombs under your shirt... or as if they are computing your 'value' for what you have, from head to foot.

And with this set up, admittedly, it makes me feel inconfident sometimes... thinking that I should have something too, just to meet up with what was 'in' in our world... and at times, to feel competent and secure (esp. in their eyes).

As human being, that is one of the weaknesses that is so difficult to resists - being conscious with how people look at you. Being so sensitive to what they will say about you and what do they think of you as a person.
We tend to project... and sometimes, to pretend that we are somebody... act as if we are one of them...

We are cautious not just with our looks, but on how we act, to avoid negative things that they can say about us... We tend to like the scent that they wear or love the music that they play... even if it causes us headache! just so we can be with the trend...

But are we really are in the same level? Do we really need to level with the standards of the people around you? Why do people tend to measure what others have?

There are these people who keeps to on bragging about things that they acquire, and sometimes, even if they still don't have it... they tend to elevate theirselves, telling who they are and what they do. People who look down on other people and keep on praising theirselves alone.

Does what you have and who you are in society and what you do in the company really matters in this life?
Are we being measured through our bank accounts and number of our twitter followers? Is being a receptionist really afar from the managing director?

Riches can be counted not by how much you take but by how much you are willing to give...
It is not how many friends you have but its how deep your friendship are...
Hierachy of job role is not measured just by the position, but by the work done and how it heps improve one's life...

There is no measurement for who are rich or poor... no one can point who are in or out...
In this fancy world where we are living, material things corrupted the minds and hardened the heart of the people. We tend to judge what is good and not, according to our standards... we set the level and categories of people... we classify them, according to 'what' they have.

But in reality, and in what it should be... all are equal.
No one is greater than the other, in the same thing that no one is below another one...

We are equally created, equally loved, equally blessed.
The difference is how we count and value the blessings that we have.

The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. - 1 Samuel 16:7

Flydragon Flies

2010-08-04T16:41:00.004+04:00

In our journey, there are these strangers that will somehow leave an impact in our lives...
People whom we do not know personally, yet touched our hearts even in very simple way.

Flydragon is one of my first few followers here in my blog.
She has inspired me with A little of this... A little of that
Reading her daily adventure makes blogging more fun and exciting with her witty stories... I looked forward to her posts, the birds and the flowers... her comments and once in a while hi and hello!

When I asked her why Flydragon...
Its simply because she love dragons and she wanted to fly.
At first I thought she is just as my age, or atleast near to mine... more or less!
But through her blogs, I understand that she is almost like my mother who also have her FDs (Favorite Daughters).

Just recently, I suddenly missed her comments and posts... the pictures of her bird feeders and beautiful flowers. Then I realized that its been monthsss of silence from her site. No updates at all.
Our last exchange of comments was September of 2009, it's almost a year...

As I dropped by her site... I was shocked upon reading the last 3 blogs, written by her FDs. After being in the hospice for some time (where she wrote her last post), until she finally flew - December of 2009...

Along with the FDs' posts are some of her photos... after 2 years of exchanging blogs, the face of the dragon was revealed. :) I wonder what was her reaction after seeing that post from FD#2...

Upon looking at those, I felt this connection with this lady, who has given me encouragement not just in writing and photography but in pursuing my passions in life. Luckily, I know I was able to thank her many times for the inspiration that she gave through our exchange of comments...

She has been a friend who has always been updated with what's going on with me, through my blogs... and vice versa. And now, knowing that I will never read another little of this and little of that by Flydragon makes me sad... :( But losing a friend that appreciates what you do is harder...
I know that she is now flying in heaven...
And I wil never ever forget that one day, a dragon that flies pass by these pages of my life.

Happiness Overload!!!

2010-07-25T01:41:00.009+04:00

It's 1AM.

I am so awake.

And sooo happy.

It's been 9 days since my parents arrived for vacation here in the UAE...

Cloud 9 for me and my brother. Every minute was so precious, so memorable...

I just can't shout loud enough to tell you how happy I am now.

This is their first travel out of the country.

A dream come true...

The happiness was really overloaded.
Our hearts were shouting for joy.
Giving thanks and praise to our Lord God who made this possible.

Indeed, He is an awesome God.
He fulfilled His promises to those who believe...

Nanay celebrated her 69th birthday few days ago...
She never thought that it will happen here... never.
After 69 years of her life, she was able to step outside the country.

Tatay once said, his lifespan might only be until 60... (that was after he had diabetes)
2 years ago... the complication was already in his heart... but with God's grace, few months back, the doctor said his heart was already in good condition...
He is also 69... and for the first time, he was able to view the sun from this side of the planet.

"As it is written, "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him." -1 Corinthians 2:9

To God be the glory!

Meeting My Momay

2010-07-13T16:31:00.002+04:00

Oh my... Momay! :)

FYI: Momay is Philippine TV's version of Casper.

Every night when I reach home, she hugs me tight...

Yes! and that keeps all my hair up until midnight!

When I kiss our babies, Macs, Tiqueng, Riqqa and Dyoni, I am aware of her sweet kisses too...

I can feel her presence somewhere in our little home that is "only for two".

Admittedly... I am afraid of ghost! For the reason that they are GHOSTS!!! and who is not, by the way?

I don't know if they really exist...

But I had few encounters with them. I am aware that 'its them' or 'they're it'...

Recently, I shared with you my drama of being HOME alone but not lonely...

I can actually give an excellent grade for myself because I know that I have achieved my goal... Until now, this experience is teaching me a lot and I am enjoying it, everyday... I am growing... :)

Back to Momay...

Well, its not the first time that I had goose bumps at home. Its part of everyday encounter with Momay. But there is this one remarkable night that I really cannot explain...

That was Friday night, and my friend stayed at home to keep me company...

After our story telling cum secrets sharing ;-) ... she went to bed first while I did my usual 'rituals' before sleeping.

When I am about to lie down... my heart beats fast. I was so terrified... afraid... tensed... or nervous... I really can't explain... but it beats faster and faster...

Then I prayed. I read Bible. I closed my eyes... but I just cant sleep. I was frightened... for reasons that I am not aware of.

Among all the nights, why during that time?

I should felt that on nights when I was alone, but not when somebody was there, because I should be more comfortable...

Lying down, there was this cold 'momay 'air, as if touching my face and my hands even if its inside the quilt. She was troubled... and she bothers me too! But I know she's not the cause of my 'palpitation', there's more than that... and I do not know what is that!!!

Going to toilet which is just few steps away seems like going to a morgue or entering a haunted house... I was terribly afraid that I turned on all the lights... It felt so weird, but I can't help it...

When I fell asleep, I saw the actual scenario in my dreams as if it was sooo real; I saw myself at home, frightened... and trying to overcome the fear...

Then, I saw myself struggling as I cast an 'evil spirit' away with Bible on my hand... I was pushing 'it' out from my home. I kept on praying during that battle.

It is not the first time that I dreamt about fighting with "evil" but its been a long time that I haven't... and for some reasons, it's back!

Then I woke up... I sat and pray and pray. I opened my Bible... it was somewhere in Jeremiah, I read a whole chapter, about Israel and the command that says 'Sing praises to the Lord.'

Then I prayed and I realized that my IPod is off. Praise and worship song is my security blanket (since I was home alone) and I didn't use it that night thinking that my friend was there beside me...

When I turned it on... I suddenly felt relieved... as I lie down listening to the song and praises, I felt Momay embraced me again. Then I fell asleep.

In the morning (or rather, afternoon), I asked my friend whether she had a good sleep... she told me that she felt something strange...

Then, she left and I was again, home alone.

But that night, there's no more 'palpitation'... it's not frightening anymore... if there's any negative feeling that I had, it was worry... I had the fear that the same thing might happen again...

I switched on the speaker for IPod, sat on my bed, read Bible and pray. While praying, I can feel that Momay hugged me again. She was all over me...

Since my eyes were closed, I can feel Momay and when I can almost see 'her' face to face... I will open my eyes ;-)

Then, I will fall asleep while praying or singing praise and worship.

And that's what always happened... except for that one night...

I do not know why... but maybe, my Momay also needs the praise and worship songs... ?

Maybe that night, we're both troubled because I rely on my friend that would keep me company, instead of the prayer and worship songs that gives continuous praises to our Lord.

I had faced my fears again... in my dreams, as I wrestled with that 'evil spirit', as I cast him out from my place. I realized that during that battle, my friend is still in deep sleep... and the ONLY ONE who is with me on the picture is my Bible... I don't scream for any help, but prayers.

And I think, that is the greatest lesson that I learned in this course of being home alone... or in any other circumstances in life...

No matter where am I or who am I with... the only thing that will help me survive is Him. No more, No Less.

Oh, and my Momay?

She is the angel that keeps me company. She still bothers me at night when the IPod playlist are all done. And I just have to click the play again... so the angels can sing me lullaby...

Born Free

2010-07-07T15:32:00.002+04:00

Have you ever doubted His might and power?
Have you ever felt that He is deaf, and not hearing your prayers?
Do you feel tired waiting for miracles to happen?
Or did you gave up that faith and let go of His promises?

Not all the time, life is easy
Each of us has our own misery...
Today the sun smiles and you may feel lucky
Yet tomorrow is cloudy and you might not be happy.

We cried out in prayers, asking for help
Or we jumped for happiness, for the blessings that we have
Everyone has his own burden, a trial to resolve
And the gifts also differ, depending on what our life needs to hold.

Never think that you have less and your brothers have more
Neither say that you are better than the rest of them all.
We all have a cross that we need to carry on
A little sacrifice to help Him, and share to bring on the yoke.

I read this question about life and reality
Is it by chance or is it by destiny?

We are destined, our life were well planned
As He created us, with all the beautiful things around
Yet the gift of choice is in our hand
The 'free will' to choose between good and bad.

Whatever is happening in your vessel of life
You may sail smoothly or you may be sinking fast
It is within the choice that you made
And the result will vary on the faith that you have.

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness.
He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
-2 Peter 3:9

Christ-ian

2010-07-04T12:54:00.006+04:00

In the word Christian, what will happen if we remove CHRIST?
I-A-N was left...

I
Am
Nothing

Again, this is stock knowledge, something that I learned during grade school...
Yet from then on, it was glued on my mind... a post-it reminder that keeps echoing in my memory.

Without Christ, I Am Nothing.

To be a Christian... all we need is Christ.
This very simple fact has always been the missing link to connect other 'Christians' to reality... we tend to make things complicated... tried hard to do what 'we think' will save us and will make us worthy of His grace.

We may have done the greatest act of charity... donated millions... save people's lives... send many kids to school... serve country with all honesty... sacrificed your personal happiness for others... even gave your life to someone else...

Yet, its nothing, unless we accept Christ.

"8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves. it is the gift of God - 9 not by works, so that no one can boast." -Ephesians 2:8-9

Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." -John 14:6

Simple words... but we tend to exaggerate.

But this is what Christianity is all about: Christ.
The rest will follow if we accept Christ in our lives and make Him the reason for living; the very purpose of our existence.

5 Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test? 6 And I trust that you will discover that we have not failed the test. - 2 Corinthians 13:5-6

Try the test... lets examine ourselves...

Many of us have tried hard to be fulfilled... whether in our career or family...
We work hard to satisfy ourselves with many accomplishments...
We have reached our peak yet still, we were never contented...
Hungry for more... looking for far greater things that we thought we can achieve...

But we cannot. Man's satisfaction is just an illusion...
Unless we accept the Only One who can make us complete.

...because to Him, we are everything.

Yellow Light Is On...

2010-06-30T15:58:00.002+04:00

"Today marks the end of a regime indifferent to the appeals of the people. It is not Noynoy who found a way. You are the reason why the silent suffering of the nation is about to end. This is the beginning of my burden, but if many of us will bear the cross, we will lift it, no matter how heavy it is." -excerpt from Noy's Inaugural Address

Once again, it is the voice of the people that was heard all over the country; and this time, it didn't happen in Edsa...
As the first ever automated election happened in the Philippines, all ballots were canvassed... there might be some lapses, but the votes were counted.
And today's inauguration marks the beginning of a better Philippines.

As P'Noy said, "You are the reason why the silent suffering of the nation is about to end."

People unites again...

One in prayer... One in hope that the country will recover.

Indeed, Noynoy's time was the hardest transition in the history, as he inherited the worst situation in the country. And all eyes will be on him...

Hopefully, people won't just watch him but will join him in rebuilding our nation.
There is still hope... we just have to stand again...

And the change that we all wanted does not only rely on the hands of P'Noy... because it is us that will make this country move forward... it is in every Filipino people.
We have to start within us... within the family... within the community...

It should start within ourselves...

"I will not be able to face my parents and you who have brought me here if do not fulfill the promises I made.
My parents sought nothing less, died for nothing less, than democracy and peace. I am blessed by this legacy. I shall carry the torch forward." - P'Noy

May we adapt the same value that our leader has for his family... for his parents...
For if we all want our parents to be proud of us... can you imagine how peaceful our country will be? How successful each of us may be?
If we are parents who wanted to leave a good legacy to our kids... will there ever a domestic violence again?

The success of a country relies on its people.
"...if many of us will bear the cross, we will lift it, no matter how heavy it is." -P'Noy

Now, the Yellow light is on...
It doesn't mean Go or Stop...
but simply a warning; a signal to mellow down; to be ready...

Because change is coming and we all have to prepare...

HOME ALONE but not lonely...

2010-06-27T16:05:00.054+04:00

Let me borrow that famous line...

One of my many fears that I am trying to overcome is to be home alone.

Yes. At 30, I still can't sleep alone...
I have strong imagination... Tik-Tak of clock is like a musical scoring in a horror movie... Darkness is like thick clouds where ghosts hide, and in a snap, they will run (or maybe float) towards me. My feet should be covered; otherwise, something or someone will pull me through my feet and bring me under the bed!!!
I am sooo afraid of ghost!
Aside from sleeping, another dilemma is that I don't know how to cook.
I can fry. I can saute...but then what's next? :-)

And just, the thought of being alone really bothers me....

But as I said... I am trying to treat this apprehension.
And I am on my 10th day, and still counting.

I must admit that I am having difficult time... but I do enjoy the experience.
Conditioning my mind to sleep... Talking and convincing myself that I am not afraid anymore... Slowly turning off lights... and testing the music whether the volume is too low or too loud... Closing my eyes and keeping it close even if I am still sooo awake!
There are nights that I keep changing my sleeping position for 30 mins...
Nights when there are too many crazy ideas that goes into my mind... illusions and imaginations!
And there's this pattern of waking up at 3AM that scares me every time but the only thing to do is to close my eyes again...

Those are the things that I dealt with, every night...
And somehow, I can say that I am starting to conquer these fears.
My heart still beats fast, every time I turn off the lights and I still have to roll around the bed for several times to feel the best sleeping position...

But I've improved, a lot!
And going 'solo flight' has thought me a lot already.
Not just in sleeping... cooking... and NOT talking... but there are more.

Being alone made me realize that I can also do things that I don't do before (because there's someone who will do it) like house keeping, fridge/food monitoring (what's in there and what's needed / which to consume first... etc) and choosing clothes to wear (since I live with 'fashionista', she's the one who mix n match my office clothes). I really fell like a grown up now... finally :-)

And aside from all many discoveries and new task that I can do...

I know that my faith is being tested at these moments...

In the dark night with my wild imaginations, I might die in fear if I do not trust our Lord.
As I pray on my knees, I know that He is there, listening. I can feel His embrace in the cold night....
And in the midst of silence, I can feel that He speaks to me... telling me that I don't have to worry because He is there with many angels watching over me.

I don't feel alone... neither felt lonely...
But I am grateful for this opportunity, because at these time that no one is with me...
His most valuable presence embraces me.

Tatay's Girl

2010-06-20T16:46:00.002+04:00

I am my Tatay's favorite...
Being the youngest and the only girl, I am the only Tatay's girl!

I am my father's daughter... more than my mother's. My traits are from him.
Aside from the birthmark, there are a lot of my tatay's personalities that I can see in me.
As time passed by, I realized and recognized our similarities...

During first meeting, you will find us snob or quiet or shy :) (really!)
We do not usually join the crowd and chose to stay on small groups.
Our friends are few... yet they are all true. I've seen his peers since I was a kid, and I can see the same set of friends until now. And I hope mine too will last a lifetime like his.

Next is our wit.
He always smiles and makes us laugh. He's a joker. And as I was growing up, I became his side kick... we exchange punch lines! And now that I'm a grown up and he is older, I took the lead, and he is my back up. We love to irritate my nanay with our jokes... We both love to laugh.

We have the same tongue and stomach.
We love eating same types of food, yet he always asks me to eat first and took only what's left from me...

Our patience is long... and our pride is deep.
We seldom get angry and we just keep quiet when we're offended.
I never saw my parents fighting... not that I remember. I know that there are misunderstandings and petty quarrels, but I never heard any arguments. I know my tatay so well. If he is mad, he won't speak to you, until he is ok.

We live by the day...
At first, I took it negatively that he seems to be contented in what we have then... thought that he doesn't dreamt more and just satisfied with what was there... until such time that I was on the same shoes.
Then I understand that it's not that he didn't dream big at all but his dreams for us are bigger that he sacrificed his own. Our lives are his dreams... and he made every single day of it happy as happy as it could.

Making this post is like revealing a part of my personality...
I should stop now to keep some mystery :)

But I want to shout to the whole world that...
I am grateful, I am so proud, I am happy and I am blessed being my Tatay's daughter...

The Value of Sharing

2010-06-14T17:01:00.002+04:00

Life is not about having and getting...
but being and becoming.

Familiar? Because it's in my profile :)
That is one of my favorite quotations...
It applies to me and my vision of what life really is.

Aside from being passionate in writing and photography, I am here to share God's faithfulness in my life, on the people around me and in the world where I belong...

I am not a perfect example of what a Christian should be...
But my God is perfect. That is what I want to share.
And that is what we all need to attest...

One friend told me her feelings towards giving testimonies at the time when she still attended a Christian fellowship... that is the portion of the program/activity that she wants to avoid, she felt uncomfortable in sharing her life story...
And she said that maybe, its because of she's still young then and lacking self confidence...

Or I can say that maybe, during 'her' time, the importance of testimonies wasn't explained enough that she didn't understand why it is necessary.

In our church (Phils.), giving testimonies is part of our Sunday service. And weekly, I heard people sharing how great our God is...
I remember being so naive before, not understanding what was happening around...
I found it so odd, that people are crying in front of the church... thanking God but crying at the same time.
There are some who I thought were so proud with their new businesses or new investments or careers...
Others have sick relatives and family members that were in trouble... but still, they were shouting Hallelujah!

Honestly, I thought they were OA then!
Yup... I did :-)

It took me some time before I understand why 'they' do that...
or rather...
I needed to have deeper relationship with Him, wider knowledge about Him, and strong faith in Him before I fully understand why people have to stand there in front, crying while saying their pieces and thanking the Lord...

And maybe, many finds me OA these days, too :-)

We always say, 'count your blessings...'
But after counting, what are we supposed to do?

In our weaknesses, others' may find their strength...
And where we failed, others may succeed.

For me, Christian living is like living in a fantasy world... each day is another miracle... never ending blessings... unlimited happiness and overwhelming joy...
Trials are there, but it won't bring me down... instead, it will draw me closer to Him.

And that wonderful Christian life experience shouldn't be a secret...
We should say it and share it and be proud of it.

In your hearts, set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.
1 Peter 3:15

Let your stories be heard...
Let others be inspired, not of what you have but who you've become through the grace of God.

Now On Lane 3

2010-06-08T15:41:00.005+04:00

I just hit the big 30!

Yup... just recently :)

And I had the best party ever!!!

I had 3 cakes... 3 candles... 3 wishes...
It was celebrated with 3 different set of friends (early morning, lunch and dinner)...
It was also my 3rd birthday here in Dubai, and my 3rd birthday celebration away from home...

And I had 3 first time on that day...
Let me share with you those 3s... (briefly)

First is the 'alcohol free' yet very fun party!

I am trying to recall when was my last party without alcohol... maybe when I was in highschool?
Maybe...
And for the past years or hmmmm... decade of celebrations, I thought that it is impossible to enjoy a party without a beer!!!

On that day, I knew what it takes to be really happy... I learned that laughter comes from the heart and not from the mind corrupted by alcohol... and party is enjoyed most with special people whom you love...

Second on that three is the experience of the so called 'tribute' to the celebrator.

The feeling was overwhelming, as my new found family shared their thoughts about me... and offered verses that will be my guide towards the next chapter of my journey.

Through that, I was able to reflect... I am thankful to all the kind words they said about me... (thank God for the food, they were not hungry and angry ;-)

During that time, memories flashed back... Good and not so good memories that molded me to become who I am today. Years of struggles... Moments of success... Failures and achievements...

Trials that tested my faith and proved God's love and faithfulness... my ride was never easy, but it has always been safe and happy, having Him beside me.

Third but never the least is the total happiness that I felt on that day...
It was so so different... I felt the love not just by the people but most of all by God.

It is the first time that I didn't cry on a special occasion...
Of course, I missed my family who are not beside me physically... but the distance was never a hindrance for me to feel their love...
I longed to be with my relatives who always supported me and my friends who sailed with me all the way...

I missed them... but it won't be reason not to be happy.
We may not be together but I was embraced by their love...

God works mightily... He filled up those empty spaces...
He completes me...

On that day, a new chapter of my life started...
I'm done with rough slow lane 1... moved to curve fast lane 2...

Now, I am on straight lane 3 :)
Focused on every step together with our Almighty.

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Let me share 3 of the many verses that I received on that day...

Ephesians 3:17-19
I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

2 Peter 3:18
But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Goodbye, May

2010-05-31T10:56:00.001+04:00

As the sun goes down, the day ends, the month closes...

Today marks the last day of May.
What seems to be the busiest month (so far) for me.

There are many shocking incidents and important events that happened in the past 31 days.
In Philippines, a new set of government officials were elected. We are now waiting for the proclamation for the President and Vice... God bless the Philippines!
Two planes crashed... one in Philippines, one in India where 158 people died ... and week after was a train accident in India as well.

And as I mentioned, it has been the busiest month (so far) for me...
My weekends were fully booked with different activities... birthdays, church events, shopping and other 'extra curricular activities'... to the extent that schedules were overlapping!

Also, I had tons of work recently... our the campaign for the coming World Cup.
Numbers are all around me... payables, quotations... hayyys!
I was stressed with a lot of things at work... felt disappointed and sometimes, bored in doing the same stuff...

Others, may have enjoyed... maybe? But I cannot relate... :)

We may have different experiences on this month...
Yet, today is the last day... and do you realize how fast this month passed?

And after all the difficulties that each day brought... all the pain that was left by the accidents... and our own personal frustrations...

With all these things that weren’t happy at all, we are saying goodbye.

It's about time to turn the page of the calendar and move forward to June with hope that things will get better...

In Manila, summer is over... the heat of El Niño is about to end. Hello rain, Hello water... hopefully, lesser floods on the streets.

Here in Dubai and in other countries, school classes are about to end …Hello vacation, Hello holiday! Yet, it is the start of summer! The 'heat' is on!!!

Now, we are giving June a warm welcome... let's start this month with a positive spirit that there will be greater, happier and brighter days ahead :)

Home, Forever...

2010-05-24T09:55:00.004+04:00

In the plane crash in India that killed 158 people, one of them is our former colleague, Jayaram Kotian.

(photo from Gulfnews)

Supposedly, Jayaram and his family are on their way home... to start another chapter of their life. He flew to India together with his wife and his 4 year old son... going home for good. He just resigned here in the agency and accepted a new job in his homeland.

After that flight should be the beginning of the fulfillment of his dreams... just like any other overseas workers, who wished to go back home for good.

But their beginning was the end... and so with the rest of 158 passengers, who have their own stories on that flight...

As the agency talks and remember Jayaram, questions were raised: What if he didn't receive another offer at home, will it still happen? If he choose to stay, will his kid still be playing at home with his mother?

On my many blog posts about tomorrow... chapter endings and closing doors, we have put a Period on wondering about the future... we have understood that some good things never lasts... and that we all have to move Forward, March!

But such incident makes us wonder why such a happy situation ends with tragedy?

Prior to this post was crashed - another air accident that happened in Manila wherein I also knew one of the passengers...
These stories of death of two different people who both have planned their lives and future well yet ended in a tragedy has left us with lessons about life and living.

-The fact the LIFE is SHORT remained constant and that no matter how much we complain about this long and sometimes, difficult journey of life... time will never be enough.

-We'll never know what will happen tomorrow, in as much as we have concreate plans and clear visions for the next day; we can never tell until we wake up the next day and smell the morning breeze.

-In as much as we want to secure the future, we will never be secured that we can still have this future. Retirement plans and life insurance wont give us the security. Will our beneficiary receive the pension that we invested over our lifetime with?
- Life is not about saving money and bank account but being accountable to every minutes we spent in our lifetime. It is not how many money you have counted in your hands, but how many lives your hand has touched.

- In all our ways, we have to acknowledge that we will never be enough and we need God to guide us in this travel. We have our ways, but without His blessings, it will never succeed. We have planned well enough, but God's plan will prevail...

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. - Proverbs 16:9
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. - Proverbs 19:21

As human being, we all have our goals in life. We all have build our dreams and we are all determined to achieve it. What differs is how we manage our time, how we value that dream and what do we do to fulfill it.

Just do not forget that we still have today... before we can come to see tomorrow.
Remember that time is running very fast and we can never bring back even a second that passed.

And lastly,

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and thieves break in and steal them. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not corrupt and thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. - Matthew 6:19-20

In His time, we will all cross the border... leave what we thought was valuable and realize that there is so much more than all these material things that we need to prepare.
Jayaram and his family, were now at home... in the final destination of their journey. Our prayers are with them... May they enjoy their retirement plans prepared up there, with our Creator...finally, he is home, for good, forever.

Crashed

2010-05-17T16:24:00.005+04:00

A friend forwarded the news about the death of Gov. Raffy Nantes of Quezon Province - Philippines in a helicopter crash just few hours ago... I don't know him personally but I did one of his campaign material / AVP last 2007, when he first ran as Governor. We did his profile, and through that, I was able to have a look of his world...

I cannot remember the transcript anymore, but it is a story of "anak mahirap"; from rugs to riches, he shared his failures and success... the struggles of a shoe shine boy to a multi-million businessman and politician.

What is clear are his visions... his huge plans not just for his life but for the Quezonians...

Today was exactly a week after the election, where in the news, he did not make it in the gubernatorial race.
His political career crashed and so was his life...

Despite his money, career and power... Gov. Nantes is now a part of history.

This is a reality that we all share. Our time will also come...
And our riches won't save us from that.

1 Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. / 1 Thessalonians 5:1-2

Whether rich or poor, we may be up in the air, under the water or walking in a vast land... we can never tell. No one can choose when, where or how. Death will come to all of us and we all end up in this world as an ash.

We may have the best plans for our lives... we might have planned well for our retirement, but no one knows what tomorrow may bring. We may have worked hard for our future, but no man can really secure his own future, for it is not the basis of our existence.
20 "But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?' / Luke 12:20

A secured future doesn't vary not what you have, but on who you are to your fellowmen and to God.

From Child's Play to Mastery

2010-05-13T15:58:00.002+04:00

Everyone is invited to witness the

First Solo Piano Recital and Exhibition of Artworks of Radjan Z. Arellano

on May 26, 2010 6pm Wednesday UP Abelardo Hall Auditorium , College of Music

Guest Artists are Prof. Mary Therese Pitogo, Jimuel Pitogo, violinist , Wes Lipana, flutist and

MAKISIG MORALES

to sing the first original composition of the recitalist entitled

"THE SUN"

Admission is FREE..

So bring your family members and friends too...

but reservation is required by texting or calling 0918-9063547 / 4736559

Donations are welcome for Faith Hope and Love Assembly Music Ministry and

Kamuning Bible Christian Fellowship Building Fund

(optional /may be given on the day of the event)

Simple cocktails prepared by Tomato Bomb HQ will be served

---o0o---

God Bless the Philippines

2010-05-10T17:46:00.000+04:00

Voting is over...
The new automated election in the country pushed through despite all the negative speculations.
It wasn't 100% successful, but knowing that it it happened somehow it made a history to our country.

The people have decided and the counting begins.

Finally, the dirty campaign is over...
After all the issues and black propaganda that filled the whole country for 90 days (or more...), we are now facing the real challenge...

The canvassing of votes.
I know that it's an automatic counting, but from the past experiences, this is the stage of the actual battle... we have to be assured that every single vote is counted... and accounted to the right candidate.

Many areas are still doing manual counts... as expected. And this is where the fear of the people arises.
As the machine fails, we are all hoping that the people wont...

At this time, while we are all waiting for the final result, let's keep on praying that our Father will continuously heal our land and bless us as a nation of God.

Again and again,
God please... Bless the Philippines.

Nanay's Day Masterpiece

2010-05-09T17:18:00.003+04:00

It's almost 2 hours since I started composing this blog...
Had about 5 drafts of poems, and almost finished 1, but I was never satisfied.
I kept on praying... asking for His guidance as I write...
Several attempts of creating the best piece for Nanay... but I just cant.

Then I stood up, took my cup and made coffee...
I kept squeezing my brain as I walk along the hallway, hoping that some great idea will pop out;
While waiting for the water to boil, I embraced the silence, took a deep breath and listen to what my heart says...

Then I realized that in as much as I wanted to compose a masterpiece for Nanay's day,
It will never happen.

The greatest gift that my heart desires is far beyond these words...
Not a thousand stanzas of poem or a novel about mother will fulfill my longing...
Because more than anything, I want to hug her today.

No words can express how much I love her...
And how much I am missing her...

I love you so much Nay...

and so with my other Nanays:
Ditse, Sanse, Ninang, Tita Neng, Tita Elsa, Tita Alice, Tita Ine and Mama Ric
Praise God for your lives... I love you.

Labor Pains

2010-05-04T15:19:00.001+04:00

I've seen the movie.
But this is not about giving birth...
I don't think I can write something about it nor will attempt to do one; I am not Thea and firing a pregnant woman is legal here in UAE.
Anyways, back to labor pains...
In Phils. May 1 is Labor day (I know this is 4 days overdue)...
Labor day is not being celebrated on a positive side, instead you can see big protests on streets; laborers begging for a wage increase... I haven't heard or seen any program or events that give recognition for the best employees or some inspiring activities to look forward on this National Day for Laborers.

I have 6 years experience working in Manila, before I became an OFW. I have felt these 'labor pains' too, working day and night (since I am in TV network), on call 24/7, just to received a decent pay LESS TAX and all other deductions which really kills the work force.

15-20% of what you've worked for will be counted as tax which means, about 2-4 days (sometimes overnight) was allotted to - road construction, medical services, government leaders' salary (just to name some) etc etc.

Aside from these citizen's responsibility, there are also SSS, Health Insurance and Pag-Ibig deductions, which accumulate another approx. 10% of salary.

What's left with the workers are 70-75% of their income... which again, the 20% of that was paid to VAT...

Isn't that worst than actual labor pains???

While some average employees are 'just' satisfied with what they receive, majority are underpaid.
Underpaid in the sense that the salary wont really fit to have a decent living in Manila. Everything are costly... rents, gasoline, food, commodities. That is for single like me... I wonder how parents managed to survived and bring their kids to school...

Being an OFW, I enjoyed the privilege of being 'tax-free' in UAE. I received my salary exactly the same as what is written in my contract... no more, no less! And I am 100% insured (without paying extra for HealthCare). Shopping is more exciting without VAT!!!

All the benefits were given fairly. Government funds were distributed to improve the country, from construction, transportation and services...

If only Phil. government is not corrupt and rules were implemented... We can do better than the other countries. We have the best workers in the world.

OFWs are the key employees of big companies and institutions... From receptionists to accountants, from construction workers to engineers, nursing aides to specialized doctors... We are the nannies who devote ourselves to other's child... The caregivers who give love and time to elders... The silent partners of working parents, who manage other's home and families...

I belong to these workers... we are enjoying financial stability - - - away from home. People who chose to fly outside the country to give better lives to families back home...

It is just a matter of choice. Being home, pay tax and work forever or leave for sometime, earn more, come back and start business... or leave and migrate to other country.

Embarrasing but true... many Filipinos chose the 3rd option because they can no longer see a good future in Philippines...

The upcoming May 10 Election is the make or break in Philippine government... hence, the result is not only in the hands of the people...

May our Lord God guide every Filipino in choosing the new leader and may it be a clean and honest election. God bless the Philippines!

BrATTLEFIELD

2010-04-28T11:16:00.012+04:00

In circumstances where my temper is being tested, I really feel that our God listens to my prayers...

Yesterday was a long day for me... and not so favorable on my side, unlike the recent days. Admittedly, I was affected with certain confrontation with my colleague and some people who seems to be less professional than the rest. And until now, it can't get over with it! whew!!!

From yesterday, until this very moment... I am praying for patience and understanding. I am so cautious about my temper, not because I don't want to go down to her level (-that is how I used to think) but because I want to be obedient to Him and that people will see that I am different because Christ is living in my heart. I want Him to be glorified...

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life." -Philippians 2:14-16

And this is what I always pray for... that He will continuously mold me to be righteous - to be called His child. I want to learn how to 'love thy neighbors' and to be patient... I really hope I can be somebody that He will be proud of...

This is my struggle, my constant prayer.

Currently, here in our workplace, I can really feel that He moves to grant my request. As I eagerly asked for Him to teach me how to be serene, He put me on situations that tests my faith and practice my patience.

I read this in heartlight - 'I tell you, if you are serious about wanting to be like Christ, He is going to put you in circumstances where your only choice is to become like Him.' - Francis Frangipane

And I certainly agree.

I am now in the battlefield, struggling to fight with my own personality. Dealing with bratts, including me...

Patience is better than pride...
I envy people who are patient. Those who easily forgive and forget.
I am not like them, but I am trying, and I am praying...

Period

2010-04-25T16:02:00.020+04:00

A close friend of mine wants to end her relationship... not because there is a problem with her partner nor they fall out of love... there is no third party nor any career or business crisis... no family issues either.

The simple reason is because of the thought that "relationship don't lasts"... that FOREVER won't be achieved... worries that time will come that the relationship will end.

Indeed, there are basis... knowing that some people and relationships come and go.

That there is no permanent 'thing' nor secured future that we can grasp.

It applies to all. Whether you are in relationship or wanting to be in relationship, no one is secured. We cannot guarantee tomorrow... and as I have said, Forward March! What we only have is today.

My friend is so afraid for the coming days... guarding her heart to be broken on a thought that didn't happen yet... wants to end the beautiful relationship that she have because of her fears... Breaking her heart because she is frightened to be wrecked...

In our own situations, at some point, we all have felt the same...

We have made decisions not because we want to achieve something, but because we are avoiding somethings...

We assume. We expect and we tend to forget what we have TODAY.

Like life, everything ends... death comes like a thief in the night... we don't know when, but we know it will happen.

In the right time, periods will be punctuated in our own stories... but in the bottom... we still have the whole page, the whole chapters to fill up. We should not be threatened.

What readers read is not that small dot in the end, but the words written, the phrases, the paragraphs.

So while we can choose the letters to make a sentence on our own pages... let's enjoy this blessing, our freedom to live each day, making the best stories of our lives, day by day.

Let us not rush towards the end because there is present that we still need to make...

---o0o---

There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

Ecclesiastes 3:1

A Proud Apo of Lolo Marciano

2010-04-21T11:47:00.002+04:00

I am.

Even before Remembering Lola Marcosa, I first thought of writing about our Lolo Marciano...
He just celebrated his birthday last 11 April, and though we are on the opposite side of the world (he is in L.A.), and I missed calling him on that day, he's always on my heart and prayers...

A righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him. - Prov. 20:7

Yes. We are blessed having a righteous Lolo. Someone who lead us into the right path... who set a good example of being a good father to his children, a good husband to his wife and a child of God.

Unlike my Lola M, I did not have much 'bonding moments' with Lolo. He is No! No! to Bingo and Comics... Yet, those few moments with him were precious... as he speaks nothing but words of wisdom from the Bible.

He is a Lord's servant. At home, aside from eating and watching TV Patrol, he reads. I don’t know how many times he finished reading the Bible, but I am sure he did... that is the only book that he reads...

From the first fruit of his lips a man is filled with good things as surely as the work if his hands rewards him. - Prov. 12:14

All the words that come out from his mouth are word of knowledge... He has guided his children well, raised them as God fearing individual... though it took time before the family accepted Christ to be the Lord and Savior... he never fails to pray for his children and their family... he never lose hope... his faith moved miraculously within every member of the family...

We are living a happy and peaceful life because he showed us the way and patiently guided us to know our Lord God. And his legacy lives on...

The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of the dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day. - Proverbs. 4:18

Remembering Lola Marcosa

2010-04-19T17:37:00.003+04:00

It’s almost 12 years ago when she went home…
Yet until this moment, I still feel that longing…
Her teasing smile… how she played around with her grand children.
Her way of kissing on our forehead…

She is a giver…a very generous Lola...
Like any other grandmother; she gave her all to her grandkids.
We had a happy childhood; there was never a dull moment with her…
She makes a simple nap time more exciting by giving prizes to the first kid to fall asleep :-)
Or a consequence to those who won’t lie-down, like removing her gray hair or a head massage…
I knew Agua Bendita (a comic story, now into TV) from Liwayway Komiks when I was a grader…
Yes, not a fairy tale book or any other children’s books… but we read comics together during siesta time…
Bingo was not a gambling for us, but a fun bonding game for the family. Yes, we also play it with money, from her ofcourse…
She will give us money and we will all play. No one will lose, because at the end of the game, she will give us the same amount as what the winner will get.

As I grew older, I’ve come to know that Lola is a very strong person.
She will stick to what she believed was right… No one can influence her.
Her fair treatment to every member of the family is something that I really admire from her.
We have a very big family… she had 13 kids… 30+ grandkids… 100+ great grandkids…
Each has their own story… while she was still with us; she knows what’s going on with each family.
Even though sometimes they hide it from her… she is the mother, and I believe that she felt it deep within.
I admire her strength and bravery. She inspired me in a lot of ways.
Her love for the family, the good example that she showed to us was instill in my heart.

In the last years of her life, she finally accepted our Lord God.
After decades of not talking to our Lolo because of different beliefs, I witnessed her rebirth…
How she received Christ as her Savior; how her life changed…
I’ve seen her transformed from a happy to a more joyful Lola…
That peace that comes from her heart was glowing and made the rest of her life more meaningful…

29 "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all."

30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;

but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

31 Give her the reward she has earned,

and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Proverbs 31:29-31

I am missing her, every single day...
Yet I know that she is just there… happy in heaven, watching over us.

Violet is Red

2010-04-14T17:47:00.005+04:00

He is one of the Big Bosses, known to be the toughest and worst boss within the agency...
Let's call him Violet. The terror VP of the company.

Even the coffee delivery guy knew who and what he was.
If you happen to be a first timer within the vicinity, someone will surely warn you about Violet.
Or maybe, you'll find it yourself once you pass the hall near his office.
To newly hired employees, his name should be mentioned and he should be described, otherwise, the first day will also be their last...

He screamed to death...
With his power, even if he whispers... his voice will be heard...
Like a king... people should follow his orders...
The company is his kingdom.

To almost everyone... he is Miranda - from 'The devil wears Prada', or rather, Miranda is only half of him...
Violet is far worst... he was described to be Hitler by others who worked with him...

Can you imagine the life of his P.A?
No one within the network would like to be in her shoes...

And most were amazed how she deals with him.

Even Violet himself asked her several times, on how she looked at him.
With all sincerity, she said, 'I believe you are kind.'

Yes. To her, Violet is Red...
A man with soft heart and kindness deep within.
Not everyone might understand and believe but yes, he is Red to her...

Why?

This small but terrible PA is like David dealing with Goliath...
Her secret weapon is not a stone, but the powerful prayer that she whisper to our Lord God every single day of her office life.
Praying that He will touch Violet's heart, make it as Red as it can be...

And God continuously fulfill her prayers...
Knowing how Violet treated his previous PAs, everyday is a miracle to her.

Many can't believe, but indeed, Violet is Red...

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts, and your minds in Christ Jesus.

- Philippians 4:6-7

Such miracle can happen to every corners of offices with 'Violet' bosses...

Instead of cursing your managers... lift them up to Him. and you will witness how God touch one's heart...

Forward, March!!!

2010-04-11T16:59:00.001+04:00

We have had our own farewells.
Bid goodbyes on different notes...
Chapters that ends...
Doors that close.

As to some, goodbyes were always painful...
Holding on to the past that was over for so long.
Stucked up with old memories and living with those,
Trapped in the days of fantasies that makes it worst.

The pain of acceptance and letting go...
We should not be caught by fear of facing tomorrow...
Yesterday was a past, yes, it passed;
Things that happened, we can never bring back.

The only truth is that, what we only have...
and that is today, where our focus should be attached.

Regrets from the past, until when will you be locked?
The guilt, the pain, that anger and fear...
Release it for once, and give yourself a chance...
Be free and live a life, love today and let go of the past.

One Black Saturday

2010-04-06T17:32:00.004+04:00

Black Saturday was indeed black for the entire family as my cousin passed away...
A father of 2 girls, 9 y/o and 8 m/o, his life ended at 33. Not with any incurable disease nor a vehicular accident...
He took his own life, not for suicide but only for a bad joke...

The incident happened past midnight, he and 2 of our cousins were just hanging out just outside their house, until he showed his gun, removed the magazine and tease the two guys. Knowing that its not a good joke, the 2 decided to leave... wanting to prove that there is no bullet inside, he then pointed the gun into his head...
by this time, the 2 cousins were like few meters away... until they heard the shot.

Looking back, they saw him, slowly falling, with blood all around.

At that very moment, 2 lovely girls lost their father. A wife lost a husband. A parent lost their son. Siblings lost their youngest. A family will never be complete again...

All because of one mistake... a bad joke!

Our entire family are still shocked.
Each of us gathers strength from one another and from the One above;
The Only One who gives us courage to let go and move forward...
Our Lord God who can answer all the why's...

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you now that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:2-3

Lent

2010-03-29T18:19:00.002+04:00

The season of prayer and penitence...
Time of commemorating the death and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ.

As the whole Christian world observes the Holy Week, many tends to forget the real meaning of the season... Most family were already booked for the much awaited week long vacation. Friends have their parties set... Although the traditional practices were still observed (esp. in Phils.), it was more of gimik and happenings instead of remembering what Jesus had been through and understand why He suffered on the cross.

Living in a Muslim country is becoming more difficult in times like this, when Christians should be in churches for service and activities or doing some penitence, we are inside our offices, just as another ordinary day...
I missed the days of watching 'The Ten Commandments', times when we are just at home and Nanay reads the Bible, or attending Bible study lead by our Lolo Marciano.

More than the usual vacation, as Christians, we are longing for the Spirit of the Holy Week... Moments when we can reflect and repent and give service to others. Observing the good examples that Jesus demonstrated to us.

Though being on this part of the world, surrounded by non-believers, it won't be a hindrance for us take part and rekindle our faith... deep in our hearts, we continuously give thanks for all His sacrifices...

"This is how God showed His love among us; He sent His One and Only Son into the world that we might live through Him." -1 John 4:9

They Stick On Me

2010-03-25T14:13:00.000+04:00

I am back to work.
And still under medications...

My recent check up with Urologist regarding my 'rubies' has good results. As expected, my right kidney is now clear and no more 'gems' :) the one on the left are 'about to leave'... :) or up to date, it should've passed out already.

The endoscopy took place after my Uro check up. I can remember how nervous I was... my heart was pounding fast. Everything was clear to me, from wearing the gown and cap, lying down on the bed, checking BP, nurse explaining the procedure, dextrose, entering the Endoscopy room, all the apparatus inside, the oxygen tube, the mouth piece, throat spray, injection of anesthesia... then I fall asleep.

I woke up inside the SSU (Short Stay Unit) with my bestfriend (Erika) beside me... taking some pictues of me. When I was fully conscious, 2 of our friends (Eric and Maoo) went inside too and awaken me with their witty stories.

After some time, the nurse gave the results - the findings... I don't remember the actual medical terms but as what I understood it has something to do with my Ulcer. Hmmmmm... Bile Reflux Gastritis! and the other one, I really cannot recall ... anyways, what is important and very clear is that there is nothing serious... I just have to continue with the medications.

I've researched about my condition, and it says:

Bile reflux

Bile is a greenish-yellow fluid that's essential for digesting fats and for eliminating worn-out red blood cells and certain toxins from your body. It's produced in your liver and stored in your gallbladder in a highly concentrated form.
Eating a meal that contains even a modest amount of fat signals your gallbladder to release bile, which flows through two small tubes (cystic duct and common bile duct) into the upper part of your small intestine (duodenum).

Bile reflux into the stomach
At the same time that bile is entering the duodenum, food enters your small intestine through the pyloric valve, a heavy ring of muscle located at the outlet of your stomach. Ordinarily, the pyloric valve opens just slightly — enough to release about an eighth of an ounce (about 3.5 milliliters) of liquefied food at a time, but not enough to allow digestive juices to backup (reflux) into the stomach. In many cases of bile reflux, the valve doesn't close properly, and bile backwashes into the stomach, where it causes irritation and inflammation (gastritis).

What leads to bile reflux?
Peptic ulcers. Sometimes a peptic ulcer can block the pyloric valve. Rather than not closing tightly, the valve doesn't open enough to allow the stomach to empty as quickly as it should. The stagnant food and liquid in the stomach can lead to increased gastric pressure that causes refluxed bile and stomach acid to back up into the esophagus.

Source: mayoclinic

Actually, these 2 health problems was already with me for a long time. I was first diagnosed with Peptic Ulcer when I was still in high school and kidney stones during college. Through grace of God, I was healed then and now.

'Rubies' recur maybe because I really like salty foods... my meal always comes with fish sauce or soy sauce. I guess I have to say goodbye to that :( my eating habit wont be the same without 'patis', but I woudn't trade my kidneys for that!
My ulcer, never left me since then. I have been very cautious with this but it really does stick on me! I understand that my bad habits before usually triggered its attack... and maybe, I am now reaping all the negative effects. I have been living a healthier life (no smoke, no alcohol, 1 coffee a day) for almost 6 months now, but I noticed that my ulcer attack are getting worst.

Maybe because it is adjusting? Maybe my stomach is not used to being clean :) :) :)
or whatever it may be, I know that it will soon be over, and I will be well.

Despite the pain, I am glad that I quit.
I am now adjusting to a 'clean and green' life and I know that this pain is nothing compared to more serious diseases that I might get from those vices.

God saved me.
He picked me up at the right time, before the bad habits ruined me totally.

I believe that my body is just in the 'cleansing' process, and soon, all the ''leftovers' will be gone. Fears have no room inside me. I have dealt with this sickness before, it means nothing, especially now, knowing that God is embracing me...

"Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security."

Jeremiah 33:6

Whatever is Inside Me

2010-03-17T18:05:00.002+04:00

I still don't know...

It's my 10th day of medication.
And I really can't say that I am well or even I am better.

I am OK. Well, everything is the same...
Aside from taking some medicines, I am still fine.

It's just that I am more conscious with every strange (and normal - that I thought was strange) things that I feel from within... behind these bellies :)

Well, I must admit that I am a bit troubled with the thought of 'endoscopy' which was scheduled 5 days from now... I prayed for it, that if it is really needed, He will let the insurance approve it, and if not necessary, then it will be declined. I want to think that it was granted to give me peace of mind... to confirm that everything is normal.

I am bothered with this sedation and anesthesia and hospital bed and medicine tablets.... grrrrrrrrrr! I am not used to it. That hospital smell makes me sick!!! but I have to undergo such test... and I am looking forward on the day that I won't feel anything abnormal on my tummy again.

Somehow, I have this 2% excitement to know and understand why I am having this pain. My curiosity keeps me thrilled and gives me courage to do it.

I know I'll be fine in there. I am safe because God is in charge...
There might be some dilemma but I know that He is there for me.

When the sun was setting, the people brought to Jesus all who had various kinds of sickness, and laying his hands on each one, he healed them.

Luke 4:40

Forever Grateful

2010-03-08T16:33:00.005+04:00

For quite sometime now, there's a pain in my abdomen...
Last weekend, I underwent an abdominal ultrasound, and discovered that I have 'gems' on my kidneys... 5mm on the left and tiny 'gravels' on the right.

Nothing to worry. Everything is fine.
I am now under medications and in 2 weeks time, there will be another ultrasound to check... and in Jesus' name, I know that it will be gone...

Though as per my Urologist, the pain is not coming from those 'rubies' (as I call it), but maybe from my Colon... and so I haveto see another doctor, a Gastroenterologist - which I already called for an appointment, that is 2 days from now. I will let you know... :)

I am smiling... because I know that I will be well, soon.
and I am grateful because I believe that this is just another test of my faith in Him... and I will not be shaken.

For the past months... life seems to be perfect for me and my family. Our hearts are filled with joy... there are a lot of reasons to celebrate. And we are thankful that we are so blessed.
I don't say that this is the payment for that (as we sometime thinks that in every happiness, there is sadness afterwards)... because I believe that this is another blessing for me, as God will use me to show His healing power as He removes these diseases away from my body.

God gives me trial so that I will continually cling onto His hands, and forever keep in touch with Him. Day by day, I know that He moves into my life... and through these circumstances, behind all these pain, I am molded and hardened to become a better individual - to be called His child.

"He knows the way I take;

when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold.

My feet have closely followed His steps;

I have kept to His way without turning aside."

Job 23:10-11

I AM SOOO IN LOVE

2010-03-02T16:54:00.003+04:00

Wondered why I was not posting much for the past weeks?

First is because we are business as usual. Thank God that our client approved huge projects that were proposed for 2010. It feels great to be productive again here in the office.
And after some renovations, firing and hiring of management bosses, and few cake slicing for birthday celebrators... we are back to business. Though more changes are expected to take place in the coming weeks, I am ready :)

But aside from the work... I got engaged on other more important things.
Its been a month of Thursday meetings... and I got hooked to it.

What's the meeting all about???

After being Christian for almost 20 years (since I was born again and baptized), I finally said I do.

I do... to the commitment of learning - Bible study, which I ignored for the longest time (esp. in our church in Phils.) Though I had my own 'selfish' reasons before, I know that it's not acceptable.
Being a proud believer; I always and always say that my faith can move mountains... yet, there is still an empty space... I am still thirsty to learn more...

Part of the big blessing from finding a church in our new place (which made me - simply happy), is being part of the young adults group who also wants to know Him more... we quenched our thirst by organizing a weekly meeting to study.

After few weeks, I realized that there are still a lot of things that I need to learn... and I found myself falling in love to this reality. I am inspired to know more and share those knowledge with you.

I am hungry, and He continously feed me. I am in love and He hugs me sooo tight and loved me more. I am happy and thankful for this happiness, knowing that He is the source of this peace.

I am free and I couldn't ask for more.

"Jesus said, 'If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples.

Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free."

John 8:31:32

Happy Birthday Tatay

2010-02-28T18:08:00.001+04:00

Wala na akong mahihiling pa...

dahil

IKAW

ang

TATAY KO!!!

I love you sooo much, Tay!

JAL Hotel, Fujairah

2010-02-24T12:03:00.003+04:00

Located just 90 minutes from the dynamic city of Dubai and 40 minutes from Fujairah City, the hotel is situated between the Hajjar Mountains and the ocean and is set on more than 500 meters of private beach.

JAL offers not only the best facilities and but the best customer service you can get.

(hotel lobby)

Fun and relaxation are all over JAL.

With its long private beach and separated buildings, guests have their privacy.

Have it your way...

Warm water @ Infinity pool

Or Cold Fresh water pool

and of course, your kids' covered pool...

I know swimming pools are just great, but we all want mooore!!!

JAL's beach is too hard to resist!

From sunrise

To sunset

As the sun bids goodbye...

Prepare yourself for an ideal evening...

@ Marco Polo

Restaurant features the traditional culinary fare from Asia and Japan.

Traditional food preparation from the Wok for the Thai selection, Tandoori for the Indian, Sushi for the Japanese.

They also have other restaurants:

Breeze (Location: First Floor – Sea View) which offers a wide selection of Mediterranean a”-la-carte dishes including Pizza for lunch and dinner. Dishes are prepared in the open show kitchen giving the opportunity to interact with our Chefs.

Icho (Location: Top of dive center) is the only traditional teppanyaki restaurant available on the East Coast. Japanese style restaurant serving traditional teppanyaki cuisine.

Al Nokhada (Location: Second Floor) is the Arabic restaurant serving hot & cold mezzeh with mix grills in a Traditional Arabic Atmosphere. Perfect place to relax in the evening in a traditional Arabic environment.

Grand Bleu (Location: Beach Side / Ground Floor) overlooking the ocean, it offers mouth watering salads, sanwiches, steaks, seafood, light snacks and refreshing cocktails.

Moon Beach Lounge (Location: Second Floor) Let yourself pamper at our Roof Top Bar, while enjoying shisha, tisbits and cocktails in the romantic evening settings.

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Our stay was not enough to show you all enjoyment that JAL can offer...

There are a lot mooooore!

Hopefully, I'll be back there, verrrrrrrrry soooooon :)

Source: JAL Hotel

Other side of Fujairah

2010-02-23T16:11:00.003+04:00

Aside from being the only mountainous emirate among the seven Emirates, it is also the only one on the Gulf of Oman in the country's east.

Behind the mountains of Fujairah is another bliss...

20 And God said, "Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the expanse of the sky." 21 So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living and moving thing with which the water teems, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good. 22 God blessed them and said, "Be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth." 23 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fifth day. - Genesis 1:20-23

Mountains of Fujairah

2010-02-16T22:00:00.002+04:00

Enjoy the beautiful nature!!!

the wonderful work of our Creator...

at the back of the mountain is the other side of the story...

9 And God said, "Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear." And it was so. 10 God called the dry ground "land," and the gathered waters he called "seas." And God saw that it was good." - Genesis 1:9-10

Love Love Love

2010-02-14T15:53:00.003+04:00

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Today is all about love.

This morning, I found this chocolate heart and a note on my desk...

Sweet, isn't it?

NOPE!!! Its not from my admirer... :) :) :)

It's from "The Management"... though I was expecting a different gift from them!!! (lol)

I do appreciate the management's simple way of reaching out to everyone and expressing their compassion.

And after an hour and half, a delivery boy handed to me these...

Ooops! You're wrong again...

These are from our Travel agents. Their way of saying thank you for the business :)

Love is really in the air...

And it is not only for couples...

Love day is for everyone who knows how to love.

Earlier, I spoke with my cousin, who is currently on the process of legal separation with her hubby. They have decided to put an end to their marriage at young age. Admittedly. she is sad, not because of the annulment but, just because...

When I told her that there are many reasons to be happy, she said: "I know girl.. hehe.. minsan lang (sometimes) I just cant help but get sad... like today.. everyone seems to be happy celebrating... ako (I) nothing to celebrate..."

It's because her 'single' friends were out on a date and she felt alone...

I reminded her that there are a lot of reasons to be happy...

And being single will never be a hindrance to celebrate the day of love!

As long as we are willing to share love to others and willing to receive others' love...

Valentine's day will always be special day and that everyday can be a Valentine's day.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”
John 13:34-35

Mi-Ser-Able

2010-02-04T17:56:00.002+04:00

From the recent Forwarded Messages blog - Why Some People Have All The Luck some commented another question - Why others becomes miserable?

Now, I am seeking answers...

In the blog, there are (4) Tips to be Lucky:

1) Listen to your gut instincts - they are normally right
2) Be open to new experiences and breaking your normal routine
3) Spend a few moments each day remembering things that went well
4) Visualize yourself being lucky before an important meeting or telephone call.

All psychological.

Remembering "The Secret" - the power of mind; the law of attraction.
YOU are the master of your destiny.

1) Listen to your instincts!!! - your instinct actually depends on what you think will happen or rather, those that you want to happen.
2) Be open to new experiences... - because unless you allow your mind to move on, you will be locked forever on your comfort zone.
3) Spend few moments each day remembering things that went well. - happy thoughts!!!
4) Visualize yourself being lucky... - think positive +

Indeed, it all sums up to "The Secret" :)

And why others becomes miserable???

As seen on this blog's title, I tried to look at the word... and tried to look at some words within the word.

Mi - Ser - Able

Mi - I
Ser - To be;
Able - Fit; adapted; suitable
(meanings from wikipedia)

From these words' meanings, and its like: I am to be fit or to be suitable...

And maybe, that is what others forget, since its mixed up; we tend to disregard the importance of having a clear mind... and that we are TO BE SUITABLE.

(does it make sense?) I hope so...

Personally, I believe that things happened not because of luck, but because of how we believe.
It doesn't only depend on how good we are, but on how deep our faith is.
Not just what our mind dictates, but it's what our heart says...

Thinking that all will be well is a plus factor; but our heart has the major role.

"As it is written; 'No eyes has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him." - 1 Corinthian 2:9

Month-End

2010-01-31T17:04:00.002+04:00

I posted "Akalain mo bang last day na ng January?" (Would you believe, its already the end of January?) on my Facebook status...

And got different feedbacks... others, just like me, were also surprised!
Days passed really fast!!! 1st month of 2010 just ended.
One friend mentioned the bills... yup! If you're like her, TAKE NOTE! It's month - end already, and you just have 5 day grace period to settle the bills. Another friend, who is leaving, just counted the few remaining days left, before saying goodbye... While one friend just came back from an out of town coverage :)

Different reactions... as the month closes.
Each of us has our own month end issues.
My cousin Janice (whom I now call Month-end) is a CPA and every end of month, her life turns upside down :) with all the accountings etc etc. And I can imagine her everytime I pass by our Finance Department on month ends...
As they audit debit and credit and check and balance and count and compute... lol!

And though we are not accountants... we too should have some balance sheets to monitor.
Not just our bills that will soon be due... but as an employee, a friend, a daughter/son, a mother/father, a sister/brother, and a child of God.

What did you do in the past 31 days of this month?

In your job, were deadlines met? Were you able to deliver what was expected from us? Did you excel? Where you productive? Did you ever compliment your staff with all the works that they've done?
Have you reach out for a friend? Did you time to spend with them, even on the phone, on FB, on YM?
What about your family? Did you even say hello to them this month? At home, did you hug your mom and dad? Have you asked your siblings how are they? Your children? Have you heard their stories from school? What are their new interest?

And last, but not the least, as a child of God... have you ever say thank you for letting you had this month? For still seeing the sun rise every morning... having that job to finance the expenses... being a friend to someone and having someone as a friend... and having a family and being loved unconditionally...?

We had 31 days this January... have you touched someone's life?
Were you able to make someone smile?

It might be to fast... but still, each day had passed, and we can never bring it back.

In accounts, we may be negative this month...
We may have lost some earnings on the investments that we did not make...
But, we are blessed for standing still. Head up as we welcome the February.
After the auditing... We can still move forward and do something to make up...

Not everyone is as lucky as we are as we look forward to the coming month, or even day...

Some days were ended before the month ends... some company closes before the month closes... some lost a friend and even loved ones... others had broken relationships...
Haiti disaster is a reminder that indeed, we are really blessed for being here.

Time is gold... it is pricesless.
We should invest it well...

"Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom."

Psalm 90:12

Prayer Power

2010-01-26T16:31:00.002+04:00

"There are thoughts which are prayers...
There are moments when, whatever the posture of the body, the soul is on its knees." -Victor Hugo

Have you ever experience that?
When there are no other things in your mind, but prayers...
Either giving thanks and praise or asking for strength and relief...
Or just simply wanting to be on His feet... talking with Him in silence.

In one article, I read about Paul's teaching on Thanksgiving and Prayer (Ephesians 1:15-23).

He prayed that people will be given the Spirit of Knowledge to know God better.
For people to experience in their lives the power that raised Jesus from the dead.
He prayed that God would strengthen them by Spirit in their inner being.
He talked about worship and submission in terms of Spirit.
And to let the Spirit use God's words in their lives and encouraged them to 'pray in Spirit.'

Paul demonstrates the importance of seeking God in prayer... showing us that prayer, worship, submission and the word of God are crucial in releasing the Spirit's Power in our lives.

There is one more "prayer lesson" that I can never forget. I learned this from my religion class from grade school....
How we should pray, remembering others... with fingers as guide:

Thumb, as nearest to the heart, stands for the people who are close to our hearts...
Index, or the pointing finger, are like those who teach, they may be our teachers, pastors, trainors... pray for those people.
Middle, as the tallest are the leaders, our boss, head of our team, government officials... people that leads.
Third, being the weakest, reminds us for those who are sick... we should never forget to pray for them.
Finally, the Little finger, which is ourselves...

Physically, do you experience goose bumps when you pray? Cold air embraces you, while you are talking to Him... Tears unconciously flow from your eyes... Do you feel the lightness from deep within after you surrender you worries? Do you feel relieved?

And even if we don't say anything; when we simply call on His name and our heart sing praises...
He will hold you close...

That is the magic of prayers...

For me, its like a button that when I switched on, it will automatically remove all my tensions and fears.
At times when I am feeling disturbed and stressed, a seconds of silence will give me peace.
One click and I'll feel comfortable again :)
Because I know that He listens and I feel that He cares.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Philippians 4:6-7

Lord, Please Hear Our Prayers

2010-01-21T12:02:00.002+04:00

Lord, please take away the sadness. We are hurting. We are weary.

There are days we cannot remember what joy felt like.

Our hearts have been broken. We sometimes wonder if you really care ...

and if you are really there. We are not sure how much we can bear.

So, in our sadness we pray,

"Father, restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."

Lord, please take away the fear. There's so much happening that we don't understand.

We struggle with the uncertainty. We struggle to find confidence.

We are looking for reasons for hope. So, in our times of fear we pray,

"Father, walk with us and hold us in Your strong hands."

Lord, please take away the anger. We are not by nature angry people.

But, there are times when the anger waits just beneath the surface to erupt at just the wrong moment.

We don't want that anger to take root in our hearts. We want to let go of it and harbor no resentment.

We want to forgive. So, in our anger we prayer,

"Father, forgive us as we forgive those who have sinned against us."

Lord, please take away the hurt. The hurts ... well, they hurt.

The hurt seems to never end. Pain is all around us.

Not just us, but people all around us are crying for relief.

So in our times of hurting we pray for Your healing hand to rest upon us,

and to feel Your comforting Spirit within us, and that someday we might understand.

Lord, take away the loneliness. There are times when loneliness almost completely overwhelms us.

We long for love. We know You are always with us. We know your love is real.

So, in our loneliness we pray, "Fill us, Lord, with Your presence."

Lord, thank you for meeting us in prayer until we come home to you and meet you face to face.

We surrender everything to you, Father... In Jesus' name, we pray.

Amen.

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Photos from CNN

Counting Apples

2010-01-18T14:02:00.002+04:00

Anyone can count the seeds of an apple...

But only God can count the apples in a seed.

-o0o-

We are all geniuses... experts in our own fields.

We have mastered our crafts.

We know what we know...

and we should distinguish what we don't...

We have grown into our different professions...

We have succeeded with our own careers...

But we should always remember that it's not just because of us.

We've seen the fruit of our labor; the results of our hardwork...

Our wings were wide open, we have fly high enough.

Yet do we recognize how we manage to take off before we reach the sky?

Counting apples from the tree is as easy as ABC.

Like reckoning our blessings, from the simplest to the best... as simple as 123.

But do we understand that beyond the soil, sun and water that helps the trees grow and produce fruits... it is the Creator who made it possible?

We may have achieved our greatest dreams... not just because we are good and smart... but our God has blessed us with His mercy and love.

"Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails."
- Proverbs 19:21